I Wish Someone Loved Me As Much As Theo Loved That Fucking Painting

I’ve never been to Las Vegas because I’m scared of becoming gay

i wish romance was real and not just displaced longing for what was missing in the past

Can't believe it took me until I was lying in the dark trying to fall asleep last night to realize that Theo's mental breakdown trapped in an Amsterdam hotel room after a disaster and waiting to find out if Boris will ever return was fueled by its similarity to his time years before in his childhood NYC apartment after a disaster, waiting to find out if his mother will ever return.

Like I don't think I'm an idiot, but how did it take me so long to realize the connection there?

Anyway, Boris is the hero of the novel, weirdly! He subverts the central trauma of the book!

Theo is uprooted and shipped off to Vegas, a place where he himself says nobody loves him. Not true though, because Boris does!

Theo discovers his fiance is cheating on him, that he's betrayed and completely alone. Except then Boris shows up, and even though he did betray Theo, he wants to make it right!

Theo is stuck with no answers and no way to call his mother who he knows deep down will never return. Except when it happens again, it's Boris. And Boris completely subverts the mirroring of the book's central trauma! He does return! Not only that, he's fixed everything! The painting is returned and the guilt is gone! The money will fix Theo's mistake with Hobie! Come to Antwerp with him and get over your cold, you're fucking fine!

throwback to theo punching boris in the face at the park and boris kissing the blood off of theos knuckles or whatever it was

Radiohead x The Goldfinch

(I made this)

december will make you go insane if the passage of time is something that scares you

My pretentious opinion is that I prefer adult boreo and I think that Las Vegas boreo enjoyers are weak. Everyone can get behind angsty gay teenagers but it takes a real one to enjoy those full grown assholes with literal girlfriends and unresolved tension that has been built up for like a decade. They reek with doom and toxicity and they still would sacrifice their lives for each other. And there's definitely some resentment built up there they really need to talk about BUT THEY WONT.

& you know what it actually IS lifechanging to smile at strangers & say please & thank you & goodmorning & compliment someones outfit & help someone in need & be more accepting of loving other people just because they are other people!!!

I need to interact with something about The Goldfinch once an hour while I’m around my family for the next 3 days or I will lose my mind I fear