feelings about trauma therapy, day 1
I don’t know when yesterday was and I don’t know when tomorrow is
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Dissociation
Sometimes I believe it
sometimes i wonder if im the toxic one.
Oh God I'm never going to heal
I'll never be okay again
I'll always be that sad, broken child looking for a caretaker
But nobody came
Nothing really matters anymore, does it?
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My trauma ruined me.
It wasn't the fact that everyone else's parents were proud of them, except for mine
It wasn't the fact that my parents never seemed to have time for me, so I settle for watching other kids with theirs
It wasn't the fact that I thought that a loving family was just a tv trope until I was invited over to other people's houses
It wasn't the fact that while other people's parents praised them, mine belittled me
It wasn't the fact that I had to rely on teachers and other parents' praise just to feel like I had someone in my life who liked me
It wasn't the fact that everyone else had goals for the future but I didn't see myself living to adulthood
No
It was the fact that my eyes were slits and my skin was jaundice compared to everyone else
It was the fact that people treated me like a zoo animal for their entertainment
It was the fact that everything I ate was poison compared to theirs
It was the fact that I had nobody else to relate to
It was the fact that I was the only one who didn't experience it
It was the fact that I was the only one who did experience it
It was the fact that my identity was nothing more than a punchline to them, just a joke
It was the fact that I had to pretend everything was fine and laugh
The only thing I can do is laugh, otherwise I'll just cry
That's what broke me
That's why I'm broken
Rewrite the Stars ~
I wanted to try a lipsync animation, and I happened to be listening to Rewrite the Stars when the inspiration struck! I listen to this song most often when I’m drawing Outertale stuff, and personally, I think James Arthur’s voice suited Grillby better. After listening to this one audio clip on loop, it is very hard to imagine him with any other voice. This is probably the most ambitious animation I’ve made to date, and I kind of regret not doing a practice/study animation of Grillby’s flames before going into this :,) The perfectionist in me came out a lot during the process, but overall, I’m super happy with how this came out! Apologies if the quality of this is kind of grainy, I’m still figuring out the best video programs to use and all that jazz. I can’t wait to dabble with more animation stuff in the future 0v0
im just. losing it now
Isn't it strange how the end of the world feels so familiar yet so surreal?
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Don’t smoke kiddos that shit fucks up ur lungs
They used to be kids~
X!Alphys: I have a science headcanon.
XGaster: Can’t you just say hypothesis like a regular person?
X!Alphys: So my science headcanon is–
Heheheh why are you sooooo cute!
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