𝚆𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚠𝚘𝚛𝚝𝚑𝚢 𝚘𝚏 𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚎 𝚌𝚊𝚗

I'm alone but maybe one day I won't be. After suffering from schizophrenia for 5 years and multiple hospitalizations and ruining all my friendships I hope I can find something or somebody to talk to and relate to. I hope one day I can do something with my art. I am scared and have been canceled before. I have made so many mistakes in life and left places feeling less than. But I hope it will be okay one day and the pain will go away.

bpd culture is always being the "it's okay i understand your feelings and why you acted this way" person but never the one being understood

My Oc Caster. He can control the weather. I've been ruminating this character for years and it's based off of Ausayn and my first Oc I ever made, a Squirrel in 4th grade. He also has clouds in his ears and on his coat.

Quarter angles whoo!

Having delusions today. I won't let them win.

reading old messages is really fucked up because you see things and you’re like i would not fucking say that

“Repeat after me: My current situation is not my final destination.”

— Unknown

"I cant draw" then do it bad who gives a fuck.....

“The past doesn’t need you anymore. Your future does.”

— Unknown

if you *really* want to try and understand psychosis, I always offer the experience of dreaming.

Almost everyone on the planet dreams, and I find it to be a perfect comparison for psychosis... Anything can happen in a dream and you don't question it. This is your reality. If you're suddenly an astronaut, you don't typically question it. If there's suddenly a dragon, you don't typically question it. A monster can crawl out of the bushes or a stranger can appear in your house. Anyone can be someone they're not. Danger can come from anywhere. A pleasant dream can easily become a nightmare.

The only difference is that you wake up in the morning and it's over. And most people don't judge you for it. When you "wake up" from psychosis, there's often shame and people judge you.