Latest Posts by threerats-inatrenchcoat - Page 3

"you're so funny" - thanks man can’t wait to stare at the ceiling tonight.

I know I'm unlovable, I just sometimes like to pretend that I'm not

I have this silly little feeling in my chest that's making me want to die

overestimating how much you mean to someone really fucks you in the head

feeling unwanted ruins my whole fucking day

It would be really cool if I could stop randomly feeling insanely depressed out of nowhere

Things I'm good at :

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• feeling like a burden and bed rotting

i want to get my shit together so badly

i also want to just give up

date idea: u tell me exactly how u feel about me in specific detail until my brain calms down and stops thinking u hate me

„but you survived“ but i didn’t want to lol. i wasn’t supposed to. i hate that i did. i’m angry that i did. i want the pain to go away so badly.

"You need to relax"

Best I can do is dissociate

Thanks for hanging out with me! Was I cool? did you like me? What do you think of me in detail? Do you hate me?

so i started to think about some stuff. never doing that again.

I want to be someone’s favourite PLEASE

Please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please

sorry for showing symptoms of the disorder i told you multiple times I have. Do you want me to kill myself?

i feel so left out. like everyone around me knows how to be a human and i don’t.

Tumblr is not a social media, it's an online psych ward.

I highly recommend a clingy, lovey-dovey partner. Life’s too short to be with someone who acts like showing love is a chore

sorry i cant hang out i forgot how to mimic human like behaviour

that felt amazing to do, it hurt a little bit since I destroyed my safe space that I could rant to. But I have friends that are worried for me- my therapist is too- and I don’t want to actively be recording my downfall.

next up, my likes :(

update

I will be deleting all forms of ed and Ana shit on my account today, it’s time to commit to recovery. Even if that means getting rid of my save space

update

I will be deleting all forms of ed and Ana shit on my account today, it’s time to commit to recovery. Even if that means getting rid of my save space

I feel this way a lot, especially as someone who never thought I was gonna live to be 18. But it’s crazy to me realizing that I was 13 and 14 when I really thought that way, honestly I still do feel that way. And the only thing keeping me going on in this shitty country is that it would cause a whole lotta problems for my family if I did die, especially this far along in my life.

sometimes the feeling of wanting to unalive myself are super strong, other times it sneaks up on me- especially when someone says something that might not seem so big to them, but actually really hurts me, happens and next thing I now I’m suddenly super quiet and thinking that they would be a lot happier if I wasn’t in the picture-.

sometimes i just get hit with the feeling

i wasnt supposed to make it this far

also what do i do now

Late night walks hit different when u feel empty and suicidal

“you should do XYZ for ur future!!”

“you need to prepare this for when you become an adult!!”

i’m BARELY surviving right now 😭

anyone else getting the urge to give themselves a new ear piercing…. Cuz I definitely am lol

yk what, fuck the Ana lifestyle I don’t wanna panic every time I see my weight go up. I’m healthy at 114 pounds and that’s completely fine, all that weight is muscle mass from sports. I think it’s time for me to go into recovery

WHY DO MEN EXPECT YOU TO STAY SKINNY BUT GET ANNOYED WHEN YOU ORDER LOW CALORIE FOODS

Oh you want me to be visually appealing but eat a mcdonald's large meal with you twice a week? Sure, I'll just not eat the rest of the time so I don't annoy you with my "rabbit food" you entitled prick