"UNPROFESSIONAL"

On Harry, Jean and severing the ties of codependency

Jean chooses to leave Harry [to die in Martinaise] if Harry is willing to continue his harmful habits. He hangs on if Harry gets any better, even if a little, and if Harry has someone with him, be it Cuno or Kim.

Jean says stuff like "I won't let my life unravel because of this", "I'm clinically depressed, sorry I wasn't there to butter you up", writer Argo Tuulik says "The reason Jean hasn't killed himself is because of work, work is the only redeeming thing that gives him purpose, and he cracks cases with Harry and works like he's got devil on his back", etc. It's clearly the codependency. He feels attached to Harry's wellbeing, he's affected by Harry's antics more that anyone else. He says horrible shit to Harry cause to him saying all that it's something along the lines of, how could you become this way? Do you want me to die with you? I'm not going to die with you. I'm letting go.

When you, as a player, help Harry quit drinking, or taking drugs, or both, if you do good policework, Jean sees hope in that. It seems to me Jean looks at Harry trying to get better and thinks to himself, hey, if *he* being that far gone can do it than I can too. *We* can. Which is... morbidly beautiful to think of. Even when Jean leaves you behind and tells you "This is over" the passive Empathy check tells you "Even now -- you're still his partner." He seems to cut ties with Harry, he puts an end to trying to reach out. Maybe I'm overthinking it, but it's not only that. He also gives up on himself, if he as Harry's partner failed to get Harry standing then he's basically nothing. A satellite spiralling out of his orbit, no longer attached to a planet that gravitates towards him. It's death on both sides -- on Harry's and on Jean's.

I think it's important to note how caring Jean is, in really small bits. He loves this motherfucker and absolutely despises him for what love is doing to him. That's his partner and best friend killing himself. You can't be too gentle when things get this rough. Jean still gets like that, at times you catch glimpses of compassion towards Harry, and it's a significant thing. Because Jean cares, and sees his value in helping Harry out, and hates that his value is counted on how he has failed in helping Harry out. It's awful to see, really. And also very realistic for relationships like that.

I hate Jean Vicquemare so much because I perfectly understand what he's going through and how poor mental health and being in a close relationship with someone also mentally ill fucks both of you up. Sending him some Prozac and a kick to the face cause in spite of what I say he's also really annoying at times, and I'm saying this as #1 Jean stan. I get how you feel, can you not call Harry a cretin heart emoji.

what pens do you use on procreate?

HI! here are some of the brushpacks i use

Georg's Procreate Brushes

FREE Comic Ink Brush Set for Procreate: 20+ Inking and SFX Brushes

Here's my first custom made Procreate ink brush set with more than 20 brushes for inking and special effects. It's dedicated to the great Wi

Gumroad

Disco Elysium brushset for Procreate

A brushset for Procreate, inspired by the Disco Elysium by ZAUM which I've collected/crafted over the last year, contains 40 brushes with in

and for default brushes i use

* narinder pencil

Fanfic is a free hobby.

It's one of the last few things we can have as a society that's free. You can engage, for free. People give you things (art, stories, etc), for free.

Don't buy into the consummerism just because it's everywhere else.

You don't have to consume everything you interact with. You don't have to use things, just because they exist.

You're allowed (still, for now), to have things that are enjoyable for free.

Do you realise how insane the world is? We don't have many places where we can just be, for free anymore, but ao3 is. Did you notice we don't have ads in ao3? We don't have pop ups? Where ELSE do we not have that?

Where else can you just go and not have to wait for a commercial to be over or for ads to be on the sidelines?

I don't think the younger people understand, but the whole of internet used to be like this. YouTubers would do Youtube for free, just because. You couldn't monetise your internet presence before.

Ao3 is like a little preserved corner of the internet where the old internet used to be, and it's being attacked by people who do not understand that free things are allowed to exist without judgment.

Please don't ruin this for us.

Some of us need it.

This is not like a fully completed thought but yk

So I've done my first aid + CPR a few times. And every single time I try and bring up scenarios for fat folks

Specifically like 'what if someone is too large for me to wrap my arms around then to do the heimleich'

And its incredibly rare I get a decent answer.

How absolutely insane is it that me, as a fat person, is asking how to have MY life saved or to save ANOTHER life, is an impossible feat if someone is fat.

Most of the time they tell me to 'just try anyways uwu'

There has got to be a better option.

I was recommended @tea-stained-tabby’s disco elysium + rdr2 crossoverer fic and it did not disappoint so I made some art inspired by my favorite parts

I'll just post this in case anyone wants a good ref!

And a close-up because the file is like GIANT

I love you Acele: the organized crime refugee, survivor of violence, always on party drugs, the teenage girl hanging out with adult men because there's no better option, who makes weird conceptual sound art even after her boyfriend sells most of her equipment, who gets screamed at by a cop and decides to give him therapy, who somehow still thinks people are sweet.

I love you Cindy: the homeless artist squatting in the coalroom, who does massive street art challenging the occupation, belongs to a famously violent gang but likes people too much to go around stabbing most of them, and terrorizes the rich lady into leaving her block.

I love you Soona: the antisocial programmer, who loses her job and her dream and dedicates herself to finding out why, worries about the unemployed writers, moves her professional-grade computer into a busted-up old church to run science experiments, who lets the homeless ravers move into the church with her so she can use their sound equipment, who makes the ravers listen to her thoughts about elves.

I love you Billie: the working-class woman with an alcoholic husband, who shrugs off intrusive questions and accepts a hug for the sake of the working class, who tells the weird intrusive cop that he isn't a fuckupatoo after all, who sewed a blue lining into her husband's ratty old jacket to keep him warm.

I love you Lilienne: the single mom who survives selling fish to rich people she'll never see, who carries a sword around, who sees a cop that reminds her of her dead alcoholic husband and takes the time to be kind to him when she doesn't have to be.

I love you Isobel: the old washerwoman who has stayed when all her children and neighbors have left, who takes in the drifters and strays who pass through the village, who won't give them up to the cops even when they find a bullet in her spare room, who calls the cop a dark omen but also lets him stay for free.

I love you Elizabeth: the local girl who went off the law school and came back a firebreathing socialist, who can stop the head of the local gang in his tracks just by saying his name, who never concedes an inch to the cops, who will try to reason with armed mercenaries and put her life on the line to protect her people. Who will run the union one day if she lives.

I love you Neha: the dicemaker who bounced back from the death of her first dream, who makes dice into art objects (the cursed die!!!), who remembers all the failed businesses and weirdos, who knows how precarious the world can be, but moved into the most cursed building in Martenaise and made a corner of it into somewhere cozy, sunlight, and safe.

I love you women of Martenaise: you live in the ruins, one of the worst neighborhoods in an occupied city, the beachhead that no one ever bothered to rebuild. You live in grinding poverty, where every government and school of thought has failed even more than they have in the rest of the city. You refuse to let Harry intimidate you, but (some of) you help him anyway—not because he's a cop, but because he's a man who has hit rock bottom, and you all know what that's like. Some of you fight for causes and some of you make art and some of you care for your families, and all of you give what little you can spare to make your community just a little bit better.

Want to get these on tumblr since I only ever posted them on twitter... various reference collages of official art for disco elysium stuff! Harry, Kim, & Kineema (from 2023)