A Lot Of Loving And Being Loved By People Is Recognizing When They're Sincerely Trying To Help Or Comfort

Moonlit mountain scenery with people standing at a river by Georg Emil Libert (Danish, 1820–1908)

spreading my attention across several things at once to make no progress on any of them at maximum efficiency

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i want to grow out my eyebrows and become the jellyfish woman with a blowfish tongue. i want to be the yellow teethed sun, smiling back at my own anger. i want to use my tears as a blanket and drape them over every heartache i have ever felt until the colors of my pain dilute into a disgusting brown puddle. then i will bathe in it. when i was sad about how slow i was moving through life i found comfort in the late-blooming trees, until i read that they are not really at a disadvantage compared to early-blooming trees. then i got mad. i had a dream of chopping off all my hair and leaving it on your doorstep. i want final proof that loving me never even crossed your mind. i want final proof that i will drive away the wrong people by being as ugly and loud as possible. i want to protect myself from becoming someone's saint.

Iwawakiji Temple // 秋海棠

by Andreas

on todays episode of ‘I probably shouldn’t care or feel sad about this but I do and I don’t know what to do about that’

no one will come to save you but some will offer you their hand to hold when life gets tough and those are the ppl that matter