Cats Getting Caught Doing Crimes

And I was so young when I behaved 25

Yet now, I find I've grown into a tall child

Doll joints, robotic hinges and arthropod exoskeleton are part of the same family of "i am gonna give this character horizontal lines on its body" but denote different vibes of it.

I propose this new alignment chart.

Aesthetics I am obsessed with:

Frutiger Aero / Aurora / Metro

Cybercore / Cyberangel

Y2k

Mizuiro

Cleancore

Liminal spaces

Jiraikei

Morikei

Winter Faerie

Faerie Grunge

Nu & Pastel Goth

Dark Academia

https://www.instagram.com/share/reel/BAQAiYXoBD

a cyborg manifesto, donna haraway - BLAME!, tsutomu nihei -  holy wild, gwen benaway - blade runner, ridely scott - pixel affection, yeule - ghost in the shell (1995), mamoru oshii

Some things I really like & should try or do more:

Dereality / weird core image creation

Photography

Fashion sketching

Image collaging

Profile layout, icon, & blinkies creation

I used to do some of these things.. The other things listed are newer or felt like I wasn't allowed to try them. (ocd?)

TENSHI KAIWAI STIMBOARD

I know therapists and people online talk about being yourself.. But it doesn't seem to work for me at all.

I feel guilty for burning out after masking for a little over a year. I think my masks get assumed as an unstable sense of self by therapists.. despite my attempts to explain my experience. I don't know what's so off-putting about me when I don't mask, but everyone senses something is wrong and fake when I do.

I felt happiest when I was numb on Korlym for 3 years and unable to feel the deepest of emotions.. I feel them deeply again now and it's hard to manage, though millions of times easier than before.. but it's easiest to be numb and follow rules that are easy to find about society. It's easiest and then I don't worry about whether I feel happy or not because I wasn't feeling at all on that medication.

Here's to all my homies who have/had temporary disabilities. It's hard to know where you are and where you stand. You don't want to step over people who have your problem permanently, but you know there is a place for you somewhere. Even when a disability is temporary, it exists in a moment in time. In that moment, you need help, accessibility, even if it won't matter forever. You can't walk up those stairs, read that picture, hold that pencil, whatever it is. And it matters. And you matter.

~ someone whose cushing's decided to thrust what felt like a million different temporary disabilities onto them last year