Ever Since I Learned About Ghost Buildings I Haven't Been Able To Stop Thinking About Them

“No, I’m not ok. But I haven’t been ok since I was 11, maybe 12. I am still here though. I’m still breathing. For me, sometimes, that will have to be enough.”

— Clementine von Radics

Today I spent a few hours in the library and made some notes for my thesis defense. They sent me an email this morning and told me to go do it on Monday, so I'm feeling kind of nervous. A friend has told me she wants to listen to me practice tomorrow and that she will try her best to ask mean questions to prepare me (my kind of friend).

I think I haven't said this before, but my thesis is on contemporary theatre, which is what I'm most interested in pursuing when I think about a career in academia.

On another note, I spent the whole morning listening to Chopin and I really like it :). I figured getting into classical music one musician at a time would be easier.

Tomorrow the application period for masters programs is also starting, which I'm not chill about at all. It will be tomorrow when I know if the program I'm interested in has any space for me to enroll. Anyway, I sort of manifested it too hard this past month for it to be any other way, right? ...right?

The happiness of your life depends upon the quality of your thoughts.

Marcus Aurelius

Study because it makes you smarter. Every time you dive into a new topic, you're not just memorizing facts; you're building a sharper, more agile mind. The breadth of your knowledge will never be a hindrance; it will only ever propel you further in life.

Study because it opens doors. Knowledge is your ticket to new opportunities. Whether it's landing your dream job, travelling the world, or just being able to hold your own in any conversation, the more you know, the further you can go.

Study because it builds discipline. Setting aside time to study teaches you valuable skills like time management and self-discipline. These habits will serve you well in all areas of life, long after you’ve closed the textbooks.

Study because you want to improve yourself. Self-improvement isn't just about hitting the gym or eating right. It's about feeding your mind and growing as a person. Each study session is a step towards a better, more informed you.

Study because it’s a privilege. Not everyone has the opportunity to learn. Embrace the privilege of education and make the most of it. Honor those who fought for the right to study by making the most of your own education.

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Took me until about halfway through college before I realized “study” means “play with the material in a variety of ways until you understand it” and not just “read the assigned chapters and do the homework” and I think that probably should have been discussed at some point prior to that.

gaslighting myself into enjoying school 

It's monday so it's time to romanticize school so we can survive

RAHHHHHHH ELLIOTT SMITHHH

i hope i make you proud when i get my degree. you are a legend, helping me to get throught tough times during college.