Moonshyness - In Between Worlds

"Don't wait for it," I said. "Create a world, your world. Alone. Stand alone. Create. And then the love will come to you, then it comes to you. It was only when I wrote my first book that the world I wanted to live in opened to me."

Anaïs Nin, The Diary of Anais Nin Volume I 1931-1934

my two cents on the desire unleash tracklist...i want to know why we need multiple english/korean versions of a song on an album. i really don't like that kpop does this bc then u have like (in this case) 2x2 versions of the same song on the album. i'd rather have a shorter mini album and a single album for the english versions of the songs bc it messes with cohesion. they already put so much effort into building up the aesthetics and tone of the album and the tracklisting kinda just puts a dent in that. like ik kpop is not the place to look for cohesion in album tracklisting but they did it with dark blood so why not here?? i had the same pet peeve with orange blood, which has such good tracks but the tracklisting takes me out of the immersion cause it has 3 (3!!!) versions of sweet venom on it lol

anyway i'm still super excited for the new songs!

youre gonna grow up and realize just how much more lightheartedness you need in life

i went on a walk today again and i kept thinking about how the more you try to control what happens in your life, the more unhappy you will be with it. at least up to a certain point. the more you think you know what you want, the unhappier you will be once you get it and realize what the reality of living with it is like.

society is so fixated on finding your purpose, reaching goals and achievements but that's mainly because we're scared of dying and realizing how miniscule our existence really is in the grand scheme of things. that's one of the main reasons why so many people wanna be remembered for something. and there's nothing wrong with wanting that but there's also nothing wrong with not finding your purpose, or just achieving things that society deems "small" or "unimportant". if it's important to you then it matters. our baseline purpose is to just live our lives and exist. anything else on top of that is a bonus, but not necessary.

if i learned one thing in my almost 30 years of existing, it's that during the course of your life you will realize the ways in which you will reach your goals or find your purpose will be different than you imagined. the less you resist that truth, the less you will be worried about the future and the more at peace you will feel with your existence.

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i want to grow out my eyebrows and become the jellyfish woman with a blowfish tongue. i want to be the yellow teethed sun, smiling back at my own anger. i want to use my tears as a blanket and drape them over every heartache i have ever felt until the colors of my pain dilute into a disgusting brown puddle. then i will bathe in it. when i was sad about how slow i was moving through life i found comfort in the late-blooming trees, until i read that they are not really at a disadvantage compared to early-blooming trees. then i got mad. i had a dream of chopping off all my hair and leaving it on your doorstep. i want final proof that loving me never even crossed your mind. i want final proof that i will drive away the wrong people by being as ugly and loud as possible. i want to protect myself from becoming someone's saint.

sometimes you have to let certain feelings just pass through you. you feel it, then you let it go. you don’t hold on and you don’t act on it. it’s just visiting you for a moment and doesn’t have to mean much more

A constellation of swimmers passes overhead off Hawaii's Kona coast during the 1999 Ironman Triathlon. Contestants swim 2.4 miles, bike 112 miles, then run 26.2 miles. Winning time: 8 hours, 17 minutes, 17 seconds- down more than 3 hours since 1978. National Geographic (2000)