3d Relapse - Blog Posts

I ate 2,100 cals tdy,I’m honestly so pathetic,the biggest wannarexic out ther atp

To make up for it I’m going to try and fast for 3 days I’m so tired of messing up I could of been at my gw by now

The less your eat,

The more you become.

Just burnt 1,018 cals I was planning to eat a small meal after but I don’t even have the desire to eat anymore cus why ruin my hard work I spent a whole 1 hour and 26 mins on the Elliptical

Meanspo?? for myself and others If wanted

You say you want it, but your actions prove otherwise I mean look at yourself, observe what you’ve done to get there you chose food over your dream you chose comfort over progress over confidence over perfect and for what the temporary gratification choose discomfort and thin will choose you, choose gratification and fat will choose you, now again do you want it?

Breh so I was supposed to lock in tdy but I only fasted 15 hrs cus my dad gave me food and stayed untill I took a bite 🙄 then I had some fruit pretty low cal but then my friend made me have some of her milkshake and fries I mean I didn’t binge but still ig I’ll fully lock in tmr

SERIOUS QUESTION

How do you guys that have periods still deal with the cravings leading up to or on your period. For mine the whole week before and on I crave chocolate and sweet stuff so so so bad.

so, as one does, i was checking how much ive lost since i started properly tracking again. And, as fucked up little brainicles do, i was disappointed when it fell in the range of healthy weight loss for the time span (7.3kg in 2mo)

and then i realized that i was upset??? about being healthy???? and close to the upper limit of healthy?????

like wtf??????

idrc about whats healthy when it comes to weight loss (like im here lol) but ive never... actively not wanted to at least go about it in a more helathy way??

like im fucking religious abt taking my vitamins so i dont get scurvy or whatever. (after writing this the fact that my hard line for healthy eating is "having my flintstones gummies everyday" is... something)

anyways tldr is i had a "shit i am so far into my relapse ive reached new levels of fuckery" moment :/

Introduction (age 21)

Hi. You can call me Newt because ain't no way I'm sharing my real name on here in fear that someone I know finds me. I'm pretty fucked up in a lot of ways

I'm a survivor of child and adolescent torture after having been severely abused and also a victim of TMBC (trauma-based mind control) and RA (ritual abuse) throughout my childhood. I was abused for 13 and a half years before being removed by social services once I became confident enough to talk about what was happening.

I have Bipolar 1, Dissociative Identity Disorder, Some sorta restrictive ed (probs atypical ana), a psychotic disorder, Complex PTSD, and fibromyalgia. I also deal with sleep problems and a bunch of other physical health issues that are undiagnosed

I'm trans FTM and use he/him Pronouns. I started medication in 2021 after being sectioned to a child inpatient unit where I live and started antipsychotics which made me gain 25 odd kg. I'm now working to lose that weight now I'm feeling more "stable".

I was clinically anorexic before starting on antipsychotics and hoping to get back to that state.

I will mostly be posting about my ed.

If you don't like that, block, don't report.

You have your safe spaces, I have mine.

Nice to meet you all! :D

Starving and manifesting ✨

Manifesting -5kg for everyone who reblogs