Golden Fields, Amber Brunsden â 2023 Oil on canvas
gentle reminder you can rise up from everything. you can recreate yourself. nothing is permanent. you are not stuck. you have choices. you can think new thoughts. you can learn something new. you can create new habits. all that matters is that you decide today and never look back.
May you never again get attached to anyone who isnât for you. May you find a love that makes you laugh, never lets the honeymoon phase end, and gives you unquestionable loyalty. Someone who cherishes your childlike playfulness AND your old soulâa love you never have to heal from.
âNo, Iâm not ok. But I havenât been ok since I was 11, maybe 12. I am still here though. Iâm still breathing. For me, sometimes, that will have to be enough.â
â Clementine von Radics
âI still catch myself feeling sad about things that donât matter anymore.â
â Kurt Vonnegut
Anyone else come to some wildly different conclusion on Ghibli movies with age?
Kiki's Delivery Service: Kid: Being a witch is so cool! Adult: Growing up and growing apart from the life you had before is a natural progression of life. You aren't losing the old parts of yourself, just finding new pieces that were there all along. Life is about changing, you'll never stay stagnant.
Ponyo: Kid: She's such a cute fish, you should always follow your dreams! Adult: Leaving home will not take you away from your family. Even when you're miles away and you feel like you're in different worlds your family will still be there, encouraging you. Parents are meant to let go of their kids at some point.
Howl's Moving Castle: Kid: Sophie's a big sister like me! I want to a princess in a magic castle. Adult (I've also read the book): Sometimes you don't find your place in this world, you make one. The people that come along with you will see you through every ugly part of yourself and you would do the same for them. Chase after that shooting star.
Spirited Away: Kid: What just happened... Adult: SHIT HAPPENS! And it sucks, life sucks but you keep going. You can cry along the way. You are being so fucking brave for even going on this hellish journey we call life. It's okay. You're okay.
girlhood is so bittersweet
pink skis + green grass
â Fiona Apple
âhigh value menâ âfeminine energyâ âdark feminineâ âwife materialâ âhypergamyâ âprovidersâ ârotational datingâ
blah blah blah blah blah whatever. Itâs a farce. I knew this day would come when feminine level up content would become derivative and soulless and full of opportunists using buzzwords trying to sell courses.
All I can say is keep centering yourself every single day, get your bag, get your education, network, workout, eat healthy, sleep right, rest as much as you can, get your water intake up, get your skincare on, whiten your teeth, only let men near you who benefit you (note I didnât say sleep with!), pay off your high interest debt, get your investments up, and cut out all the bullshit and noise. donât even worry about âhow to get a husbandâ âhow to dress like old moneyâ because honestly, that stuff will come naturally when you donât have to fake it anyway. Do you really think actual âhigh valueâ (I donât like this terminology) women are stressed about finding a husband? Do you think actual wealthy people care about appearing wealthy to others? Just get after it and you wonât have to worry about faking it at all. It will all come naturally.
Get over the fear of being seen.
Stop caring about how youâre gonna be perceived. Stop doubting yourself. Stop aiming to be perfect. Stop ruminating.
Accept who you are. Hype yourself. Invest in yourself. Be audacious. Trust in the greater outcome. Allow yourself to be seen as you are.
As long as you know your intentions are pure, never stress yourself about anything or anyone. You have to trust that you will always end up being where youâre meant to be and that itâs never your loss respectfully.
i started crying with her like
The pen is mightier than the sword.
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last night, I had a dream of winning two trophies one day afternoon to this contest of making an origami rose made from a paper we used on notebooks (one with lines colored red and blue) and I came home scolded by my brother for being not home for the whole day, when I just won two trophies. I was excited to finally show this off to anyone, to prove I am excellent and talented. But then I woke up, the excitementz gone.
Sometimes I would like to think in another universe, I was actually a potential kid, who's an achiever and brilliant.
Fyodor Dostoevsky, Poor Folk (translated by C. J. Hogarth)
âI'm a master of speaking silently, all my life I've spoken silently and I've lived through entire tragedies in silenceâ.
âFyodor Dostoyevsky, The Gentle Spirit.
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If you think people used to willingly stare off into the distance before smartphones, my dad told me he had this psychology assignment when he was in college in the 80s which was basically
Go to a restaraunt by yourself and eat a meal without a newspaper or journal or anything else to keep you occupied and then write a report about it
Which tells me that this was a way for a professor to inflict psychological torture on their students and that people used to bring little things with them to keep them entertained. Shown by those old pictures of everyone in a trolley reading a newspaper with one hand.
Frankly I think that the human brain has been craving smart phone forever. Perhaps we use it too much at times but if this was 1985 we also wouldnât be talking to people. Weâd just be looking at newspaper or drawing stuff on notepad instead. And the old people would all be shaking their fists about how kids spend too much time looking at that damn TV because yes this discourse has been going on long before smart phone
The greatest lesson in life is learning to say no.
When something doesnât benefit you, say no. Donât like doing favors? say no. If someone is giving you the bare minimum, say no. If their energy isnât right, say no.
Your energy is sacred. Stop wasting your time appeasing irrelevance. Become an expert at saying no and conserve your energy.
Forgiveness is about making peace with reality. It means you let go of your inner resistance regarding present circumstances and what led to them. As a result, you are free to fully focus on how to move forward productively. Forgiveness does not mean that you approve of what you are forgiving. It is not the same as condoning. When you forgive yourself, it means you are being gentle and honest. When you forgive others, it means you are being compassionate and sane.