Me Every Time I See A Picture Of Matthew Gray Gubler:

dear diary,

i don’t want to be “beautiful” i want to be cocaine. once you get started on me you’ll never stop and you’ll keep on wanting more. the recovery process is the hardest part. harder to quit than to start. toxic but addicting; harmful but euphoric

-𝒶𝓇𝒶𝒷𝑒𝓁𝓁𝒶༊*·˚

(june 26, 2023)

BRING BACK TRADITIONAL AMERICAN WOMEN!!!!

BRING OUR BIMBOS HOME💞💞💞

I love when people tag things so correct 😀 I’m looking under the Matt tag and everything except Matt is there!!

I don’t talk about my disabilities often on here because i like to escape from them when I can, but I think it’s a good time to say,

Able bodied people LOVE to hate disabled people.

I recently went to Disneyland for the day, i place i grew up visiting and still love. But for the first time in all my visits, i rented a wheelchair. Which I personally do not regret - im generally not a mobility aide user but I have needed ambulatory aides in the past, so as a precaution I got the wheelchair. The last time I visited without use of a chair I was so exhausted I couldn’t really use my ankles by noon, and I’m not leaving till the park closes. The wheelchair saved me from so much pain, fatigue and discomfort, it made the visit better for me and the people with me.

And I came to the conclusion, Disney is the one place you can really experience the true view people have on handicapped people.

Some park goers were very understanding and helpful, some literally walked into me, or pushed the chair out of their way as if I wasn’t in it. Some people didn’t look me in the eye, and some would only look at me in the eye.

Many conversations went something like:

👱🏻

“Hi!”

And the eye contact does get weird after maybe two uninterrupted seconds.

And others were more like:

🙄

And pretending like I’m not there is really awkward.

All in all, I know it fucking sucks i exist and can’t walk safely for extended periods of time! I know I should leave the wheelchair for people actually can’t walk! I know I shouldn’t stand up and walk because I’m wheelchair bound! I know you hate me!

But I’m not here for you, my wheelchair wasn’t specifically designed to be a problem for you! I just can’t walk.

You’re lucky you can, you’re lucky the pain I feel on an average basis is your emergency room level pain!

It’s important that able bodied people remember and recognize, you don’t have to treat people with walkers, crutches, canes, wheelchairs, scooters, or any other aides, like kids. Im a human, with a brain, thoughts, emotions, and opinions. And just like you, I can tell this interaction is going really bad.

Don’t stare to be polite, don’t stare to be rude. Don’t overly sympathize, or question. Don’t yell at us, or for us. I’m not a make a wish kid, if I were I’d be in Europe, not Disneyland.

Respect disabled people, remember they’re more person than disabled.

able-bodied people will claim to be disability activists and then they'll get pissed at you if you don't have the physical energy to respond 'timely'. or if you sleep a lot due to exhaustion. or if you can't get out much (or at all!) for an array of reasons. or if your hygiene isn't up to their standards because you can't wash yourself. or if you have 'inconvenient' allergies or dietary restrictions that they don't want to cater to. or if you're unemployed. or if you have a medical emergency that gets in the way of their plans (especially if you have to cancel last minute). or if you can't do any other 'normal' thing that is more difficult/impossible thanks to an array of disabilities because, get this, they are disabling. fuck that. disabled people don't owe the world an illusion of good health for the sake of the able-bodied. love disabled people without condition.

i’m telling you now, if i weren’t a virgin, i’d be taking plan b like it’s a multi vitamin

Small thing that breaks my heart:

When I was in third grade, I told this boy that it would be my birthday in four days, and he said, “okay, then I’ll buy you flowers.” Four days later he comes up to me and says, “my mom wouldn’t let me get flowers but I found you this violet in the grass.” That in and of itself was iconic and so so sweet, but it gets better.

A month later, I had to move, and because it was third grade, the teacher made everyone write me letters to say goodbye. His said, “I hope you have so much fun in your new house that you forget about me. I hope that you’re always happy and you never miss us. I’m sorry I never gave you flowers, but I can give you some now.” And he fucking. Drew me flowers.

No, Joey, I never forgot you. You are the reason I have standards in this life, and I’m so grateful to have known you. I hope you’re happy, wherever you are, and I hope that the rest of your days are filled with as much joy as you gave to me. I spilled water on the card about five years ago, and half of it is a a jumbled mess now, but I still have it. It’s the only card I still have.

The funny thing is this dude and I hardly ever interacted. I knew he played football because he was on the town’s kids’ team and my brother was on the middle school team, and I knew he was one of, like, three Joeys in our year. I had a crush on him but obviously never communicated that because it was fucking third grade, but somehow those three interactions imprinted on who I am as a person. I am forever changed by Joey from third grade.

are you ok with people saying smash to your pics

go right ahead i think it’s fun

HOLY SHIT SHOLY SHIT AHOLY SHIT I AM GNAWING AT THE BARS OF MY ENCLOSURE HELP ME TED IM STUCK IN THE RAINFOREST CAFE HELP ME 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭👅😭😭😭😭

Happy birthday to my husband. We’re going on our 35th year married and he is so perfect and special and my boyfriend and husband and wife. Happy birthday Jeremiah schlang❤️

Why. Why in the intro are their names closest to the character that isn't the one they're playing, please Neil why would you do this it ruins my day, everyday. I know full well you're not the one who made the intro, but you may have answers to my predicament.

We had a meeting to decide what would upset you most. Most of the guys were for creeping into your kitchen late at night and swapping over the salt and the sugar, but David Tennant held out for placement of the names on the opening titles, and he's been insufferable about it since.

If anyone has swapped over your salt and sugar it was probably those scalawags from Dick Turpin. Not us.