vanakrisum-blog
LGBTQ+, any pronouns, mid-30s, AuDHD
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As a side note… I am really annoyed by one thing about Star Trek.
“Replicated food is not as good as real food.”
That’s ridiculous. In Star Trek, replicator technology is part of the same tech tree as transporters. Replicated food would be identical to the food it was based on, down to the subatomic level.
POV: your station on the Enterprise bridge is right next to the turbolift.
Music from Fardemark on Youtube:
Well fucks? Get to it!
Guys I'm being so serious you all need to still be here in 38 years so we can have the greatest fucking day ever for First Contact
Some women are conditioned to be fragile and weak, and to believe that it's a sin to outperform a man. Her feminism would involve allowing women to be strong.
Some women are expected to be strong at times when they can't. Her feminism would involve reassuring her that it's okay to not be strong.
Some neurodivergent people are raised to believe that they're too stupid to ever amount to anything. Their disability activism would involve reassuring them that they're capable.
Some neurodivergent people are raised to believe that they're smart and gifted, and are expected to live up to impossible standards. Their disability activism would involve allowing them to fail, make mistakes, be stupid, etc.
Some children are constantly reminded "you're the child, I'm the adult" in order to deny their autonomy. Their youth rights activism would involve treating them like an adult at times when they feel ready for it.
Some children are treated like adults in order to justify increased expectations or to downplay abuse against them. Their youth rights activism would involve allowing them to be a child.
There is no one-size-fits-all solution to oppression. Each individual person's experience is different. Whatever trauma is caused by their oppression, the activism should focus on undoing it.
star trek: deep space nine s4e05 "rejoined" / "good luck, babe!" by chappell roan
everyone clap and say hooray for my lesbian awakeninggg
Me: I don't get it. I thought I was doing a lot better than I was a few years ago. I'm like 10 times more on top of things than I used to be. How does everything feel terrible now?
The Tiny Me in OSHA-approved Hi-Vis Gear Who lives in my brain and pulls all the levers: Boss, it's the fascism. You're completely gunked up with cortisol due to the fact that your entire daily life is now underscored with a haunting awareness of the rapid erosion of your rights, dignity, and any and all social safety nets, and you're also bearing witness to the most vulnerable people immediately being persecuted. This creates a natural stress response that basically means you're going to continue having memory and organizational problems, as well as emotional imbalances.
Me: BUT I HAVE A BULLET JOURNAL AND I MEDITATE NOW.
Tiny OSHA Me: BOSS, THE FASCISM.
which one of u was going to tell me that tea tastes different if u put it in hot water?
what people flagrantly misunderstand about culturally iconic ‘logicians’ like spock and sherlock holmes is that they are fuckinggggg annoying. like you canNOT write for nor adapt either of these characters properly without understanding that they are admirable in many ways, yes, but they are repeatedly and gleefully, ON PURPOSE, fucking massive nuisances to literally every sane individual around them, all the time. they love bothering people, they LOVE it, it makes them SO HAPPY, and THAT, not their brilliance, is what makes them the best. spocks a BITCH
really good tiktok
Transcript:
Girl, just do it fat. Don’t wait until you’ve lost enough weight. You’re worthy of taking up the space that you fill. Live your life now. Don’t wait for some future version of yourself that you think will be more deserving. You have every right to pursue your passions and dreams just as you are today. Your worth isn’t tied to a number on a scale or the size of your clothes; it is inherent in who you are. You’re allowed to be seen, heard, and celebrated in whatever body you inhabit right now. Don’t let anyone or anything convince you for too long. So go out. Do it fat! Wear the clothes you love, pursue the opportunities that excite you, and live unapologetically. There’s no reason to put off living the life that you want, waiting for a moment that you’re not even sure will come. You deserve to be happy and fulfilled just as you are, and the world needs you exactly as you are today. Everything good that has ever happened to you, happened in this body. Girl, just do it fat.
see the THING IS I don't feel like I ever worked hard enough to have "earned" the burnout, which is. probably how we got here.
i must not kill myself . killing myself is the myself killer
My father always told me that crying is just a manipulation tactic, so I have to cry alone, which is hard to do as his 24/7 caregiver.
As an American that's seen way too much baseball in media, I can confidently say the most important rule of baseball is family 🥰
ds9 baseball episode is so far incredibly funny as a foreigner who also doesn't understand baseball
a klingon, a bajoran, and a ferengi sitting around a table trying to understand the rules of baseball
me, a brasilian human, just as confused as them
This is such an accurate description of how I was raised
I know it's useless to ruminate, but I've been thinking about the way I was raised, and the indirect ways I was taught that the rules and standards are different for me and for other people.
I was taught to never judge anyone, but also that I should not embarrass my family by acting or appearing any way that people would judge. I was taught that it was rude of me to talk on and on about things that are boring, but also that it was rude of me to not listen attentively when someone else was talking on and on about things that bore me. That people were allowed to take their anger out on me, but that I was not allowed to be angry at anyone or anything. That everyone's feelings are vaild and their actions are understandable, except for mine of course.
If they ever heard me say this, my family would argue "nobody ever explicitly said that to you, word-for-word, at your face, so therefore none of this is true", but they did, indirectly and inadvertently, teach me that I must always be nice, patient, polite, understanding, and good to people, but that it's preposterous of me to expect anyone else to treat me as nicely as I'm expected to treat them.
I was taught what is, and what is not, the appropriate way to treat other people, and to unconsciously understand that I don't really count as "people".
Spirk is so gay it can't be accessed by corporate marketing for capital, actually.
These are all the reasons I wear capes!
Everybody knows and loves Spock's cunty black cape from Return of the Archons. While the rest of the crew's disguises are more or less congruent with each other and with the planet's natives, Spock is the only caped bitch on the entire fucking planet as far as we can see. There are other, more fitting, in-universe ways to cover his ears. He had no right to be serving this much cunt with this look.
So the question I usually see is: Did Spock pick this look for himself? And is he this weird because he's a Vulcan? Or is he, individually, just this extra? Here is the secret third thing: This cape is the PERFECT accessory for an autistic person.
Feeling overstimulated? Raise the hood; it works like blinders on a horse.
Feeling understimulated? It swishes around like a princess dress when you move. Spinning optional.
It's not as tight around the body as a jacket, so it keeps you warm without having to feel a structured jacket all over you while you're trying to go about your day. Meanwhile, the part around the top of the head is just structured enough that it's not touching your face or falling off all the time.
It's a good conversation starter. If you want people to talk to you but you don't know what to say, this cape is guaranteed to get their attention and get the conversation going.
Have issues around being perceived? This one is a little harder to understand; but when you have a cape like this, people notice the cape instead of noticing you. There is a freedom in it. It's why a lot of autistic people are into cosplay.
Also, it helps with that "why are they staring at me" anxiety. They are staring because I am beautiful and mysterious and elegant and wearing a fucking cape.
In conclusion, I really hope Spock kept this cape and wore it on other occasions that we don't see on-screen. Also, I will be buying one for myself in the near future.
My father hates the idea of accommodating me so much he is willing to risk his own health and safety. I have issues processing audio, so I got him an emergency button that pushes to my phone in case I can't hear him calling for help. He refuses to use it and is livid every time I don't hear him. Find out, I guess.
I understand the Section 31 discourse, but is anyone talking about how we got some amazing outfits? The color shifting fabrics, the fabric textures, the wigs, the headpieces, the necklace knife sheath! Other than the part where everyone switches to black leather, it was visually engaging in a way that I missed from Lwaxana Troi epsidoes.
Out Magazine profiles the LGBTQ cast members of Star Trek: Discovery
I'm not sure I can make it back to the line, but I'd like to snort it before heading out again
There's a fine line between letting go of your fear of being cringe and accepting your genuine self completely and wholeheartedly, and becoming a completely unhinged shameless gross little feral animal, and I'm going to snort it.
Wish I had these words a few weeks ago. Had the concept, but words are hard in the moment
*grabs your hands and speaks to you in a tone that is so gentle* they/them pronouns stop being universal once you learn a person's pronouns. Sometimes that person's pronouns will include they/them and in that specific case you are allowed to keep using those pronouns for that person. In any case where you learn a persons pronouns and that person doesn't use they/them, you should no longer use those pronouns for that person. If you continue to use they/them pronouns knowing that person doesn't use them, you are now misgendering that person. Kindly stop doing that please. Thank you, I love you.
