Carmy Was Really Like If My Girl Wants A Star She Can Have A Star. If My Girl Wants Chaos Menu She Can

jack of all trades, master of none

28th dec 2023

yk how much better my life would be if i was really really good at one thing, im pretty mediocre at a lot of things but if i was really really good at one thing i think my quality of life would skyrocket.

also im not even like medium good at the things im good at, yeah im alright and i like them but what good is liking something when your 60% shitty at it and all you do all day is long for natural talent when thats never gonna come. i love writing but im not very good at it, i wish i could act, if i could swim my life would be great, hell if i was a long distance runner i would be happy. i just want do be good at something that isnt just feeling emotions very deeply and longing for something tangible. all my grades arent bad but arent good, im not a great friend, im not even that good of a person. i like things and have passion but no grit or determination because really if i didnt pick a career at 5 i think id spend the rest of my life starving in the crotch of a fig tree, wishing for some voice to tell me or for my heart to tell me but i dont even know what to do with my life past uni and thats if i scrape up good enough grades. i wish i didnt spend all my time laying there pretending that im someone im not.

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watching house

25 Dec 2024

Thinking about symbolism while my hair air dries. Just girl things.

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i get it dude

18th feb 2024

voltron ending suckeddd man like sucked dick and balls it was so bad. it was JUST the last episode that was bad too like it was a good show until that last episode and it took a nose dive its so crappy.

zero stars do not reccomend i want my money back please and thank you and also i will find you im in your walls benjamin kaltenecker (idk what he does hes just the only guy i see in the credits before i skip to the next episode ((post about not watching credits coming soon ??? idk)) and good choice naming the cow after you like some guy named commander iverson after him but nah just good vibes space cow ((i also love the implication that kaltenecker isnt his name but his breed or species because the shopkeep says get a kaltenecker instead of get a cow)) anyways everyone who said the ending sucked was right but i have alot to say (dude look at my bio what did you expect when you clicked on here)

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its about klance IM SORRY IM SORRY OKAYYYY

18th feb 2024

my blue and red boys because purple is my favourite colour

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When Adam bit the apple he did it because he trusted Eve. Because he loved her. Adam bit into the apple because the woman he loved told him to, no matter what God said. No matter the rules of heaven. What's heaven to a woman's love anyway? What's God to your wife? The first sins of humanity, were trusting others. Eve trusted a snake, Adam trusted Eve, and I trust you. Maybe that's a sin, just like the first couple. Maybe everyone's right about us and we're sinners and we offend God. But like I said, what's God to a woman's love anyway? What has heaven got that I can't find sitting next to you on a cool autumn morning?

But we’ve never actually had a conversation

I am so down bad its not even funny anymore

27th dec 2023

i hate to admit it but walker scobell is kinda the king of my heart like i hate this for me but hes just kinda the king of my heart, and maybe i am just a 14 year old teenage girl who cant help but love the new boy of the month with my whole entire soul but i do. you have to remember though that when i like the boy of the month i do it in a different cool teen movie way and NOT in a everyone likes him so i do way yk so all my friends who say they like him do it in a parasocial relationships too attached to people on the internet who dont know they exist kind of way buy im cool and like have a shot bc im cool and wouldnt act like a fangirl and im cool and interesting yk? anyways percy jackson is coming out FAR too slow for my impatient self and i NEED capital N capital E capital E capital D NEED more content bc the amount of physic damage that i would get from watching a stream of him playing fortnite is actually crazy and i still have some self respect (ik ik its hard to believe) but if i dont get more interviews i will watch the watch party video again and again and again and rewatch episodes again and again because im just insane like that, and i kinda dont want to say this bc what if he sees this and my chances with him (that were DEFINITELY real to begin with and im not just hallucinating) would be SHOT,

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I feel freaky

9 jun 2024

Recently I’ve had the strange sensation of being a bug trapped in a jar. Like I’m a little cricket that a kid caught and is keeping in an old jar with holes poked in tinfoil covering the top. Strange sensation indeed…

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am i the coolest loser you know

LOVE ME PLEASE

10 mar 2024

WILL SOMEONE TRACE ALONG MY JAW ACROSS MY LIPS UP MY NOSE AND AROUND MY EYE WILL SOMEONE PLEASE TRACE FROM MY EAR ALONG MY COLLARBONE TO THE DIP BETWEEN THEM AND FEEL MY HEART BEAT LIKE THEY NEED TO COMMIT IT TO MEMORY LIKE THEYRE BEING TESTED ON THE BPM OF MY HEART AND THE TEXTURE OF MY SKIN LIKE THEY NEED TO SCULPT ME FROM THE INSIDE OUT AND OUTSIDE IN AGAIN PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE

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