The Secret History Destroyed My Life Like What Do You Mean I Can't Drink Wine And Study Classical Literature

Babysitting duty

fandom is a lot more fun when your goal isn’t to be “that big, popular account” within the fandom but just to have fun and talk about what brings you comfort and happiness by the way

donna tartt COOKED with the 3rd chapter of the secret history i am obsessed. the depiction of winter. the depiction of waking up, going to work and then just wandering. the depiction of not asking for help because of embarrassment. the depiction of calling your parents and immediately hanging up. the depiction of your body hurting because of coldness. richard. richard papen. papen richard. hes me

quick thing for @nothing-impt substitute mentor au bc i needed an excuse to draw unhinged telemachus

WHAT DO YOU MEAN ATSUSHI IS AKUTAGAWA'S REASON TO LIVE???? THAT ATSUSHI IS THE ONE TO REPLACE DAZAI IN A SPACE THAT IMPORTANT IN AKUTAGAWA'S HEART?????? IM SORRY???????

the technocrat

turn the screen on give me my feeder plug me in, slide in the needle

i don't want anything i don't need anyone just another hit from the dopamine machine

turn it up a little louder i can still hear myself think this seat numbs my skin reminding me i'm still here

i have opinions on things i've never seen and thoughts about places i've never been

i talk like i know when i can't look in the mirror i hate hard and i hate loud and it makes me feel better

hate is human a human's all i am so don't act so shocked when i take what i want

i send my men to bleed in a country i've never seen for a resource i don't need just to increase the defense budget

cash runs hot, flows right out and it smells so divine if you want them out take a look at my wishlist

i don't wait till christmas to open my presents an icbm opens every door and i got this big red button

Logically I know that when you reach out I should deny you

I know I deserve better than you

But you still have your fingers wound in my hair

Holding my head to your chest

I know I’ll probably give in

I know I want to give in

But logically I shouldn’t

tell me you are a philosopher who love Dostoyevsky without telling me.

while rereading this dialogue that they are all philosophical and spiritual in, i shit you not, jokingly i said "you write dialogue for each person, having a page each" only to scroll from the start of that one person talking and it being for 3 pages.

i laughed so hard i had to share. i feel like there's really only so much breaks that can happen in talking and i am all out of them lol.

"camilla led richard and henry on" and who said that? the men? including richard, world class manipulator who at one point wanted to beat and rape her? if sleeping or flirting with multiple boys in the group makes her an evil temptress then i suppose francis is also a slut and richard and charles are both evil for hooking up with him as "straight" men. but we all know why no one cares about that.

"I'm gay" "I'm straight " ...okay? I'm nothing in my soul if not obsessive