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𝗟𝗼𝘃𝗲 𝗧𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗗𝗼𝗲𝘀𝗻'𝘁 𝗛𝘂𝗿𝘁.

Love is supposed to feel like home, a place where you’re safe, valued, and understood. But sometimes, love comes in a form that breaks you instead of building you. It can make you question everything: your worth, your choices, even your ability to be loved.

Maybe you've experienced that kind of love. The kind that made you beg for attention, for affection, for the smallest proof that you mattered to them. The kind of love that made you feel like you were too much and never enough at the same time.

It’s lonely, isn’t it? To give so much of yourself and feel like it’s never truly returned. To stay awake at night, overthinking their actions, wondering if you’re the problem when all you ever wanted was to be loved right.

If love ever finds me again, I hope it’s not like that. I hope it’s from someone who makes me feel whole, not someone who leaves me doubting my value. I hope it’s with someone who loves me for who I am, not who they want me to be. Someone who doesn’t make me feel stupid for trying, for caring too much, or for giving my all.

Love shouldn’t be this hard. It shouldn’t hurt this much. I don’t want a love that feels like a lesson. I want a love that feels like peace. If that’s too much to ask, maybe I’d rather wait, lonely but whole, than settle for another love that breaks me.

Because I’ve learned one thing: the love we deserve doesn’t make us beg for it. It just stays. It just feels right.

Abdullah.

A story doesn't exist unless it's Told.

You’re in a relationship to be happy, to smile, to laugh and to make good memories.

Not to be constantly upset, to feel hurt or cry.

Choose the relationship that’s going to lead growth within yourself and your love for one another.

#Abdullah #AbdullahBook #KittyCat

How the coming of the dusk dissolves the laces of the splint that holds you together during the day, and the desperate sadness that follows can be anesthetized only with sleep.

The heaviness of opening your eyes the next morning when you realize that you’ve begun another day of grief, so pervasive that it removes even the taste from the food that you eat.

#Abdullah

I don't want to remember the scars you left

But every day they're stuck within my mind

There'll always be a little piece of you around.

Like a nightmare that doesn't fade in the morning.

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Because the scars you left behind cut deep

If i was to compare them to an ocean.

My lungs would burst as i reached its bed.

That's how far your abuse made me drown.

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Maybe I've now learnt to come up for air.

But the toxicity of your actions still haunts me.

My mind has these mental flashbacks all the time.

It's like although I've finally reached the surface

All that i have to greet me is a flood of acid rain

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Because the memories are probably more painful.

Replaying it over and over again every day.

Makes me relive each moment in high definition

It makes the wounds bleed once again.

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I've carried them with me since I was a child.

The bruises may have now faded away

But your fist feels like it's always approaching

My body still flinches every single time.

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I don't think I'll ever be able to forgive you.

But somehow i have to learn to move on.

I can't let you control my life forever.

Even though i still feel like that little child.

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THE SCARS YOU LEFT BEHIND.

#Abdullah

A mistake is something done by accident, something that is not planned.

But cheating and lying are not mistakes; they are known choices. When someone cheats or lies, they have decided to break the trust and hurt the other. It's not accidental; it is intentional. Mistakes can be pardoned because they are done without any intention, but cheating and lying depict lack of respect and honesty.

If you really care for a person, you don't make decisions that will hurt them. Love is built on trust, and such intentional actions can destroy it. Choose honesty and loyalty always.

✍ Abdullah.

If you want to know what's on her mind, and what she's thinking...she needs to feel totally comfortable with you and trust you to the hilt. No question. If she doubts or doesn't feel comfortable talking with you about what she's going through- she won't risk divulging much at all. Maybe she will be a little general, or give you a crumb of information, but she won't go into depth and rawness.

She's learned that when she is open about what she's feeling, she can't help but be afraid of being judged and misunderstood. She's lost important people in her life, that now, she lost her voice. She's quiet. She's withdrawn. Her depression is deep. But most would never know it with the facade she puts on to not burden anyone or be asked questions. So she doesn't speak up much anymore. Not like she used to. She's not open like she used to be.

She doesn't share stories like she used to. Her abundant advice she always gave happily to those who asked, is now refined, short, and shielded. You'll catch her covering her mouth slightly, because something inside her WANTS to be open and how she always wore her heart on her sleeve, but she stops herself because she doesn't have the energy in her anymore to talk about issues.

So let me say this, if she doesn't open up to you like she used to, don't be offended or hurt. Know she's going through things that has quieted her words. Now, if you are part of the rare few that she actually opens up to freely, honesty flowing, and deep rawness of her thoughts and feelings...know she feels 100% at ease with you to actually open up to.

Don't take it for granted. Take what she's saying seriously and be attentive. This doesn't happen often. Don't make her regret she did. Make her confirm her feelings of trust with you by being there, listening, not using her words against her, not making her defend what she feels, and not betraying that trust. Because if you do, you won't ever get it again.

#Abdullah

As he was inside me, with his weight on top of me, he kissed me on my forehead softly again and again- in between kissing my lips hard and passionately, as he said 'You know what a kiss on the forehead means'.

I was silent. I knew what it meant. It meant protection. Respect. It meant undying love. It meant I'm his, and his alone. It meant 'you're mine'. It meant I mean the world to him.

I didn't need to answer his statement. He knew I knew what it meant. We understood each other in those sweet seconds as he stayed inside me. And in that moment, I fell in love with him more than I already do...

and he didn't even know it.

Know your worth.

When someone treats you like you're just one of many options, help them narrow their choice by removing yourself from the equation.

Sometimes you have to try not to care, no matter how much you do. Because sometimes you can mean almost nothing to someone who means so much to you.

It's not pride - it's self respect. Don't give part-time people a full-time position in your life. Know your value & what you have to offer, and never settle for anything less than what you deserve.

A story doesn't exist unless it's Told.

Will you love me when I have bad days?

Will you love me at my weakest and be who I need you to be when I need you to be it? Will you offer me neverending support and neverending grace? Will I find safety in your arms and know without a doubt you will be there building me up, loving me with an intensity that no one will ever top? Will you cherish the man I am today and tomorrow, never letting me forget how special I am to you?

I don’t want an invisible love. If you are proud of me and what I have accomplished, tell me. If you love the bow I have in my hair that day, communicate that to me. If you adore what I wore that day, show me. If you love my quirky sense of humor and more serious moments we have shared, make sure I know that.

Never let the moment pass, or tell yourself you’ll tell me the next time. Life is too short. What if there is no ‘next time?’ Tell me, show me, making sure I know how special I am to you. I am a ball of fire, intense, and full of inspiration - I need you to be consistent and a rock I can lean on in my most vulnerable moments. If you are this for me - there is no doubt in my mind, I will do that for you.

©️ Abdullah

A story doesn't exist unless it's Told.

A story doesn't exist unless it's Told.

A story doesn't exist unless it's Told.

A story doesn't exist unless it's Told.

A story doesn't exist unless it's Told.

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Love didn’t hurt you. Someone who doesn’t know how to love you hurt you. Don’t confuse the two.

Your naked body should only belong to those who fall in love with your naked soul.

To love is human. To feel pain is human. Yet to still love despite the pain... is pure angel.

- Rumi

How far can you go down the wrong path before you can’t get back on the right one?

Forgive yourself for not knowing what you didn’t know before you learned it.

Some changes happen deep down Inside of you. And the truth is only you know about them.

Every relationship will get “Boring” after you've been together for years.

Love isn't just a feelings. It's a commitment to love every day, physically and emotionally.

It's difficult, it's not always laughs, smiles and fun.

People tend to quit when it's stop being fun, and they go look for someone else, because “the spark is gone”. No, that's not how it works.

You want somebody to never give up on you and love unconditionally then do the same.

Be the change.

Love someone when you don't want to. When they aren't the easiest to deal with. When they are hard to love.

🤍 #Abdullah.

A story doesn't exist unless it's Told.

It's not your job to save people from themselves. You can't expect them to change for YOU. Unless they decide to change for their own sake, you'll be stuck in a whirlpool.

It's human nature to be there for one another but not to the point where we let people become dependent on us for their own happiness or well-being.

If you want to change your partner, chances are they're not the one for you. If they don't want to change, they won't change.

People won't change for you or me. They change for themselves.

That's why, don't feel guilty for wanting your loved ones to change and then you take the responsibility to change them. This will drain you and lead you to disappointment and heartbreak.

You can't save them. You are not responsible for where their actions may lead.. But you can still show support and encouragement. You can still love them anyways.

#Abdullah

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"I crave and desire you."

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Because without looking for you, I find you everywhere, especially when I close my eyes.

- #Abdullah #AbdullahBook #KittyCat

A story doesn't exist unless it's Told.

"I crave and desire you."

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Because without looking for you, I find you everywhere, especially when I close my eyes.

- #Abdullah #AbdullahBook #KittyCat

A story doesn't exist unless it's Told.

"I crave and desire you."

I want to marry you.

I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where, I love you simply, without problems or pride: I love you in this way because I don’t know any other way of loving.

This is for You. Feel this song...

Because without looking for you, I find you everywhere, especially when I close my eyes.

- Abdullah

A story doesn't exist unless it's Told.

𝙸 𝚌𝚘𝚞𝚕𝚍 𝚗𝚘𝚝 𝚝𝚎𝚕𝚕 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚒𝚏 𝙸 𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚎𝚍 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚏𝚒𝚛𝚜𝚝 𝚖𝚘𝚖𝚎𝚗𝚝 𝙸 𝚜𝚊𝚠 𝚢𝚘𝚞, 𝚘𝚛 𝙸𝚏 𝙸𝚝 𝚠𝚊𝚜 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚜𝚎𝚌𝚘𝚗𝚍 𝚘𝚛 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚛𝚍 𝚘𝚛 𝚏𝚘𝚞𝚛𝚝𝚑.

𝙱𝚞𝚝 𝙸 𝚛𝚎𝚖𝚎𝚖𝚋𝚎𝚛 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚏𝚒𝚛𝚜𝚝 𝚖𝚘𝚖𝚎𝚗𝚝 𝙸 𝚕𝚘𝚘𝚔𝚎𝚍 𝚊𝚝 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚠𝚊𝚕𝚔𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚝𝚘𝚠𝚊𝚛𝚍 𝚖𝚎 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚕𝚒𝚣𝚎𝚍 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚜𝚘𝚖𝚎𝚑𝚘𝚠 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚛𝚎𝚜𝚝 𝚘𝚏 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚠𝚘𝚛𝚕𝚍 𝚜𝚎𝚎𝚖𝚎𝚍 𝚝𝚘 𝚟𝚊𝚗𝚒𝚜𝚑 𝚠𝚑𝚎𝚗 𝙸 𝚠𝚊𝚜 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚢𝚘𝚞.

‿ℒℴνℯ⁀💕 𝙰𝚋𝚍𝚞𝚕𝚕𝚊𝚑

𝙰 𝚜𝚝𝚘𝚛𝚢 𝚍𝚘𝚎𝚜𝚗'𝚝 𝚎𝚡𝚒𝚜𝚝 𝚞𝚗𝚕𝚎𝚜𝚜 𝚒𝚝'𝚜 𝚃𝚘𝚕𝚍.

𝐂𝐨𝐦𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐦𝐞 𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐈'𝐦 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡𝐝𝐫𝐚𝐰𝐧 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐪𝐮𝐢𝐞𝐭.

𝐅𝐨𝐫 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭'𝐬 𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐈'𝐦 𝐡𝐮𝐫𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠, 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐦𝐲 𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐝 𝐢𝐬 𝐬𝐩𝐞𝐚𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐯𝐨𝐥𝐮𝐦𝐞𝐬 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐬𝐚𝐲𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐚 𝐬𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐥𝐞 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐝.

𝐂𝐨𝐦𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐦𝐞 𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐈 𝐜𝐚𝐧'𝐭 𝐜𝐨𝐩𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐫𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡 𝐦𝐲 𝐝𝐚𝐲 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐣𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝐠𝐨 𝐭𝐡𝐫𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐦𝐨𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐬 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐚 𝐰𝐞𝐥𝐥-𝐨𝐢𝐥𝐞𝐝 𝐦𝐚𝐜𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐞.

𝐂𝐨𝐦𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐦𝐞 𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐈'𝐦 𝐬𝐨𝐛𝐛𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐢𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐰𝐞𝐫 𝐛𝐞𝐜𝐚𝐮𝐬𝐞 𝐧𝐨 𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐜𝐚𝐧 𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐫 𝐦𝐞 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐰𝐚𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐫𝐮𝐧𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐟𝐚𝐧 𝐨𝐧.

𝐂𝐨𝐦𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐦𝐞 𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐈'𝐦 𝐝𝐫𝐢𝐯𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐚𝐥𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐬𝐨𝐮𝐥 𝐩𝐮𝐫𝐩𝐨𝐬𝐞 𝐣𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐥𝐞𝐭 𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐦𝐲 𝐬𝐚𝐝𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐬 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐮𝐦𝐚𝐬 𝐨𝐮𝐭- 𝐢𝐧 𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐥𝐨𝐮𝐝 𝐥𝐨𝐧𝐠 𝐬𝐜𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐦 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐨𝐧𝐥𝐲 𝐈 𝐜𝐚𝐧 𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐫.

𝐂𝐨𝐦𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐦𝐞 𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐈'𝐦 𝐬𝐢𝐭𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐨𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐜𝐨𝐮𝐜𝐡 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐨𝐟𝐟 𝐨𝐮𝐭𝐬𝐢𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐰𝐢𝐧𝐝𝐨𝐰, 𝐨𝐫 𝐟𝐢𝐱𝐚𝐭𝐞𝐝 𝐨𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐩𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐧𝐬 𝐨𝐧 𝐜𝐮𝐫𝐭𝐚𝐢𝐧𝐬, 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐛𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐟𝐨𝐫 5 𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐮𝐭𝐞𝐬 𝐛𝐞𝐜𝐚𝐮𝐬𝐞 𝐈 𝐟𝐞𝐞𝐥 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐡𝐨𝐥𝐥𝐨𝐰 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐧𝐮𝐦𝐛.

𝐂𝐨𝐦𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐦𝐞 𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐰𝐞'𝐫𝐞 𝐬𝐥𝐞𝐞𝐩𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐢𝐧 𝐛𝐞𝐝 𝐚𝐬 𝐲𝐨𝐮'𝐫𝐞 𝐬𝐩𝐨𝐨𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐦𝐞, 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐈'𝐦 𝐭𝐫𝐲𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐦𝐲 𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐝𝐞𝐬𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐜𝐫𝐲 𝐬𝐢𝐥𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐥𝐲 𝐚𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐭𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐬 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐫𝐨𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐨𝐧 𝐦𝐲 𝐩𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐨𝐰 𝐬𝐨 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐝𝐨𝐧'𝐭 𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐫 𝐦𝐞.

𝐂𝐨𝐦𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐦𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐦𝐨𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐚𝐟𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐚 𝐩𝐚𝐧𝐢𝐜 𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐚𝐜𝐤 𝐰𝐚𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐦𝐞 𝐮𝐩 3 𝐚𝐦- 𝐚𝐬 𝐦𝐲 𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐭 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐨𝐟 𝐦𝐲 𝐜𝐡𝐞𝐬𝐭, 𝐦𝐲 𝐥𝐞𝐠𝐬 𝐜𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝𝐧'𝐭 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐲 𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐫𝐮𝐧 𝐚 𝐦𝐢𝐥𝐞, 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐟𝐞𝐥𝐭 𝐬𝐢𝐜𝐤 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐥𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐦𝐞𝐝𝐬 𝐤𝐢𝐜𝐤𝐞𝐝 𝐢𝐧.

𝐂𝐨𝐦𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐦𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐦𝐨𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐚𝐟𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐚𝐬 𝐈 𝐟𝐞𝐥𝐭 𝐛𝐫𝐨𝐤𝐞𝐧, 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐩𝐡𝐲𝐬𝐢𝐜𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲, 𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲, 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐞𝐦𝐨𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲 𝐞𝐱𝐡𝐚𝐮𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐝- 𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐈 𝐣𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐫𝐮𝐧 𝐭𝐨 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐚𝐬 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐡𝐞𝐥𝐝 𝐦𝐞 𝐢𝐧 𝐛𝐞𝐝, 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐈 𝐣𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝐜𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐝 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐟𝐢𝐧𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲 𝐬𝐥𝐞𝐩𝐭, 𝐛𝐞𝐜𝐚𝐮𝐬𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐬𝐭𝐨𝐩𝐩𝐞𝐝 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐤𝐝𝐚𝐲 𝐦𝐞𝐞𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬 𝐭𝐨 𝐛𝐞 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐦𝐞.

𝐂𝐨𝐦𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐦𝐞 𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐈'𝐦 𝐟𝐞𝐞𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐡𝐞𝐥𝐩𝐥𝐞𝐬𝐬 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐞 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐠𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐟- 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐚 𝐰𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐜𝐚𝐦𝐞 𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐨𝐟 𝐧𝐨𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐈 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐚 𝐠𝐨𝐨𝐝 𝐝𝐚𝐲, 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐬𝐦𝐢𝐥𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐬𝐨 𝐦𝐮𝐜𝐡 𝐬𝐥𝐢𝐩𝐬 𝐚𝐰𝐚𝐲.

𝐂𝐨𝐦𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐦𝐞 𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐈 𝐧𝐞𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐟𝐞𝐞𝐥 𝐬𝐚𝐟𝐞 𝐢𝐧 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐞𝐦𝐛𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐞 𝐚𝐬 𝐢𝐟 𝐧𝐨𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐢𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐥𝐝 𝐜𝐚𝐧 𝐡𝐮𝐫𝐭 𝐦𝐞.

𝐂𝐨𝐦𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐦𝐞 𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐈 𝐧𝐞𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐥𝐞𝐭 𝐢𝐭 𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐨𝐮𝐭, 𝐜𝐫𝐲, 𝐬𝐨𝐛, 𝐬𝐜𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐦, 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐯𝐞𝐧𝐭 𝐛𝐞𝐜𝐚𝐮𝐬𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐚𝐥𝐰𝐚𝐲𝐬 𝐭𝐨𝐥𝐝 𝐦𝐞 𝐈 𝐜𝐚𝐧 𝐥𝐞𝐭 𝐦𝐲𝐬𝐞𝐥𝐟 𝐠𝐨 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐛𝐞 𝐭𝐨𝐭𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲 𝐨𝐩𝐞𝐧 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐲𝐨𝐮, 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐛𝐞 𝐦𝐲𝐬𝐞𝐥𝐟 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐚𝐧𝐲 𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐠𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭.

𝐂𝐨𝐦𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐦𝐞 𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐈 𝐧𝐞𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐫 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐬𝐮𝐫𝐚𝐧𝐜𝐞𝐬 𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐨𝐟 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐛𝐥𝐮𝐞.

𝐂𝐨𝐦𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐦𝐞 𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐈 𝐧𝐞𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐛𝐞 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐈'𝐦 𝐬𝐩𝐢𝐫𝐚𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐝𝐨𝐰𝐧 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐈 𝐧𝐞𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐟𝐞𝐞𝐥 𝐜𝐚𝐥𝐦 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐬𝐚𝐟𝐞 𝐢𝐧 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐚𝐫𝐦𝐬 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐦𝐲 𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐝 𝐨𝐧 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐜𝐡𝐞𝐬𝐭.

𝐅𝐨𝐫 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞'𝐬 𝐧𝐨𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐢𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐥𝐝 𝐈'𝐝 𝐫𝐚𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐛𝐞 𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐈'𝐦 𝐢𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐝𝐚𝐫𝐤 𝐩𝐥𝐚𝐜𝐞.

𝐘𝐨𝐮'𝐫𝐞 𝐜𝐚𝐥𝐦 𝐭𝐨 𝐦𝐲 𝐬𝐭𝐨𝐫𝐦𝐬, 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐦𝐲 𝐩𝐞𝐚𝐜𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐦𝐲 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐨𝐬.

𝐘𝐨𝐮'𝐫𝐞 𝐦𝐲 𝐬𝐚𝐟𝐞 𝐩𝐥𝐚𝐜𝐞. 𝐖𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐈 𝐜𝐚𝐧 𝐛𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐲, 𝐟𝐞𝐞𝐥 𝐚𝐭 𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐞, 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐬𝐞𝐜𝐮𝐫𝐞.

𝐈'𝐦 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐚𝐟𝐫𝐚𝐢𝐝 𝐨𝐟 𝐠𝐨𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐢𝐧𝐭𝐨 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐝𝐚𝐫𝐤 𝐩𝐥𝐚𝐜𝐞 𝐛𝐞𝐜𝐚𝐮𝐬𝐞 𝐈 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰 𝐲𝐨𝐮'𝐥𝐥 𝐬𝐢𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐦𝐞 𝐮𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐥 𝐈 𝐦𝐚𝐤𝐞 𝐢𝐭 𝐨𝐮𝐭.

--© 𝐀𝐛𝐝𝐮𝐥𝐥𝐚𝐡, 𝐀𝐛𝐝𝐮𝐥𝐥𝐚𝐡𝐁𝐨𝐨𝐤.

𝐀 𝐬𝐭𝐨𝐫𝐲 𝐝𝐨𝐞𝐬𝐧'𝐭 𝐞𝐱𝐢𝐬𝐭 𝐮𝐧𝐥𝐞𝐬𝐬 𝐢𝐭'𝐬 𝐓𝐨𝐥𝐝.

Every night when I go to sleep I am grateful that I am one day closer to being with you again.

I miss you more than anyone can comprehend.

#Abdullah

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