using "what were YOU doing at the devils sacrament" to mean "yeah i made an embarrassing reference but you understood it which is also embarrassing" is very funny to me
Daily schedule:
Wake up on the problematic side of the bed
Eat a harmful breakfast
Log onto tumblr and reblog posts from abusive mutuals
Attend narcissistic classes
Watch an irredeemable movie
Listen to offensive music
Eat a cancelled dinner
Go to sleep derogatorily
Have dreams that will have aged poorly by the time I wake up
Literally sobbing. A judge, a US judge defended us. A judge brought up intersex people, using the term intersex, to *defend* us by not allowing our erasure. I'm having a lot of feelings right now
Nothing is “TMI” for me. I’m nosy as shit. Tell me everything. Spare no detail.
i was the council apparently
the ham is coming
Hey uh, what... Does this mean 😭 I'll admit, I've received my fair share of foreboding messages, but nothing quite like this. I don't eat pork either, but honestly there is no implication of eating here... How chilling.
just one psychotic episode will change your life, forever. it'll alter your self perception beyond recognition. you'll remember who you were before, back when you were (relatively) sane, always been sane, and you won't recognize her anymore. she'll feel more like a sister. you're still the same, you are--but you aren't. you're different, you know you are. You're different in ways you cannot articulate, in ways your loved ones cannot truly grasp. you've experienced something most people believe is impossible to experience. likely because it is. it was something impossible, grand, and terrifying. the most scared you've ever felt in your life. God looked down on you and laughed, and finally, finally you know what it feels like to be that small and vulnerable. you can't go back to before, when you were naive, ignorant to your size. but it's okay. you're okay, now. it's over and you're safe. and you've always been safe, really, it wasn't real, but the trauma is. the trauma is real and it's lasting.
and it's not real. and you know it's not real. but sometimes you get scared again. so, so, so scared, because it was traumatizing and now you're left with flashbacks to a time when the world didn't make sense, when you weren't yourself, when you were small and confused and lost and could not understand yourself let alone be understood--and it feels real again. but you don't believe it, not really, you know you don't. you know it's not real. it's not psychosis round 2, but you're still so so scared--scared that you're wrong, that it is real, scared that you'll go back there--that you'll lose the sanity you grappled for. fought for. but you don't. not yet, at least. the flashback passes, same as any other flashback. but the fear lingers. you'll fear losing control like that for the rest of your life. years of sanity, remission, and you're still afraid, because you know what that felt like and it was scary. it's weird to believe again, when you don't really believe, it's weird to relive unreality while knowing you're within reality. you can feel your sanity, you know it's there, because it's saying "this isn't real and we know it's not real. we know this. but I am so so so scared anyway. I am so scared of experiencing it again. I am so scared that I was right and now I'm wrong."
psychosis is traumatic and trauma leaves you with flashbacks. and sometimes it feels like you're there again. like you've slipped away again. and it's scary. but you'll be back, I know you will, because I'm back, I'm okay, and you are too. I love you. I love all of you. love yourselves for me.
Happy Pride Month
i don’t have a lot of followers here but wanted to boost this for my very best friend 🫶🏼 saturday’s art is fucking fantastic so consider yourself lucky to get a deal like this!!
Heeeeeeeeeey ^^ So, our car died, which means, until Ford comes to tow it, we haven't got any transportation! I need to get to work tomorrow so I can afford essentials, sooooooo
Emergency Sketch Commissions!! (3 Slots Open) (DM if interested)
Rules and Rates In My Carrd
You can find sketch examples on my card, under my "satssketchbook" tag! Thanks y'all :}<3
btw roleplaying various characters with your friends is the singular most healing thing in the world. playing with toys for adults