Mossthedemon - The Void Speaks

anyone else ever wish they could lie down harder? Like, I'm already horizontal, but I need more horizontal. I need to be absorbed by the floor. I think that would fix me

Untitled, painting by ABeardedArtist

I remembered a brief memory of my home in hell(?) yesterday. It was so sunny out, and I was biking to go vote. I craved the void and my dark cave so strongly even tho I knew I should be enjoying such a lovely day.

And I saw a flash of my home. Dark stone walls that opened up to a huge window (no glass, just air) to the void outside. Pure black... peaceful. A long luxurious couch and a drink in my hand as I lean back. I could see clearly even though I dont remember any light sources in the memory. (Also ahhhh it felt so right to have my wings and my tail and night vision i miss it)

I was a sloth demon (the sloth ring). We were also called void demons.

Tho no idea what I used to do to have such luxury. And i dont remember anything else. It was just a brief remembrance of a moment. Any other divinekin remember a little bit of their homes? (Or other alterbeings! Feel free to pitch in!!)

Sick of rainy days, dripping down my face everything is grey (cause I've been not okay)

Oh, to have the chance to lick the blood of someone you love from a wound they opened up for you

Did I mention I love ren

fireflies lighting up a rural Pennsylvania field at dusk

Huh. You know what. I thought I was a sloth demon before. But... I'm highly doubting it now. The only reason I dont do that much ever (and therefore identifying with the sin of sloth a lot. Also cause of that one memory i have, but solitude means peace—theres nothing to incite my wrath. So no wonder i felt so peaceful in my home in the void) is cause of my disability. Before my disability kicked in so hard, I had a lot of energy.

I think my demonself actually embodies Wrath. I either simmer or burn hot when i shift and i feel that emotionally too. also makes sense for why my element is fire, despite feeling burnt out and no energy most of the time.

I'm still figuring stuff out I guess

"Ren Eryn Gill (born Ren Erin Gill, 29 March 1990), known professionally as Ren, is a multi-award-winning Welsh singer-songwriter, musician, rapper, producer, and director. Formerly a member of Trick the Fox and the Big Push, Ren has independently released two albums, Freckled Angels (2016) and Sick Boi (2023). His second major album Sick Boi reached the number one spot on the UK charts on October 20, 2023, beating out Rick Astley's new release in a battle for number one and surpassing both Drake and Troye Sivan. In the US, the album debuted at No. 137 on the top 200 Billboard. Ren also debuted at No. 4 on Billboard's Emerging Artists chart and No. 54 on the Billboard 100 Artists chart.

Ren’s breakthrough came when he released "Hi Ren" in 2022. It went viral, receiving 6.8 million views on YouTube in two months and charted worldwide in YouTube's trending music video chart. The song received an honourable mention for best European music video at the Prague Music Video Awards and was nominated for best music video at Camerimage 2023. As of April 2025, it has 50 million views.

As part of Ren's second studio album, Sick Boi, the single "Money Game part 3" won numerous awards, including Best Music Video, Best Director, Best Concept, and received an Honourable Mention for Best Cinematography. The single was also chosen for the British Arrows Y24 Shortlist in the categories of Music Video Director and Music Video Producer.

Ren has been dealing with Lyme disease and its side effects since 2009. He was misdiagnosed with depression, chronic fatigue syndrome, and bipolar disorder for years. At the end of 2015 he was properly diagnosed. The following year he received an experimental treatment that included stem cell transplants. He did not completely recover. He has autoimmune issues, brain damage, PTSD, and fatigues easily. He continues to try experimental treatments to improve his health. Many of his songs reflect what he has been through and he is an advocate for discussing mental health issues more openly."

i highly encourage people, esp disabled folks, to check out ren's music and his story. i truly believe that his music can help.

plus, ren is just a really great guy. he inspires me to keep going through the dark.