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Losing friends sucks...

Sometimes I say I adore to be alone and I do but people often get sick of it, about me wanting loneliness so yeah maybe I am losing friends at the end of the year

Betrayal...

I feel so betrayed by my friends, by the guy I love. They make me feel like I am crazy and I am overreacting EVERYTHING.

Also another friend told me that she talked to another friend. He said to her that he told to the guy I like that indeed, I had a crush on him. And that was like almost a year ago. So yeah I don't know how to feel.

It was so time along but to think they knew about all this and I was you know so stupid kind in love and so hecking blind, by God, it make me so frustrated I can't be mad at anyone of them even if it mean they hurt me. Ignorance is bliss indeed. I can't express neither tell anyone cause for them this happend a year ago but this is just happen today. I want to cry with someone.

Remainder to myself

NEVER AGAIN YOU TALK ABOUT OTHER GIRLS WITH THE GUY YOU LIKE, YOU'LL REGRET IT LATER ON. 21 years old/2023

I shouldn't have told that

I don't who should I talk to...Cause I always have this conversation with the same person.

I regret again, my eyes hurt, I can't breath, I can't scream even when it's the middle of the night and there is no one around.

I shouldn't have told you what the person I think you would date, And my word agh : "She would be thin, with dark straight hair, more small than you are", and I don't look like that.

I don't even know why I say that. I am regretting every second you sounded happy for someone it's not me.

I want to move on, but I'm afraid there is not gonna be anyone like you...

Are we friends with benefits???

Here I'm again in the void of my deep and darkest thoughts. No, like really.

Now situation at hand

I am getting bullied by all my classmates and closest friends, cause our PDA is way too strong, like its not that intimate or so he says, but he said we are just friends, doing friends things, like what?? I thought we were getting out of the friend zone. I am now worriend about his definition of friendly skinship and friendly touch.

Oh boy, oh boy, I want to get rid of any feelings for you. Cause you like someonelse and it's not me so I'm feeling like my heart is being wasted on you. What sould I do? Cause even if I tried is difficult if your sweet, but I also don't want to stop you from giving me attention. It's normal feeling this way? Wanting to give up on you and at the same time I don't want to.

I just love the way you hold me, you sometimes treat me coldly but you'r arms say otherwise, is like being in the warmest blanket at the coldest day of my life. I love you'r scent is a weird but comfortable smell between laundry soap and your natural scent. I love the way you kiss my temple when I'm felling blue. I hate myself for loving those things. Which lend me guessing if loving you for those things makes me hate my self, then should I stop loving you?

My friends always tell me that you look like you like me, but they also are confused as I am, cause sometimes you look comfortable enough to be a couple and sometimes I am headache to you

So we can't hold hands cause thats couples do, but you can kiss my cheeks sweetly and hug me from behind, touching me carefully like if you were looking for the sweetest spot to rest your hands and face. OK LOL

Alas two days ago you were bringing your face towards mine so my lips could reach your cheeks but today your heart and mind are faced to the window looking for that girl. I tought you liked my lipstick on your clothes and skin. I was wrong…

Struggling with my heart, cause sometimes you don't want my affection and hugs, but when I am really don't in the mood you want my every inch of body, lips and soul.

Trying to do thing i would never do just to forget you, seems like a shitty Twilight movie scene we saw together

noo don’t cry about july ending and the time passing, just remember the july poem :)

So sick of this overly negative meme that shows up every single fucking month so made my own version.

Happy Birthday Dazai Osamu-sensei!

Dazai Osamu is by far the author with the most quotes on my blog, so to celebrate his birthday here are his top ten quotes:

Quote #10:

“It seems you’re not satisfied unless you always make yourself the protagonist in some tragedy.”

- Dazai Osamu, “A New Hamlet”

Quote #9:

“He could only consider me as the living corpse of a would-be suicide, a person dead to shame, an idiot ghost.”

- Dazai Osamu, No Longer Human

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I want to say I'm sorry... I really am...so please... Don't leave me

“I feel as if the words ‘I’m sorry’ are written in blue ink over every inch of my body, but mysteriously I cannot say those words…”

—

Dazai Osamu, A New Hamlet

Privately bound edition of HAMLET by William Shakespeare.

a very short poem for august (s.r.m.)

“Killing myself was a matter of such indifference to me that I felt like waiting for a moment when it would make some difference.”

—

Fyodor Dostoevsky, The Dream of a Ridiculous Man

Submitted by Anonymous

“Stupid! Stupid, stupid. I am a stupid idiot. For what purpose do I live my life? I get up in the morning, eat, roam about, and then at night I go to sleep. And the whole time all I think about is having a good time. I’ve mastered three foreign languages, but only so that I can read lewd and erotic poems from various countries! My lust for fantasy is five times that of a normal person, and I am ten times as greedy. I’m never satisfied. I need stronger and stronger stimulation. But I’m a coward and a lazybones, so for the most part nothing happens beyond my imagining some excitement. I’m a speculator of the metaphysical. An adventurer only in my mind. A navigator within the reading room. In other words, I’m an insignificant dream-weaver.”

—

Dazai Osamu, “A New Hamlet”

Dazai Route PV

[This is an unofficial work based on fan-translation. Copyright belongs to Cybird.]

—

—— To the man, death was like salvation. 

“Happiness is unforgivable; it receives only punishment in return.” 

This life exists for the sake of atonement. That was what I believed — up until I met her. 

At the end of this tale, the man’s choice is —— …. 

So that you live on, so that you can atone ——

I won’t forgive you. 

The Forbidden 2nd Act; a dangerous love begins  ——

Dazai: I am Osamu Dazai, the undying novelist. 

He teases you with a lighthearted smile, yet underneath this spontaneity lies…. 

Dazai: Won’t you accompany with me for a bit? I’ll tell you about a very special place. 

The more I feel his subtle, nonchalant kindness, the more I want to know his true self. 

You must not be saved by those around you who continue to cause you unhappiness. 

— There is no longer anything I can trust in this world. 

Death is salvation. Yet, you see, time and time again, that relief does not appear to man. 

— The only one to open their eyes was the man. 

Sensei, let’s die together —

“Don’t worry, you’ll forget me one day.” 

The burden of atonement, however, will not forgive the man’s own happiness. 

Dazai: To love is to bet your life. It’s not something sweet and gentle. 

Knowing his hidden past, I move to reach out my hand but —

The appearance of a new character accelerates the story line. 

Charles: So that’s how it is. How cruel, hogging a girl this cute all to himself…. 

Dazai: Let’s end things here. Please stay well.  — Goodbye. 

If it is to save him, I would gladly fall together.

Even if the end of this story leads us to hell ——

Dazai: Every time I touch you, my heart is flooded with joy.

Dazai: Haa — It seems that love is like a bottomless pit.*

Dazai: I wonder if you’d be willing to give it all to me. Your body, your heart  —— and your destiny.  

—

The term Dazai uses here is 底なし沼 which translates to “bottomless swamp” and is commonly used as slang to describe when someone is extremely invested into something. I’ve opted to use “bottomless pit” to match the themes of falling into hell/sin and atonement, as well as to make it sound a bit more fitting with the spicy bite scene lol. 

“‘Am I in love with this woman?’ He wondered. Even to his self scrutinizing self the answer came as surprise. 'I still am.’”

—

Akutagawa Ryūnosuke, A Fool’s Life

Happy New Year - 2022

To celebrate the new year I’ve put together each of these authors’ top quotes from my blog! Enjoy these quotes from the Armed Detective Agency authors!

Futamata listen to our pleas!

For all those who want a third season of nanbaka.

You must apply to Comico Corp.

And please don't ask the author directly.

She is an independent artist who does not have the means to finance another season, does not have an animation studio.

Another season.

So she herself replied that so that we can have another season of Nanbaka, we're the fans who ask Comico Corp.

If we send a lot of comic applications, you will see that there is a lot of interest in Nanbaka and could finance the work of futamata for a new season.

That's why we started this campaign, so that many of us are asking for a new season.

【公式】オリジナル漫画を毎日更新 (@comico_jp):

In order for us to apply for a new season of Nanbaka, it is necessary to fill out the application form.

On this page

REQUEST COMICO

TRANSLATION

Please if you want nanbaka to have another season in the anime.

You must fill out this comic form and submit your application on the link I just uploaded.

The more people we send a more likely application is that Comico Corp. Fund another season of Nanbaka.

This is the answer Futamata gave us.

"Send this message to all your Nanbaka fan friends, so that we can all submit a request to Comico"

@lilith-fowler @notabizarrejojo @tynamo-ex @suicidehomunculus-theblog

“It is often said that perfection is also a weakness.”

—

Sakaguchi Ango, “Heartless” from Ango’s Detective Casebook No. 1

“What frightens me, I admit, is that I am still very young. It seems to me sometimes that my real life has not begun. Take me away from here and give me some reason for living. I have none left. I have freed myself.”

—

André Gide, The Immoralist

“Feelings of pleasure are only possible because there are times of suffering as well, and pleasures would cease to be pleasurable if they were all we had. It would be like a world covered with nothing but water. Death is a certainty, and that’s what makes possible our full range of emotions. If we were guaranteed eternal life, living would lose all its meaning and become indescribably tedious.”

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Sakaguchi Ango, A Personal View of Japanese Culture