things which have occurred over the past few weeks other than the irrevocable heartbreak the fear the shattering of hope and idealism and belonging the unending despair the not sleeping not eating dropping to an extremely low weight strands of hair suddenly turning white in my 30s due to stress of it all:
some of you know my mom has been very ill and had an excruciating reaction to a procedure which led to a serious cancer scare. it took two weeks to get the biopsy results back, and they'd pretty much convinced us to prepare for the worst. when they finally called back, she left me this note:
so that is a massive relief and blessing and we are very, very thankful for it, and grateful to those of you who knew and kept her in your prayers.
received this little felt and cotton haunted friend in the mail, but don't know who she is from!:
reached the Yentl chapter of My Name is Barbra (just ahead of its anniversary on the 18th, though i haven't finished this section yet), and everything about it feels more important and affirming than ever.
there are certain things that once you have no man can take away, no wave can wash away, no wind can blow away.
if i harry post here even though i have lost my entire harries audience
Harry for Rolling Stone by Amanda Fordyce
there are so many posts saved on my previous blog, and that queue is just going to keep running, and seeing them feels surreal, through the looking glass somehow, very much still myself sitting right here and now, but also the ghost of something, bereft and shadowing me
lets out a single agonized bloodcurdling scream but doesnt elaborate on why and just walks it off
if I cannot fly, let me sing. ♡if I wasn't tough, I wouldn't be here.if I wasn't gentle, I wouldn't deserve to be here.♡if not to hunger for the meaning of it all, then tell me what a soul is for?♡if my immortal soul is lost to me, something yet remains. I remain. ♡ a passionate, fragmentary girl; she stood in desperate music wound; voice of a bird, heart like a house; the ghost at the end of the song.♡ Jessica Lynn 🕊❀ paypal ❀
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