ANGEL 🔁 DEMON ❗️🪐🔥

sorry yeah ive got a bad case of Thinking About My Friends. im afraid its incurable. symptoms include happiness and love and wishes that they will have the life they want to live.

Trio of Rat Kings

just one psychotic episode will change your life, forever. it'll alter your self perception beyond recognition. you'll remember who you were before, back when you were (relatively) sane, always been sane, and you won't recognize her anymore. she'll feel more like a sister. you're still the same, you are--but you aren't. you're different, you know you are. You're different in ways you cannot articulate, in ways your loved ones cannot truly grasp. you've experienced something most people believe is impossible to experience. likely because it is. it was something impossible, grand, and terrifying. the most scared you've ever felt in your life. God looked down on you and laughed, and finally, finally you know what it feels like to be that small and vulnerable. you can't go back to before, when you were naive, ignorant to your size. but it's okay. you're okay, now. it's over and you're safe. and you've always been safe, really, it wasn't real, but the trauma is. the trauma is real and it's lasting.

and it's not real. and you know it's not real. but sometimes you get scared again. so, so, so scared, because it was traumatizing and now you're left with flashbacks to a time when the world didn't make sense, when you weren't yourself, when you were small and confused and lost and could not understand yourself let alone be understood--and it feels real again. but you don't believe it, not really, you know you don't. you know it's not real. it's not psychosis round 2, but you're still so so scared--scared that you're wrong, that it is real, scared that you'll go back there--that you'll lose the sanity you grappled for. fought for. but you don't. not yet, at least. the flashback passes, same as any other flashback. but the fear lingers. you'll fear losing control like that for the rest of your life. years of sanity, remission, and you're still afraid, because you know what that felt like and it was scary. it's weird to believe again, when you don't really believe, it's weird to relive unreality while knowing you're within reality. you can feel your sanity, you know it's there, because it's saying "this isn't real and we know it's not real. we know this. but I am so so so scared anyway. I am so scared of experiencing it again. I am so scared that I was right and now I'm wrong."

psychosis is traumatic and trauma leaves you with flashbacks. and sometimes it feels like you're there again. like you've slipped away again. and it's scary. but you'll be back, I know you will, because I'm back, I'm okay, and you are too. I love you. I love all of you. love yourselves for me.

My wings are so damn heavy today. I can feel them practically pulling the skin on my damn back.

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my vampire gf cant visit my crypt cuz they fucking buried me in a church cemetery fuck my entire unlife i wish i killed myself when i was alive

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Hey. No. I killed myself when I was alive and it was the worst thing that ever happened to me. You do not get to joke about that shit just because youre dead. Suicide jokes are never funny.

☠ goulie-girl Follow

its not a joke im serious. if i had just offed myself when i had the chance my grave wouldnt be holy ground and my girlfriend wouldnt literally burn when she enters my crypt.

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oh if its holy ground thats the issue you just gotta figure out a way to desecrate it

☠ goulie-girl Follow

okay like how

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ill kill myself over ur grave if u want

☠ goulie-girl Follow

thanks but im not looking for a roomie

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desecration potion

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potion of desecration

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loOking for a poTion that deSecraTes? haVe I got the PotiOn for You 💋😋😜

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great the hexbots found my post

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babe just come over to my castle

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ur hellhound scares me

asked my cat if he wanted dinner or the slop that kills him and my twin was like "he can hear you, you know?" and when I looked down at my cat he was like this

It's easy to want to spiral right now. I'm staring out the window, trying not to cry like I don't have to go to work and be normal in a bit. Which is why I wanna take a moment to remind everyone of a few things, from one scared person to another:

• Laws can't be overturned in a day. Our system of government, as corrupt as it's become, is still a system with the potential to reject the kinds of changes that would seek to hurt us.

• Please, please, PLEASE keep an eye on your local governments. It starts at county/state level before we ever get around to national-executive. Take a look at the way your state has been run, look into the policies of your representatives, and VOTE LOCAL when the opportunity arises. You're voice wasn't made completely void the moment that man got elected. Become active NOW.

• Utilize civil disobedience, go protest. There are so many issues on the table, a lot of shit we don't want happening. Cop City, Project 2025, the continuous subjection and genocide of those internationally such as Palestine, Susan, Congo, Tigrey. Look into local protests, become active, it's your right. Just please make sure you stay safe, be careful, listen to your organizers.

• Support each other. I want to make it so drastically, explicitly clear that COMMUNITY is one of the keystones of making it through troubling events like this. BIPOC, queer and trans people, women, allies, etc. Feel how you need to feel, be angry or cry or scream, fine. Of course. Just don't be alone.

See your friends irl, hug your family, go cry on a discord call, make memes with your mutuals, get involved with your local scenes. Whatever you need. There is a deep strength and courage you wield in compassion, in empathy. Wield that strength now for each other, please.

This is all deeply distressing and frightening, I know. Idk how to feel, idek what else to say. So, just know that we're going to get through this. Feel how you feel, but understand that defeat isn't really a luxury any of us can afford, so we'll simply have to live, persist, and do what we can. I love y'all, be safe.

liking FOB and MCR at the same time is crazy cause FOB will see a festival and say "is anyone gonna play that" and not wait for an answer meanwhile people are so starved for MCR that they go crazy over 3 pixels of the top of Gerards head