97'. they/them. queer and disordered. here for a bit of a cry, and not much else.
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oh, ok *smokes enough weed to forget who i am*
i suppress my headmates / mask their behaviour & then im surprised when i feel like im faking because i dont notice switches and we dont have major behavioural differences in public… hello??
not to mention im a control freak host who needs to be forcefully ripped away from front or else i dominate front 99% of the time
Based on that one jesus meme
mutual 1: just got engaged lol <3 #slash serious
mutual 2: i know its been 3 years but i cant stop thinking about bloingo's arc in season 2 :(( my baby my baby youre my baby say it to me
mutual 3: This world is sweriously so fucking beautiful #Just had a snickers bar. effervescent
mutual 4: https://open.spotify.com/track/2P5yIMu2DNeMXTyOANKS6k #yeah...
mutual 5: [gerard way image] #i miss her thighs i mean her music
mutual 6: [this post contains filtered content: blood, gore, guts, wound, nsfw]
mutual 7: if bloingo was a deer he would have chronic wasting disease
mutual 8: [responding to the most insane anon hate you've ever seen] they anon on my askbox til i block #fslur girl slay
mutual 9: Next person to Fuck with mutual 8 has To go through me..... I Will Protect You
mutual 10: get me OUT of the fucking midwest bro #CANNOT take it anymore im srsly at my limit
mutual 11: [poll] should i get boba [yes] / [no] / [button for me]
mutual 12: i think i have a disorder
mutual 13: [rapidly reblogging gerard way images from 2010 with 6 notes]
mutual 14: dude i just got hit by a fucking car im not even joking im waiting for my uber to the hospital rn i think my legs are broken why does god hate me
mutual 15: JUST GOT MY NEUROSCIENCE PHD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
mutual 16: [this post contains filtered tags: #[fandom you hate but you love ur mutual so much anyway]]
mutual 17: [reblogging bloingo fanart at a rate previously thought physically impossible]
mutual 18: One of the guys in my head ate my fucking ham sandwich
He's very pop-culture savvy now.
"holy shit is that kurt cobain" still one of the best pics on the internet
thinking too hard abt that part in smoke and mirrors where cloud is helping genesis take off his boots and being like huh. the feeling of. you could treat me like a pervasive, plague riddled man and instead you're helping me take off my boots. the feeling of you should be repulsed but instead you just want to help. the f. the feeling of. the feeling of drops onto all fours and starts barking
The last one had Genesis looking wide-eyed, eyebrows arching. “Poppy m—opium? You make opium?” “Absolutely not,” Claudia corrected, squaring her shoulders, raising her chin as she scooted in close, pulling her gloves up and reaching into the bowl to scoop up a bit of the mixture with her fingers. “Why, that would be a crime, Mr. Rhapsodos. Do I look like a criminal to you?” “I’m beginning to wonder,” he replied, an uneven smile barely tugging at the corner of his mouth. Claudia just laughed.
u should read smoke and mirrors, it has genesis and weed
a little comic(?) about holding back & being trans online
i genuinely cannot put into words how much damage these tiktok "educators" are doing to the ramcoa community. there is already huge issues with survivors being unable to access therapy not even because of the uptick in people claiming it, but because of the fact that so many dissociative specialists don't fucking advertise that they're dissociative specialists anymore because of the faking tiktok shit. this is not even a speculatory thing, this is a real thing that's happening.
what the fuck happens when they start seeing organized abuse, which is already highly HIGHLY fucking stigmatized and ritual abuse which is largely disbelieved by the professional community due to the satanic panic and FMSF situations, as trends on social fucking media? what happens when our resources GENUINELY get taken away from us? what happens then?
i am begging you guys to use critical thinking skills. if people don't cite jack shit for sources when asked, or if they're claiming they're making some beneficial source like the stupid fucking alpha through omega of programming shit legion made and says "i used sources" at the end but never fucking lists them, don't listen to them! literally even if their source is "i extrapolated this information from the resources i have read like (examples provided) and i was able to draw a conclusion from them because this is a common trend among them" that is SO much better than the bullshit these fuckers are pulling.
do you know how tiring it is to answer the same five questions over and over and over again? do you know how tiring it is to rehash the exact same point you've been making for the last two months because some fuckwad on tiktok says "no that's not true :)" and then people are asking you about it again and it's just running in fucking circles?
we are not a trend. we are real people.
jumping thru hoops to afford dental bc i am homeless but not homeless enough for the govt
Crying Child stimboard with liminal space, teddy bears, and vintage aesthetic in muted colours for anonymous!
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- Mod Vanny 🐰 (Sunny)
5 simple exercises to awaken dormant muscles
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me at 5pm: being single is objectively the healthiest choice for me and I don’t feel like dating anyway and don’t enjoy using dating apps, I’m fine with it
me at 10pm: My God I’m so lonely So I open the window To hear sounds of people To hear sounds of people Venus planet of love Was destroyed by global warming Did its people want too much too Did its people want too much And I don't want your pity I just want somebody near me Guess I'm a coward I just want to feel alright And I know no one will save me i just need someone to kiss Give me one good honest kiss And I'll be alright Nobody, nobody, nobody Nobody, nobody Ooh, nobody, nobody, nobody I've been big and small And big and small And big and small again And still nobody wants me Still nobody wants me And I know no one will save me I'm just asking for a kiss Give me one good movie kiss And I'll be alright Nobody, nobody, nobody Nobody, nobody Ooh, nobody, nobody Nobody, nobody, nobody Nobody, nobody, nobody, nobody Nobody, nobody, nobody, nobody Nobody, nobody, nobody (nobody) (Nobody, nobody) Nobody, nobody Nobody, nobody, no
every time someone talks about someone "faking disability to live on welfare" or anything to that effect i think about how my mom worked in law and directly knew of a case of a guy who had terminal brain cancer with an estimated few months to live and got rejected the first time he applied for disability income. like, he was 100% going to die and that wasn't disabled enough to not have to jump through a million hoops and get lawyers involved. non-disabled people "living off of welfare" is such a non issue because i cannot bring myself to care about the like, 3 people who maybe successfully do it compared to the thousands of people rejected who need aid
shout out to this one interaction i had with my therapist yesterday
therapist: "the best part of being human is..."
me: *tilts head*
therapist: "...the best part of being somewhat human is..."
Me, picking at some moldy brownies: I bet I could scrape the gross parts off and—
Food safety angel on my shoulder: No! You could still get sick! The spores extend past the visible mold parts!
Me: I mean, probably not that sick.
A second food safety angel (this one is wearing a double-breasted Victorian naval peacoat), gently pushing the first angel aside: Expired food can give you BOTULISM, which is what killed the fictionalized version of James Fitzjames in the 2018 miniseries the terror.
Me, so caught up in pity for JFJ’s death I utterly forget that botulinum toxin is produced by anaerobic bacteria, not molds: Oh shit! I better not mess around with—
Second food safety angel, tearfully: Frauncis… God wants you to live.
the ultimate enemies to lovers text compilation 😏
Tumblr, Pinterest and Spotify are portals that lead me further inside my own head, to a world of my own making.
disloyal order of water buffaloes // pavlove
sometimes you just have to let yourself be a bit neurodivergent.
i hate going out, it gives me a lot of anxiety and sensory input that i dont like, and i am often forced to talk to people.
so i do this thing on more difficult days, or sometimes just for fun, where i "bring a fictional character with me". i walk and imagine Fictional Character walking next to me. they talk to me, reassure me, hype me up, whatever i need them to do.
today dean winchester came christmas shopping with me. he went over the list with me of stuff i needed to get, told me i was doing a good job every time i finished in a certain shop, reminded me to take a deep breath when i got a little overwhelmed.
and yea. its kinda silly. and i know its just me talking to myself in a different voice, but it Works! especially since all of my special interests/hyperfixations tend to be tv/movie related.
so do what you gotta do to Get Shit Done. stop holding yourself to neurotypical standards. if you need Fictional Character to tell you you're doing a good job, do it! if you need Favourite Singer to walk you to school, do it! yea it might feel silly but you're literally fighting against your own brain to get stuff done every single day. you can have a little self indulgent daydream, as a treat.
Stimming isn't enough I need to be my special intrest
Important smiles 😊
HBD Noctis
happy birthday to the game ever <333
og image teehee
“Always got each other’s back”
Happy Birthday Noctis !
Contrary to popular belief, “hating praise” is not just a PDA thing. There are many reasons it could not sit right with someone.
It’s also assumed that people like this just hate all praise, but that’s not true either. What we hate is feeling manipulated, or lied to, or monitored, etc.
I mean, do you realize how much adults are encouraged to use praise to manipulate kids and people in care?? We’re supposed to use it to get more of the behaviors we like, and to promote a “growth mindset,” and to encourage them to stick with activities we think are good for them, and so on and so on.
That’s so much trying to get people to do what we want them to do! Is it really any wonder that praise could end up feeling disingenuous and manipulative after a while? How often are we just genuinely appreciating something they’ve done or who they are as a person, and how are they to know the difference?
If you have someone in your life who reacts badly when you praise them, maybe take a look at your motivations or the way you’re doing it instead of assuming they are the one with the problem. Maybe there’s something like low self esteem or rejection sensitivity skewing their perception, or maybe their perception is just fine and they’re picking up on your ulterior motives (and they don’t appreciate it!).
And please know that you don’t have to withdraw all praise. Everyone wants to feel like they’re good at *something* and that people like what they do. Just wait until it’s wanted, and make sure it’s genuine, with no expectations attached.