guess whos in the 50 kgs now . . THATS RIGHT I AM!!!! RAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH
guess whos ass just hit their first goal weight . . MEMEMEMEME I DID I DID!!!!!!!!
IM ALMOST OUT OF 60 KG JAIL
Hi loveliez !
It's time for the little recap' of the day ! Today I 4t3 less than 200 c4l$ !! I feel proud of me to be honnest, lol. I drank 1.5 L of water today ! That was a good day with a sunny weather. 🥰
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Hey loveliez !
It's time for the little recap' of the day ! I don't think I'm gonna do this recap' everyday because sometimes I just need like to switch off my phone anyway.
Today I 4t3 ~ 300 c4l$ ( I think I 4t3 less but I'm not absolutly sure ) and I walk all the afternoon with someone I really like. I had to pretend that everything is fine and this person doesn't see anything about my health and stuff like this. I think I want that he realize it so bad.. I want some approuvement sometimes.. I don't drink a lot today because I was outside and I forgot my bottle but it's okay !
Don't forget that you are loved sweeties ! XoXo <3
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day 5: favourite 3d media source
... i dont really consume like "mainstream" 3d media apart from songs like my fav (♡ヮ♡) dy1ng on the inside. (its spelt normally im just paranoid abt getting t-worded)
i did learn c@lori3 count1ng from a book i read years ago in elementary school. i cant remember what uts called or enough of the plot to look it up (i have *tried*) but one of the characters is a figure skater with an 3d and at the time (unhelathy relationship with f00d but not full on 3d yet) i genuinely thought it was unrealistic for her to have the c@ls of stuff memorized.
moment of silence for baby-me's innocent naivety.
day 4: whats ur ugw and why
my gw is basically my ugw weight. at it (50kg) ill be underweight (16.3 bmi) but not *severely* underweight.
i also hope to slowly build some lean muscle so with any luck ill be 50kg but look in the 40s
this is late but shhhhhh nothing new with me lets be honest
day 3: weirdest ed-related habit
i dont really think i have any super weird ones but ig:
ive got one stim thats wrapping my hand around the opposite wrist and then tapping each finger together and another thats rubbing the bones of my knuckles with the opposite thumb (both f@t-checking or whatever its called i forogt)
dynnor
quest bar (double chocolate) - 170
the strawberries i already ate (100g) - 32
the monster on my nightstand (the new flavour which slaps i swear try it its so good) - 10
total - 212
i return from the absolute cesspool life chucked me in last month to bring you this fun little nugget my brain gave me:
the earliest i can recall having d1s0rd3red e@t1ng habits is about 6 years ago (i actually started calling it what it was in 2021)
i have had d1s0rd3red e@t1ng habits for 1/3 of my life and almost half of the time i can remember •́ ‿ ,•̀
imma do this now yes yes :3
day 1: stats and expectations
176 cm / 5'9
92 kg / 203 lbs
idrk what "expectations" means in this context but eh
expectations in terms of my goals r:
id like to be sk1nny enough that people tell me to eat more but not enough to get involuntarily committed. like "oh you're wasting away you should put some meat on your bones" not "you're becoming a skeleton bird r u okay?"
expectations in terms of how quickly i can get there:
im waayyyy better at med-res than low or high (low i just do med anyways and high i b1ng3) so it'll be more slow n steady (for 4n@ at least lol)
guys, fellows, ladies, lassos
as of my last weigh in (yesterday morning), im no longer obese!
i have 12.4 kg to go to not be overweight ( • ̀ω•́ ) ✧
soooooooooooooo
almost fainted at karate for the second time this month :3
after consulting dr google i probably have low blood pressure due to not e@ting enough 🙃
also after consulting dr google i will now be drinking more fluids and eating more salt bc this cannot happen again!
going grocery shopping anyone have any suggestions?
@g1rl-interrupts @amptoohigh @angelsonfiilm @allulose-add1ct @moth-boyyyy
my lunch was some bastard child of sushi and onigiri with a delicious, perfect mandarin orange <3
the bastard children were 337 c@ls
rice (160), salmon (120), the srupid fuckjnf cheese (25), ground pepper (2) package of seaweed that i ate the rest of while making them (30)
a mandarin orange my precious (47)
total: 384 (337+47)
have a great timezone! ⸜(。˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝♡
my lunch!
shrimp soup (150) and my last mango (135) rest in my stomach
total: 285
which i more than i usually like for one meal but todays a karate day and if i nearly faint again sensei might wonder why
if anyone's interested i can post the original recipe and then my modified version ^-^
edblr i have made a funny
plz laugh 🥺👉🏻👈🏻
my c@l c0unting app gave me this absolute gem today (*꒦ິ꒳꒦ີ)
thx bb i didnt know
midnight snack ⸜(。˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝♡
okay so my Project of the Month for january is learning a new kpop dance (or at least a section of it) each day and FUCK id forgotten how many calories dancing burns
cause im spending 1-3 hrs a day on this which is AT A MINIMUM 300-900 c@ls and usually closer to 500-1500 because the dances are usually really high energy
and its so fun?? like its hard but wayyyy more fun then running or anything involving burpees bc fuck burpees honestly
i return from the ether to happily report that i only gained 1kg over the hols which is better than i expected and i already lost most of it back!! :3
Day 2: Fav Th1n5pø
ugghh i have so many it depends on the vibe of day? like some days we feeling delicate little pink princess but then others i wanna be a grungy genderless skeleton? or like... idk the aesthetic... ⭐ving academia?
still this is probably fav of all time:
i made tree! you can leave a decoration w/ a message if u want
saw this on @h0neysugarfree 's blog <3
okie imma do this as like a countdown to Christmas yeth :3
To not gain during xmas/ny (or at least lose it right after)
could be harsher but i really really love christmas. literally almost all my positive memories from childhood are during christmas.
Christmas is Special and my stupid little brain don't get to ruin it :P
so first half of the week, sperm donor was at a Manager Work Thingy a few hours away and thus i was Acting Adult of the household and as such in charge of ensuring that both the dog and my little sibling slept, drank water and ate.
nowhere in my instructions were to ensure i slept or ate >:3
unfortunately this had the regrettable consequence of nearly fainting during sparring so... gonna need to be a tad more careful next time lol.
me, after crawling back to tumblr after idefk whats been going but rest assured it was not a productive or fun time.
hallo (◕ᴗ◕✿)
so, as one does, i was checking how much ive lost since i started properly tracking again. And, as fucked up little brainicles do, i was disappointed when it fell in the range of healthy weight loss for the time span (7.3kg in 2mo)
and then i realized that i was upset??? about being healthy???? and close to the upper limit of healthy?????
like wtf??????
idrc about whats healthy when it comes to weight loss (like im here lol) but ive never... actively not wanted to at least go about it in a more helathy way??
like im fucking religious abt taking my vitamins so i dont get scurvy or whatever. (after writing this the fact that my hard line for healthy eating is "having my flintstones gummies everyday" is... something)
anyways tldr is i had a "shit i am so far into my relapse ive reached new levels of fuckery" moment :/
my dinner! spicy "ramen" (konjac noodles), egg, sugar-free jello and cherry coke zero (god i love cherry coke zero my lifeblood frrr ❤️ 🍒)
i used two noodle packets (10 cal each so 20) and one small egg (60 cal) the sauce/seasonings are 22 cal and the green onion is 8.
plus the jello (2 × 5cal = 10) is 160 cal total!!
minor
pro for me not for thee :P
non ed dni plz n thx <3
they/them
any/all
i like purple, stars, stuffies and butterflies
my special interest is languages
current hyperfixations are k-pop and star wars
peer-reviewed + self-diagnosed audhd O.O
open to asks and messages (˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶) .ᐟ.ᐟ
made personal tags:
#bird boned butterflies - general me tag
#birdcooks4butterflies - anything f0od (WIEIADs, recipes, meals etc)
#birdsd!ets4butterflies - gonna start making d!ets
#birdtalks2butterflies - just talking into the void :3
#birdrants@butterflies - ranting into the void
#birdposts4butterflies - daily post challenges
Stats below ^-^
Height: 176cm / 5'9
SW: 100.8 kg / 222.2 lb
CW: 86.9 kg / 191.6 lb
Milestone 1: 90 kg / 198.4 lb ✔
Milestone 2: 80 kg / 176.4 lb ✖
Milestone 3: 75 kg / 165.3 lb ✖
Milestone 4: 67 kg / 147.7 lb ✖
Milestone 5: 60 kg / 132. 3 lb ✖
Milestone 6: 55 kg / 121.5 lb ✖
GW: 50 kg / 110.2 lb
Just weighed myself for the first time since Sunday and apparently I weigh 0.1kg less than I did before I binged. Honestly I think my scale might be broken, or skinny fat has just got me in a crazy chokehold because I look way too fat to be BMI 16.3
Broke my fast with an egg and slice of toast, the guilt is low-key killing me but I’m walking it off tonight at work + I’m gonna take 25 lax.