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my only red flag is thinking that nbc hannibal is the peak of romance

this image is just so amazing… im in disbelief

LESTAT + even more tumblr tags (part 1) Interview with the Vampire (2022)

i can wait for season 2

Portraits Commissioned from The Widow Bonnet

HANNIBAL | 1x02 “Amuse-Bouche”

History’s greatest tactician has made a grave Tactical Error

(Based off this post)

How’s that for an answer?

Hannibal (2013-2015) Interview with the Vampire (2022-)

Jim and Oluwande

edward teach ♢ our flag means death  //  moodboard

okay i love interview with the vampire but i’m fully ignoring everyone who’s upset at the deviations from the books because honestly they make the story that much more interesting ..

like oh book lestat would never hurt louis? boringggg MY lestat threw him through multiple walls and i love him anyway <33

besides they’re slave owners in the books that’s stupid and i hate it! like the show bothers to deal with the question of race in a way the books don’t and it has such an interesting portrayal of being black and immortal ?? it’s just like more fun sorry not sorry

still can’t think about anything but them

look i know that if we hadn’t gotten those seconds of ed sobbing on steed’s bed our image of what ed’s mental state and behavior is gonna look like in season 2 would be WAY different but like we did get to see ed crying his eyes out so how about we stop acting like he’s going to be cold and calculating and violent and effortlessly cruel towards everyone around him for the entirety of the next season

lestat de lioncourt gaslighting, mansplaining, girlbossing, manipulating, gatekeeping and malewifing his way through unlife…

The black cravat // The red silk

I've got gay pirate brainrot

there is no cure

As I previously stated, I loved 01x05. It was fantastic. It was real. It brought my emotions to the forefront, and I don't get to experience that with much of anything, these days. But, this little misfit family... I feel for all three of these characters, in my own way. (They're fictional, so, yes, I can do that, thanks). Possibly because I have been in each of their positions, in one form or another, throughout my life.

I'm going to get mighty personal with this one, so be warned.

01x05 hit home for me, in a big way. This is a legitimate breakdown of a forced family unit, and that's something I personally feel for. Children have been the Bad Marriage Band-Aid for generations, and I am grateful to the writers for acknowledging it. (Some of us get a little tired of seeing cookie-cutter families, when ours look more like the aftermath of an oven fire, y'know what I mean?). We're getting to see it from all three sides, too, which I find absolutely refreshing. One parent thinks the child will settle the relationship. The other goes along with it, and ends up so blinded by jealousy, there is no middle ground left.

Claudia, though. This girl... She has my heart. Claudia is not to blame for what she was brought into, the absolutely fucked-up relationship that her guardians share. Is she a little shit? Yes. Is she hard-headed? Yes. Unstable, in terms of coming into her own? Yes. But, she is not the cause of her parents' issues. That's a hard thing to overcome as a child brought up under such circumstances, especially when the household arguments are about you. Because, sure, they may be about you, but you did not cause them. Claudia isn't the origin of Louis and Lestat's tensions. She is the excuse to pick a semi-fresh fight. She is the mirror held up in front of the two of them to show them that, "Hey, this isn't right." The product of their unstable union. The best and worst of one another in one person. (Speaking of her vampiric years, not her humanity). That isn't to say that there isn't genuine concern for her, particularly on the part of Louis. Claudia just got caught up in a toxic situation, and it's no wonder she took the hell off. I'm not surprised which parent's side she took, either. (Then again, are any of us?).

Louis and Lestat are... Well, I feel less for the two of them. Some years ago, I was in a relationship with similar features, so I think what I am experiencing is that mirror (minus the children). I will first say that nothing - nothing - excuses abuse. I've seen it. I've experienced it. Hell, I'm guilty of it. I also acknowledge that abuse takes many forms. I see it in Lestat's constant manipulations. I see it in Louis' repeated threats to leave. Louis withholding intimacies (not just sexual). Lestat playing his little one-sided What's Good for the Goose game, in terms of monogamy. They both know what they are doing to one another, they know the reactions they will trigger, yet they keep doing it. It's an ugly, ugly cycle, and it won't end until one of them cuts the damned cord. Breaks the chain. (I don't exactly advocate that they do so through violence, but). Walking away isn't easy, fuck knows it isn't. There's truth to the notion that things need to hit rock bottom before they can get better.

No one is asking to be abused. That isn't what I'm getting at. My point is that these two are so completely caught up in trying to hurt one another, blame one another, and sabotage the other from the inside out, they ignore what it is doing to their charge. They know she can hear them fighting, and they carry on. Falling victim to The Pattern is part of the cycle, and it is likely to be passed on to Claudia. This whole situation is toxic. This is abuse. This is co-dependent. Everybody sucks, here. (Sorry, I had to). And, by golly, I will be here for it until the bitter end.

Y'know. God-willing.

P.S. I'll happily clarify anything that sounds shitty, if need be. I'm rattling this off at work, between what I should be doing, so. Y'know.

have you ever wondered what it would sound like if ed called stede "darling"? well, i just did thing...

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favorite character meme: four relationships [1/4] Stede.

What is Blackbeard like? Is he as bloodthirsty as everyone says? He is absolutely lovely.

Thinking about Stede, and how I've always thought of him as a character who deals a lot with self-loathing, and now I'm not so sure, because if Stede really hated himself, like if that were a core part of his character/personality, we wouldn't have this show.

Because throwing your entire life away for a shot at happiness isn't self-loathing behavior. There's another post going around about Stede thinking about himself as a child when Nigel says "and you cried all the time and liked to pick flowers" and Stede just looks a bit rueful and says "yeah, little bit." You can tell Stede loves that little boy, and really, what is buying a pirate ship and filling it with fancy clothes and chandeliers and odd characters if not trying to give that kid a life where he might have had a chance to fit in, a life he might have liked?

So Stede hates his life, not himself. He loves pageantry but not the people who would shun you for using the wrong spoon. He loves fine fabric, and knows anyone can appreciate them if given the opportunity. He knows there's a life for him out there, if he can just find the right people in the right place at the right time.

...but then, at the academy, while he is the midst of self-recrimination and guilt, finally having realized that he might have caused his family some real problems by leaving without a word in the night, and knowing that Blackbeard would still be the fiercest pirate in the Caribbean if he had never met Stede (debatable, since Ed was looking for an out anyway), Chauncey takes him into the woods, tells him that Stede Bonnet is not human, that he is a plague, that he defiles beautiful things.

And after 40-odd years of thinking 'I know I don't fit here, but that doesn't mean i can't fit somewhere,' Stede says, "I think you're right. In fact, I completely agree." Stede is the problem. He is wrong and the world is right. He could fit in if he weren't deficient. He could do all the things he is supposed to do if he weren't broken.

So he goes back to the life he hated, because it's what he deserves.

"wanna do something weird" it's been a while since things have been good everything sucks say no so I can chart this one down to one of those things (pls say yes) "thats why I don't have any friends" be my friend im tired of myself and i think i do infact want to be loved "you were always gonna realise who I am" I'm doing this for you believe me you'll thank me later (you are getting attached and im going to wreck your life) "never left" i think i might just want to die next to you i deserve that at least (don't i?) "what makes ed happy is you" what makes ed happy is you what makes ed happy is you what makes ed happy is you

‘When you find somebody who absolutely gets you, that is a beautiful thing, and it is hard not to want to be in the presence of somebody who really, truly understands you. It’s a rare, rare thing…’ ~ Bryan Fuller

ed: Ì̶̡̙ ̴̙̐Ḁ̷͇̏̚Ḿ̶̯͊ ̸̗̏T̶͙̘͗Ḥ̷̼̉͆Ë̶͎̮ ̶̢̊Ḳ̴͆Ȑ̵̨͌A̷̢̲͗K̴͚̉̚E̷͍͗N̶̲͒ͅ also ed: *big sparkly anime eyes*

“please”

hannibal 3x12 || interview with the vampire 1x04

Hannibal (2013-2015) Interview with the Vampire (2022-)

And she’ll be what? A lap dog? No, not…not a dog. A daughter.

Sam Reid being a Lestat apologist is something that can be so personal, he's just like us 😌😌