All The Stuff You Learn From Your Attempts At Healthy Coping Doesn't Get Erased The Moment You Relapse.

Back from another mental health crisis that lasted a month.

Something for an old friend I'm not sure I'm still on good terms with.

From drawing on Twitch for an hour a day ago or so.

Socially I've ruined myself by being insane and having bpd like symptoms and now I'm just rotting inside while snacking like crazy and I'm not sure how you're supposed to be after electroshock therapy but I'm definitely not the same anymore. I can't hold conversations or anything like that without them being horribly awkward.

“Conditions are never perfect. “Someday” is a disease that will take your dreams to the grave with you. If it’s important to you, and you want to do it “eventually”, just do it - and correct your course along the way.”

— Tim Ferriss

“Because once you hear something, you can never return to the time before you heard it.”

— Jonathan Safran Foer // Everything Is Illuminated

Schizophrenic people aren't evil!

We cannot help who we are. We experience a lot of horrifying things, and sometimes react in ways people don't understand. We don't always have control over our own actions. It isn't our fault.