Neil Josten:

YES RICHARD DRINK THAT ORANGE JUICE!!

SEE IT DIDN'T NEED TO BE ALCOHOL

why is Richard sickly for like 95% of the book he's always complaining about being exhausted and faint and nauseous and riddled with headaches and his solution is LETS HAVE MORE PILLS AND ALCOHOL??

LIKE SIR PLEASE JUST EAT A VEGETABLE IM BEGGING U

had a dream last night that Kaz Brekker joined an acting troupe and was one of the back up dancers in Hamilton and I went to see it and I saw him and was very confused and confronted him about it after the show and was like why aren’t you in your book??? And he looked guilty for a second didn’t answer me then ran away into the night still in his Hamilton outfit

trk trailer ending with andrew looking over his shoulder into the camera because no one's watching his back while he watches everyone else's.

working on a bigger socmed project so have some randoms

Andrew either has nobody saved in his phone ("hold up 0273837263 is calling") or the most ridiculous ones and nobody knows

Andrew's phone contacts:

Exystential crisis (original)

Exystential crisis (deluxe)

Spare parts

Joan of Exy

Captain

Neil's bf

Parental unit

Barbie

🐝

Stickball addiction enabler

I'm pretty sure I wrote it down somewhere, but it was either just after I finished reading the series or while I was reading it that I remember thinking vividly "the difference between feral and unhinged is neil and andrew" and every day I think about how accurate that statement is

how did Richard casually mention doing cocaine in a burger king parking lot and then ONE LINE LATER call Judy a 'senseless cokehead'

my dude drop the superiority complex

Some TSH analysis, uncategorized

julian calling the greek class (minus bunny and richard) "magpies" is so fun to me bc . while they are symbolic of intelligence and resourcefulness they are also symbolic of deceit and opportunism

richard didnt eat his lamb chops at his first dinner with the twins and bunny ate richards chop instead . lamb could be a religious ref to following, how richard is not quite yet in the thick of it with the group, not yet a follower of henry/andor julian . but later in the book he does eat lamb in camillas room at the hotel if i remember correctly , perhaps he is consuming his own innocence, his own morality . finally accepting his role as a follower maybe . also something to do with morality

Henry as death, as Satan/the devil (Richard has described him as Satan, some girl at a party said the greek class were all devil worshippers and Who do they worship except Henry)

Rot and death, particularly rotting fruit -- something about opulence and overindulgence: richard says in his notebook from when he was 18: “There is to me about this place a smell of rot, the smell of rot that ripe fruit makes. Nowhere, ever, have the hideous mechanics of birth and copulation and death-those monstrous upheavals of life that the Greeks call miasma, defilement-been so brutal or been painted up to look so pretty; have so many people put so much faith in lies and mutability and death death death” and then the first few days at hampden (literally 2 pages later) “stunned and drunk with beauty ... Trees creaking with apples fallen apples red on the grass beneath, the heavy sweet smell of apples rotting on the ground”

Richard first name John:  john the apostle . outlived all the other apostles .beloved . follower . etc . interesting the things that could be associated with that; john also means “graced by god”so that could also be looked into; could be that richard abandoning his given name that he has abandoned any grace that could have been given him . could be that he is the apostle to Henry in a way that the others weren't .... could be he has fallen from grace; extremely interesting to me that richard as a name has zero biblical references and means "brave ruler" . something something about the front richard was putting on . the grandiose he wanted so badly to imitate but in the end couldnt and he will always remain but a humble john follower and apostle . perhaps

ronan: his second secret was adam parrish

adam: so, i’ve known for months

this is perhaps the greatest thing I've ever seen thank u for sharing

i got the idea from this post but here is an extensive list of names the foxes group chat was definitely called at some point:

stick ball squad (the og name, lasted all of two seconds before kevin changed it)

the david wymack fanclub

nicky hemmick’s back up singers

fitness gram pacer test survivors 

neil josten appreciation task force (aaron left and had to get added back to the group chat upwards of thirty times during the duration of this name)

plexiglass fuckers anonymous

palmetto 99 

neil minyard™ (in homage to a misprint of neil’s name in the paper)

bad and naughty children get put with kevin day to atone for their sins

The Fuckening

neil’s moist bandana

we’re all GAY fuck you aaron