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in heaven you can make amvs for books

neil thinking that andrew doesn’t care about him so it’s fine if they hook up bc when neil dies andrew won’t care compared to andrew’s reaction in baltimore is something that is very dear to me

he fucking did it. the best day of my life honestly

Nicky Hemmick:

The queen of exy 👑😌

Thoughts and musings!

literally jerejean

imagine kevin came back with the foxes instead of staying in west virginia after riko died and he's looking around their dorm room in despair after he sees the damage that jean's rage induced grief inflicted. he's helping clean up & goes to throw stuff in the trash when he see's a pile of andrew's candy bars in there. it's so ridiculous & such a jean thing to do that he actually laughs and suddenly he misses his first and longest best friend so much that he feels sick with it

It just occurred to me that Andrew didn't just agree to dinner with the Hemmicks because Neil made compelling arguments or because he's soft on Neil. He agreed because Neil offered to come along. He agreed because Neil offered to have his back if he went. It's the same deal that Andrew's been making Neil the entire time: go do this thing that scares you because I've got your back.

Which makes Andrew forgiving Neil really quickly after just a few harsh words make so much sense. Because despite the outcome of that dinner and Neil's role in making it happen, he did have Andrew's back. He got to Andrew before anyone else even knew something was wrong, he brought a weapon, he hid Andrew's knives without question, he did everything Andrew needed him to do. It was a shit situation that they walked into like idiots but Neil still had his back every step of the way. Neil didn't break any promises and that counts for more in Andrew's books than any fuck-up Neil could make.

free my girl. she did all that but so did a male character and nobody cared