Allah swt sees your daily struggles, He knows your internal dilemmas, He hears your silent questions, He recognizes that you're trying and He appreciates your weak attempts to strive in His path. He would never let your efforts go astray. The reward is coming. The relief is coming. The faraj is coming. Keep going my dear. Never stop trying. Never stop striving. Never stop walking towards Allah swt.
There’s a brother who says
والى الله ترجع الأمور Wa ilal-lāhi turja'ul umoor And to Allah returns all affairs
When someone would hurt him or try to have a meaningless argument with him
A habit I picked up as well
the older i get, the more i need time & personal space to be as boring as possible
The life we have is a reflection of our actions. Our actions are a reflection of how we feel about ourselves. If you want to change your life work on changing yourself. POINT BLANK. What you plan on doing doesn’t mean shit if you’re not doing something about it NOW. TODAY. Doesn’t matter how slow you go or how little you do as long as you show up EVERY DAY.
Henry Miller in a letter to Anaïs Nin, A Literate Passion: Letters of Anaïs Nin Henry Miller, 1932-1953
Your Lord has made mercy incumbent on Himself.
Surah Al-An'am Ayat 54
Abul ‘Āliyyah [may Allāh have mercy on him] said:
“A time will come upon the people wherein there hearts will be devoid and derelict of the Qur’ān.
They will find neither sweetness nor acquire any delight by its recitation.
If they fall short of performing what they have been commanded to do, they will say: ‘Certainly, Allāh is All-Forgiving, Most Merciful.’
If they commit that which they have been forbidden from doing, they will say: ‘We shall be forgiven, we have not associated any partners unto Allāh.’
Their affairs will be based on covetousness [and false hope], possessing no truth [and no sincerity].”
Kitāb az-Zuhd, 1714 | Al-Imām Ahmad bin Hanbal [may Allāh have mercy on him]
The Prophet ﷺ said,
“When death was approaching the Prophet Nuh عليه السلام, he said to his son,
‘I will narrate to you my bequest; I command you with two things and prohibit you from two things.
I command you with La ilaha illAllah (‘There is none worthy of worship in truth except Allaah),
if the seven heavens and the seven earths were placed upon a scale and La ilaha illAllah was placed on the other, then La ilaha illAllah would be heavier.
If the seven heavens and the seven earths were a closed off circle then La ilaha illAllah would be able to break it.
The second thing I command you with is Subhana Allaahi wa bihamdihi because it is a supplication for everything, and by it the creation is given its provision, and I prohibit you from shirk and pride.’”
[Al Silsila As Sahiha, 3130]