Sadjapes - Japes

if it sucks hit da bricks <- litany against sunk cost

take it easy but take it <- litany against burnout/apathy cycle

fuck it we ball <- litany against perfectionism

now say something beautiful and true <- litany against irony poisoning

“Don’t allow someone to make you feel that you’re not good enough.”

— Unknown

i pretend it doesn't bother me but it's tearing me apart.

if you *really* want to try and understand psychosis, I always offer the experience of dreaming.

Almost everyone on the planet dreams, and I find it to be a perfect comparison for psychosis... Anything can happen in a dream and you don't question it. This is your reality. If you're suddenly an astronaut, you don't typically question it. If there's suddenly a dragon, you don't typically question it. A monster can crawl out of the bushes or a stranger can appear in your house. Anyone can be someone they're not. Danger can come from anywhere. A pleasant dream can easily become a nightmare.

The only difference is that you wake up in the morning and it's over. And most people don't judge you for it. When you "wake up" from psychosis, there's often shame and people judge you.

Occasionally, it hits me that I can just disappear. I can be whoever I want to be. Whatever I've told people, whatever anyone knows of me can all be history. I can move on and become a totally different person if I wanted to. Anyone can. I think that's what's so scary.

It's so easy to accidentally reblog on mobile.

Drawing using both my tablets today until I get better at using my tablet with a screen on it.

“The past doesn’t need you anymore. Your future does.”

— Unknown

Back from another mental health crisis that lasted a month.

you do not miss them btw. you miss the version of them you created in your head to which they never lived up to