Local Bitch Decides To Daydream Instead Of Getting A Degree

i am the shyest attention whore ever

i want to study at a British university

i will spell color as colour and use degrees celcius. i would watch Sherlock on BBC all night while drinking a cuppa tea with my flatmates. i’ll have fish and chips every day that’s worth 5 quid. i would go to gaff parties every night. i am also more likely to meet chavs, One Direction, Ed Sheeran and the Queen.

i wish i was british :(

and now for another internal conflict : do I want to be Classics™️ dark academia, XIXth Century™️ dark academia or XXth Century™️ dark academia

listen. I know every year we all go "I wish good things will happen !" "I want my life to turn around !" and it gets stronger when we're starting a new decade. But things won't change if you don't make them. Jumping on opportunities isn't enough ; you need to create them. You want to be well read ? Read a lot ! Meet new people ? Go out and initiate conversations ! Get a new job ? Actively look for one, or more !

FUCK

self-destruction doesn’t always look like taking too many pills or cutting your skin open. sometimes it’s drinking coffee when you know caffeine gives you panic attacks. sometimes it’s crossing the street without looking both ways. sometimes it’s showering with the water a little too hot. sometimes it’s avoiding eye contact with your reflection in the mirror or ridiculing your problems rather than addressing them. sometimes it’s walking out without sunscreen in scorching heat and not wearing enough when it’s freezing out. self destruction isn’t always physical mutilation, mostly it’s masked as little things so never assume what someone may be going through just bc they don’t show you visible signs of suffering.

straight people have a fundamental misunderstanding of gay culture and not simply in the modern cadence. they seem determined to believe that, historically, no men loved men or no women loved women. this means as a gay person it is my righteous duty to inform them that the wild west was full of gay cowboys

Joan of Arc

holds a skull with my fingers in the eye sockets like a bowling ball

Part of the New Internet Grammar: using question marks not to denote questions, but upturns in voice, so that a tentative statement gets a question mark but a flatly delivered question doesn’t.

Caravaggio living paintings by Ludovica Rambelli Theater