Some Things To Put On Your Altar For Fall

It's strange how a few short seconds can lead you in a whole new direction,

It alters how you think and act and see your own reflection.

From a single moment on, my life was forever changed,

Like everything I previously knew had suddenly been rearranged.

No one will ever understand just how I felt that day,

But deep within this poem I shall try to convey.

I cannot even begin to illustrate the repulsive person I once knew.

I intend to simply express the horror that I went through.

I was abruptly pinned against the wall of a hard, rough concrete bathroom

Small blade across my cheek, how can i explain i couldnt move i couldnt scream. Fear takes over your body as threats are whispered in your ear.

"just come with me and the end will be near"

Suddenly I was captured, no possible way to escape.

Wondering if I deserved it, if it was truly my fate.

I tried to fly away, but my wings he had been broke.

I was like an innocent cow that he used to prod and poke.

My mind filled with confusion, and his filled with lust.

He took another part of me with each and every thrust.

Tears like elegant pearls gracefully danced down my face.

I peered into his soul with a firm look of disgrace.

His cold touch like a vacuum, sucking out the life in me.

His ears were wide open, but he wouldn't hear my plea.

Standing there in the night, so scared, so exposed.

I was covered by a veil of darkness, like satin petals of a rose.

The glowing moon looked down at me, peaking through a massive blanket of stars.

I could touch it; it seemed so close, but it was really oh so far.

Worse than at the doctor; he injected me with filth and dirt.

His intention was deliberate; it was very clear and overt.

It is a bit funny that a piece of scum is all he'll ever be,

And the only thing that he accomplished doing in life is me.

Sometimes late at night I simply can't fall sleep

Thinking about how my innocence is no longer mine to keep.

What some can only imagine in their worst possible nightmare

Is my gruesome reality that can't be undone nor repaired.

I may have the sweetest smile, glowing between my nose and chin,

But only I know the truth about the deep secrets held within.

I may have the prettiest eyes that have seen more than they should

And have cried more delicate tears than anyone else ever could.

I may have the kindest heart, but that came with a cost.

It has felt the worst of pains and experienced the greatest loss.

I cannot change the past, an event to which I succumbed.

But I can focus on the present and change what is to come. 

We are all so different and yet so much the same.

Everyone, in some way or another, will experience a kind of pain.

Everybody has things they wish not to recall,

Into each life some rain must fall.

Scattered throughout our lives, like a friend that is one of a kind,

Dreary days will steadily approach, bad memories trailing behind.

These dark days are necessary, just as important as the rest,

For if we didn't have the worst, we couldn't recognize the best.

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Now here i am holding on to my new fav shirt,

which has your Cologne

its as if your here though i know your slipping away.

yes i can call for help

yes i can find a way to runaway

but when someone can hurt you in a matter of seconds

what will happen if help takes too long

what happens when your feet cant keep up with the violent pounding of your heart

there will always be blank spaces in this story and those spaces are filled with fear

fear can consume you more than you could ever know.

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its funny how you can sit and write a poem

while the other person watches you

not understanding a word thats being written

language barriers come in handy sometimes..

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i probably lost you though i have never given up

time is the only enemy

i still love you since we said hello

its wierd how i never agreed with the phrase: if you love him let him go.... if he returns you were always ment to be...

i cry too much,i dont want to let him go... but i cant keep causing him pain.

im being too selfish for loving him..

This is sooo true with my brother @goth-creepy13

This is you basically roaming New Orleans😂 @lunagarmadon

Recipe: Josh’s “Feel Good” Tea

We’ve all had those days when we’re so sick we don’t want to do much. Between fits of rather painful coughing, sniffling, achiness, and difficulty breathing, I knew that I needed a good strong tea to help kick this flu in the rear. And that’s how I came to create my “Feel Good” blend - a nice, strong tea that makes you feel calm and relaxed before promptly knocking you out for a good nap.

Ingredients: -1 tbsp peppermint tea -1 tsp chamomile -1.5 tsp rosemary -1 tsp lavender -Honey (raw recommended) -pinch ground cinnamon -Boiling Water

Combine all of your herbs in a sachet and steep in the water for anywhere between 3 and 10 minutes for a strong tea. Add honey to taste and sprinkle a little cinnamon on top. Enjoy!

Witchy Notes: Peppermint is great for pain relief from coughing due to the menthol, chamomile helps to relax and encourages sleep. Rosemary is a great cough suppressant and also helps to ease aches and pain. Lavender helps to induce calm, allowing you to breathe easier. Honey and cinnamon both have antibacterial properties and are excellent health ingredients. Enchant your ingredients ahead of time as you see fit, so that your tea will have a bit of magic all to its own!

70 horrible questions ... Fuck it

01: Do you have a good relationship with your parents? 02: Who did you last say “I love you” to? 03: Do you regret anything? 04: Are you insecure? 05: What is your relationship status? 06: How do you want to die? 07: What did you last eat? 08: Played any sports? 09: Do you bite your nails? 10: When was your last physical fight? 11: Do you like someone? 12: Have you ever stayed up 48 hours? 13: Do you hate anyone at the moment? 14: Do you miss someone? 15: Have any pets? 16: How exactly are you feeling at the moment? 17: Ever made out in the bathroom? 18: Are you scared of spiders? 19: Would you go back in time if you were given the chance? 20: Where was the last place you snogged someone? 21: What are your plans for this weekend? 22: Do you want to have kids? How many? 23: Do you have piercings? How many? 24: What is/are/were your best subject(s)? 25: Do you miss anyone from your past? 26: What are you craving right now? 27: Have you ever broken someone’s heart? 28: Have you ever been cheated on? 29: Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry? 30: What’s irritating you right now? 31: Does somebody love you? 32: What is your favourite color? 33: Do you have trust issues? 34: Who/what was your last dream about? 35: Who was the last person you cried in front of? 36: Do you give out second chances too easily? 37: Is it easier to forgive or forget? 38: Is this year the best year of your life? 39: How old were you when you had your first kiss? 40: Have you ever walked outside completely naked? 51: Favourite food? 52: Do you believe everything happens for a reason? 53: What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night? 54: Is cheating ever okay? 55: Are you mean? 56: How many people have you fist fought? 57: Do you believe in true love? 58: Favourite weather? 59: Do you like the snow? 60: Do you wanna get married? 61: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby? 62: What makes you happy? 63: Would you change your name? 64: Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed? 65: Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? 66: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around? 67: Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to? 68: Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? 69: Do you believe in soulmates? 70: Is there anyone you would die for?

Thanks mark for every thing

“If you’re feeling very anxious, very sad, very depressed or if you’re having panic attacks or anything like that just know that it’s not a bad thing. You’re not a bad person, you can get out of it and I believe in you. If no one else believes in you just trust that I believe in you.” — @therealjacksepticeye

Well my mom sent me this and I love it! And its true for me

So many are shattered but they may find a way thru the pain they are in. They just have to keep up thier hopes up