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I cant say it enough how fucking hot he looks in these pictures.

It’s the way to sleeves are rolled, how it lifts as he adjusts his hat, the hat, it’s the way his eeyore tattoo is out, the hand, the goddamn toothpick. Whatever fucking restaurant this is, oh how I thank them. The art behind him, the lighting, that couch. They are doing god’s work and I owe them my life. Thank the lord above these pictures exist

feeling very happy after this week!!!! so this week on the 2nd my winter break ended and that was my first day back, but i had the flu. so on the 3rd after realizing i won’t be coming in for at least another day or two, i emailed mr.k and told him i was sick.

my email went something like “hi i’m sure you’ve noticed my absence im home sick but i’ll be back soon! blah blah what did i miss” you know the deal, and after 27 minutes he responded and said

“i did!” cause he noticed i was gone😭 “i was going to email you today actually!” and then he assured me not to worry about the weeks work!

on friday i felt better enough to go back, and when i walked in he was all smiles and so happy to see me, and he gave me full credit for the week saying, “you’re always a great student and get everything done! don’t worry about this week”

i was sniffling a little in class, and he starting joking about me being sick and when i told him i’ll stay as far away as possible he made a sad face!!!! he said i was always a “good girl” when i was taking to him about class work and the exams but said “the only time you disappoint me is when you’re not here” and i’m so desperate for him im dying

basically he loves me and we’re going to get married 🫶

oh my😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫

credit: dr.shoko

THE KNEE PUSH OH MY FUCKING GOD

dear diary,

i don’t want to be “beautiful” i want to be cocaine. once you get started on me you’ll never stop and you’ll keep on wanting more. the recovery process is the hardest part. harder to quit than to start. toxic but addicting; harmful but euphoric

-𝒶𝓇𝒶𝒷𝑒𝓁𝓁𝒶༊*·˚

(june 26, 2023)

I miss k so much

you're the king and baby i'm the queen of disaster ✩₊˚.⋆☾⋆⁺₊

𝓁ℴ𝓋ℯ, 𝒶𝓇𝒶𝒷ℯ𝓁𝓁𝒶

Purgatory takes on two forms for everyone and it’s either LA traffic or the CVS pharmacy pickup line

I don’t talk about my disabilities often on here because i like to escape from them when I can, but I think it’s a good time to say,

Able bodied people LOVE to hate disabled people.

I recently went to Disneyland for the day, i place i grew up visiting and still love. But for the first time in all my visits, i rented a wheelchair. Which I personally do not regret - im generally not a mobility aide user but I have needed ambulatory aides in the past, so as a precaution I got the wheelchair. The last time I visited without use of a chair I was so exhausted I couldn’t really use my ankles by noon, and I’m not leaving till the park closes. The wheelchair saved me from so much pain, fatigue and discomfort, it made the visit better for me and the people with me.

And I came to the conclusion, Disney is the one place you can really experience the true view people have on handicapped people.

Some park goers were very understanding and helpful, some literally walked into me, or pushed the chair out of their way as if I wasn’t in it. Some people didn’t look me in the eye, and some would only look at me in the eye.

Many conversations went something like:

👱🏻

“Hi!”

And the eye contact does get weird after maybe two uninterrupted seconds.

And others were more like:

🙄

And pretending like I’m not there is really awkward.

All in all, I know it fucking sucks i exist and can’t walk safely for extended periods of time! I know I should leave the wheelchair for people actually can’t walk! I know I shouldn’t stand up and walk because I’m wheelchair bound! I know you hate me!

But I’m not here for you, my wheelchair wasn’t specifically designed to be a problem for you! I just can’t walk.

You’re lucky you can, you’re lucky the pain I feel on an average basis is your emergency room level pain!

It’s important that able bodied people remember and recognize, you don’t have to treat people with walkers, crutches, canes, wheelchairs, scooters, or any other aides, like kids. Im a human, with a brain, thoughts, emotions, and opinions. And just like you, I can tell this interaction is going really bad.

Don’t stare to be polite, don’t stare to be rude. Don’t overly sympathize, or question. Don’t yell at us, or for us. I’m not a make a wish kid, if I were I’d be in Europe, not Disneyland.

Respect disabled people, remember they’re more person than disabled.

able-bodied people will claim to be disability activists and then they'll get pissed at you if you don't have the physical energy to respond 'timely'. or if you sleep a lot due to exhaustion. or if you can't get out much (or at all!) for an array of reasons. or if your hygiene isn't up to their standards because you can't wash yourself. or if you have 'inconvenient' allergies or dietary restrictions that they don't want to cater to. or if you're unemployed. or if you have a medical emergency that gets in the way of their plans (especially if you have to cancel last minute). or if you can't do any other 'normal' thing that is more difficult/impossible thanks to an array of disabilities because, get this, they are disabling. fuck that. disabled people don't owe the world an illusion of good health for the sake of the able-bodied. love disabled people without condition.

What’s so interesting to me is everyone on tc tumblr is super secretive about the crush. Like won’t tell friends, agree it’s “weird” or “gross” just like hide it like it’s a sin.

I made several friends at school because we agreed that our teacher was hot, I have one friend who is literally a lesbian in a long term relationship who will call our teacher her boyfriend. Like I talk about it all the time and 9 times out of 10 people agree with me and we joke about it

I support all girls