I'm pretty sure I wrote it down somewhere, but it was either just after I finished reading the series or while I was reading it that I remember thinking vividly "the difference between feral and unhinged is neil and andrew" and every day I think about how accurate that statement is
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i love that the zombie apocalypse conversation appears so often in fics like the foundation of andrew and neil’s relationship is based on them knowing each others survival plan
which is funny because in the book neil actually doesn’t actually contribute to the conversation it’s a convo between renee and andrew that neil gets fixated on (and then quotes back to andrew later in the book)
and do u know what. i love it, because that conversation is like a perfect demonstration of their characters - renee, concentrating on creating shelter for survivors, andrew concentrating on keeping his group protected, and neil, thinking that he’d probably cut and run and lamenting that fact UNTIL he realises he would want to go back for andrew. that conversation that neil isn’t even eally part of sets up perfect proof of neil’s character development even in the final book - i mean, the fact that neil says ‘chances were it would be instinctive to abandon all of them’ which he acknowledges as an ‘ugly truth’ already displays a change in his character since the first book - because in that one, he has no qualms about leaving, is prepared to do so as soon as necessary. but then the conversation comes back and neil says he ‘doesn’t want to be that person anymore’ he ‘wants to go back’ for andrew. and just. isn’t that beautiful.
so yes, every time the zombie apocalypse comes up in the most random places in fics i eat it up so hard. cause like, what a perfect hypothetical for them to talk about for 1 - because both of them spend most of their life having to learn to survive in different ways, and so their different approaches to the situation is a great way to demonstrate their different characterisations and show how their traumatic experiences shape the way they react to new dangerous situations - and 2 - because we can starkly see the change in neil when he realises he wouldn’t be able to just leave.
trk trailer ending with andrew looking over his shoulder into the camera because no one's watching his back while he watches everyone else's.
from andrew, to renee (re: neil)
Neil josten:
Kaz: Prepare yourself Ketterdam, i am no longer a barrel rat, i´ve got merche blood running in my veins
Wylan lying on the hospital bed: IS THAT your way to thank me for giving you a kidney?!...and i don't think it works that way
Pynch is forever S tier because Ronan is like the first time I ever saw him I knew I had to have him, because subconsciously I knew he was the presence I dreamt of all those years ago in my loneliest of times, and I begged God for even the slightest sliver of a chance. And Adam is like the first time I saw him he outperformed me at groceries and that was when I knew I had to sell my soul to become an academic weapon. Also it wasn't him.
rip basil hallward u would've loved casual by chappel roan
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