In Every Interaction With Someone I Really Like I Can't Help But Express A Possessive/stalker Feeling

Yes, please

I really hate to start feeling love for someone because I know history is going to repeat itself. We're going to be happy for a while then I'm going to behave like a bastard or say something insensitive and that will cause that person to be disappointed in me or angry with me; maybe we'll fix things, but it won't be the same.

And honestly, every fall hurts more than the last and I'm already too broken to keep trying.

Existing in the endless vicious circle of:

Please someone end my suffering right now, no one taught me how to be a human being > Get over it, just keep breathing > Oh actually the mood today doesn't feel so bad > Oh no > Please someone end my suffering right now, no one taught me how to be a human being >

-"I can't love"

-"Aw, Stop being rude to yourself! Everyone can love and empathize!"

-"I can't love or empathize, I can pretend but I really don't feel it"

-"Okay, so imagine the person you love the most leaves your life, wouldn't that make you sad?"

-"No."

And so there are many examples of people trying to humanize me, is it really that hard for people to believe that I just struggle/can't really feel?, Yes, I can cry, but I cry out of simple narcissism, out of simple frustration, for myself.

I don't give a damn if you stop talking to me or if something happens to someone, if it doesn't affect ME per se then I just don't care.

LUV YA TOOO/P ♡( ˘ ³˘(◡‿◡˶)

Yume ily brah /p

I feel so empty I feel so empty I feel so empty I feel so empty I feel so empty I feel so empty I feel so empty I feel so empty I feel so empty

I feel like I have the need to throw up something displeasing and nauseous that is inside me

Me when they start the sentence with "my" when they refer to me

kys kys kys kys kys liar liar liar liar

AGUANTA CON TUS PROPIAS CONSECUENCIAS ESTUPIDO INSENSIBLE, NO PUEDES DARLE TAL CANTIDAD DE AFECTO A ALGUIEN QUE SABES MUY BIEN QUE ESTA JODIDO MENTALMENTE Y LUEGO REGRESAR A TRATARME COMO SI FUERA CUALQUIERA JODETE matate puto mentiroso.

por cosas así odio encariñarme con personas.

enserio eres un maldito.

Sometimes I think I just stay calm just because I know there is a memento mori.

Like, I know that whether I want it or not, what I most long for will happen someday, I'm not lucky enough for it to happen today or tomorrow, but it will happen, I will simply disappear

new fav doodle with my husband yippieee <33