Considering His Future

we don't talk enough about how lily had a deer for a boyfriend. I've... been having thoughts

people saying blackinnon won’t work because they too similar without realizing what that involves. here’s the person that holds the key to turn you into the best version of yourself meanwhile you fight against it so hard. you think you’re fighting them but actually your fighting yourself and no matter how complicated or toxic it might feel at times, the person your yelling at it’s the same person that won’t disappear on you cause they see you. they see the real you under all the layers and yet they also love all of your flaws. and by loving them they get to love themselves. they start to believe there might actually be a place in the world they belong to. they’re not lost, they’re not a disgrace (ahem sirius black im looking at you). someone loves you so hard that they stay, for as long as it takes, for you to realize you’re already worth something.

lily: you know, sirius, parents are just people too

sirius: well, mine are particularly shitty people then

lily: how can you say that? they’re your parents, they made you who you are!

sirius: that’s the problem, evans. i’ve had to spend the last seven years undoing their fine job!

“i’m kinda crazy cause that’s how you make me,

i don’t need jesus cause baby you saved me, i’m done,

but only if it’s with you.”

it hits me right in the angst cause i know he couldn’t save her and they never made it.

this whole song it’s giving me so much vibes of what i envision for marlene and sirius in my marauders band au i’m dying.

just imagine marlene being discovered as a model at age fifteen, having lived all over the world on her own at such a young age, sharing places with other models as young as her while the older ones teach them all about alcohol and drugs and other vices of the industry.

her meeting/reconnecting (not quite sure yet) with sirius black, a year older than him, who has a band that is fairly known in his town.

marlene having all the right connections.

falling harder and harder with this boy. this boy who’s life might just happened to align with hers.

them working hard so they could one day reach a happy ending that never came.

just rambling at this point but ughhh this song it’s doing it for me.

sirius not giving a fuck about the prank, but also being so surprised that snape actually showed up is so precious to me. "damn. i thought i have made it clear that i hate him. wdym he came?"

i didn’t know i needed mgk 90s boy band vibes wtf.

Remus: I’m 90% sure this is a bad idea.

Sirius: Perfect! That’s 10% optimism. Let’s go!

Love of my life, you've hurt me You've broken my heart, and now you leave me

Double illustration time because Grant is the legend he thinks he is. There would be no wolfstar in atyd if it wasn't for Grant, let's not forget that, hm? (there would be no post-war Remus at all, actually)

Unfortunately (or not, depends on the point of view) he's always been outshined by one very bright star. The very one Remus is staring at in the second drawing, dare I say

Grant Chapman, they could never make me hate you 😔

a @jilymicrofics "how"

“How? How?” Sirius asked, an incredulity to his voice James didn’t often hear. “How did you not say yes when Evans asked? Are you a complete moron?”

“I froze! I—I just. Bloody hell Sirius, she asked me out.”

“—so I’ve heard—"

“What’s a bloke supposed to say to that?”

“Er… yes? Seems pretty straightforward to me—if you’re into that sort of thing—when a girl you fancy asks you out, you say yes. Not run away screaming like a banshee.”

“It wasn’t that high-pitched.”

“Not according to Moony.”

“…fuck.”

also i doubt remus would’ve said he got all the women if he knew sirius left them hanging, why mentioning it then? and let’s not pretend like being gay/bi/queer during the 70s was easy. maybe he was, maybe he wasn’t. we don’t know.

Idk why people get weird when I mention that I think that Sirius is also attracted to women😭 Like are we talking about the same guy?😭 Bro had bikini posters of women in his room???😭 Nothing wrong with you thinking he's gay, but it can't be that surprising for some people to think he likes women?????😭