Huh. You know what. I thought I was a sloth demon before. But... I'm highly doubting it now. The only reason I dont do that much ever (and therefore identifying with the sin of sloth a lot. Also cause of that one memory i have, but solitude means peace—theres nothing to incite my wrath. So no wonder i felt so peaceful in my home in the void) is cause of my disability. Before my disability kicked in so hard, I had a lot of energy.
I think my demonself actually embodies Wrath. I either simmer or burn hot when i shift and i feel that emotionally too. also makes sense for why my element is fire, despite feeling burnt out and no energy most of the time.
I'm still figuring stuff out I guess
This. Yes. Thisssssssss. I feel the same (23 physically atm tho). Chronically ill dealing with fibromyalgia, I couldn't do any of those either. Ur not alone.
I'm trying to post to be part of this community, but tbh I have trouble finding stuff for demonkin. For findings new posts that aren't about animalkin (no hate, I have a headmate who's a big cat). There's not many new posts for demonkin, so most of it is the same whenever I check. Which is why im posting. Maybe another demon or divinekin will feel less alone if I do. And its a good place to get out feelings I can't talk about to anyone irl.
Part of me being a demon means that "darker" side is very prominent tbh. Has been since I was young. When I'm the one present in this body, I usually only like the trusted ones around me. Most of the time when I go outside my instinctive hate for humans flares up—even though I dont hate humans anymore. But I do feel anger at the humans around me in public. For daring to look at me. I just hate being perceived without being powerful or looking like myself. Like they can look upon me without fear or respect or deference. That's just one example. There's more.
I love the dark, and I love being alone. But at the same time, I crave companionship that understands me. I wish I knew another demon in person. Fuck it, I wish I knew another nonhuman in person.
For now I'll content myself with the shadows.
Anyone else feel like an outcast in the alterhuman community?
Most of the therians/alterhumans/nonhumans I see online are minors; I’m 20 years old.
Most of them can do quadrobics; I can’t run on all fours for five minutes without everything hurting, and if I did a jump, I’d probably break my wrists
A lot of them seem to enjoy the company of humans; I’ve never trusted or liked humans
Most of the community talks about being “silly” or “cute” when experiencing a mental shift; I have violent, animal instincts and avoid others when I feel a mental shift coming on
I don’t know. I just feel like a lot of us have become… tame. And I’m not. I feel like we as a community don’t talk about the “darker” side of not being human. The violent prey drive. The instinctive fear of humans that wild animals have.
To clarify, I mean no hate towards those who genuinely enjoy not being human. I just feel like even in a community of outcasts, I’m an outcast.
It’s just frustrating. In a place meant for those who aren’t human, I’m still too different to fit in. I just want to have a place to belong, you know?
I remembered a brief memory of my home in hell(?) yesterday. It was so sunny out, and I was biking to go vote. I craved the void and my dark cave so strongly even tho I knew I should be enjoying such a lovely day.
And I saw a flash of my home. Dark stone walls that opened up to a huge window (no glass, just air) to the void outside. Pure black... peaceful. A long luxurious couch and a drink in my hand as I lean back. I could see clearly even though I dont remember any light sources in the memory. (Also ahhhh it felt so right to have my wings and my tail and night vision i miss it)
I was a sloth demon (the sloth ring). We were also called void demons.
Tho no idea what I used to do to have such luxury. And i dont remember anything else. It was just a brief remembrance of a moment. Any other divinekin remember a little bit of their homes? (Or other alterbeings! Feel free to pitch in!!)