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Love this post!!!

We ourselves don't have DID or OSDD [at least not diagnosed, and we won't argue with anyone on if we do or do not actually have either of these]. We think that those disorders don't fit us because of reasons related to our own experiences, and arguing with us isn't gonna change shit.

However, we do think our plurality relates at least a little to our trauma, so in that way, we are both under the "endogenic" label and "traumagenic". The origin we describe ourselves as is specifically "quoitraumagenic" which is a mix of "quoigenic" and "traumagenic". We have a post with the definition from a website about plurality.

We don't typically want to talk about our origin(s?) for our plurality. We are plural, and that's all that actually matters.

- Shay 🐾

hey, i saw a post on here saying you guys support non "traumagenic" systems and I was wanting to know if thats true.

You guys are so amazing and have helped me with my identity a lot, but this information is really important to me as a trauma survivor with severe PTSD. If you are pro endos but are open to listening to trauma survivors and phycology sources, I absolutely will provide them. I want you guys to be a safe space for people with PTSD and dissociative disorders so bad, as people who has OSDDDID tend to have more "contradictory" labels in the first place, due to the complex relationship all the different alters identities make combined.

I'm hoping so much that you'll be open to listening if this is true.

hello! i'm good, i don't need any!

if you only have severe PTSD and not a dissociative disorder and do not identify as plural, you should NOT be commenting on plurality at all. like i hate to break it to you, but if you do not deal with plurality, you do not know what the experience is like. reading papers about it will not give you insight into how people actually live.

i'm an inclusive Dissociative Identity Disorder system who is 100% pro endo, and any other type of system. i support ALL plurals, i don't cherry pick. you're correct, this blog is a safe space, especially for people with "contradictory" identities or ones that "don't make sense." why wouldn't i be here for endogenic and non traumagenic systems?

that would go against everything i stand for.

i am a trauma survivor as well. i *have* DID, i don't really need any resources on the matter- before I was diagnosed i spent years researching, and i still do keep up with research. i am aware that DID and OSDD are caused by trauma! generally it's severe, repeated trauma and/or neglect. i have no memories of my life before the age of 10. i too have severe PTSD, i have a diagnosis for C-PTSD in specific. i live with this every day of my life. i still have a lot of trauma and triggers. i black out and lose time and regularly forget who i am or where i'm at.

something to keep in mind is research on DID has literally 0 bearing on other types of plurality. just because there is a lot of research into DID, OSDD, etc. does not mean that other plural experiences do not exist. when ONLY siting medical sources and saying that because there's no other "proof" or "evidence" that other types of plurality "can't" exist, it's an appeal to authority. there is no research data to point toward because studies on DID and OSDD and other dissociative disorders have really only gained traction within the last 10 - 20 years maximum. this is an extremely recent phenomenon! just because there are no (paid, keep in mind that studies have to find funding, and investors are picky) medical papers or studies to point toward doesn't mean something isn't happening.

someone identifying as plural without trauma is not an affront to plurals who do have trauma. someone identifying as a system who doesn't have or know of any childhood trauma is not spitting in your face. i've seen this take around and it's just not it. don't take someone else's mental health as an attack on yours. it's not hurting you at all for people to identify as plural if they don't have trauma. it's not spitting in *my* face, so it's not spitting in yours, either. it's okay to let non traumagenic systems exist. it's not exacerbating your trauma or re-traumatizing you or subjecting you to new trauma.

they're not saying that your trauma is invalid just because they don't have any. i don't like people who get on a high horse because they have a dissociative disorder and act like they get to police how other people's brains work. you only know how your brain works. you do not know how any other type of system works.

endogenic systems are not identifying as endogenic to spite you or dissociative systems. they're not doing it to hurt you. they're doing it because they identify as multiple people. that is not being done with the intention to hurt anyone. this is about THEM, not you. nobody is the protagonist of the plural community. no one.

as a plural, myself, i get to choose who i support. and i choose to support people who aren't hurting anyone or doing anything wrong. i really don't care how offensive some people find non traumagenic systems, but they're not hurting you, me, or anyone else. live and let live. you don't know how someone else's brain works. you will never be able to know how someone else's brain works. accepting that will make your life easier.

being angry at other people for not having trauma will not make yours go away or undo what was done to you. you should never take out your frustrations on people who haven't hurt you. endos haven't hurt you, you just don't agree with them. these are 2 separate things. also you really don't have the right to comment on the nature of how complex non traumagenic plurality is or is not- endogenic systems can have just as many nuanced and complex identities regardless of whether or not they're dissociating. they're still multiple people whether or not you see them that way. they also have complex identities, why wouldn't they? being different people leads to a lot of complexity. you should still see them as multiple people even if you don't think it's legit. that's basic respect for another person who, again, literally hasn't hurt you.

also endogenic and non dissociative systems are still people, and we should still care about them. they're still people even if you don't agree with them, and again: they have not hurt you by virtue of existing.

hope that helps and makes sense. i am not open to changing my mind on this, but i appreciate you giving me a good reason to explain my stance on the matter. i don't have the right to police other people and tell them how their own brains work. you don't have that right, either. i'm not here to police anyone. that goes against everything i stand for. i don't gatekeep.

i'm not a cop.

:3c

- Shay 🐾

rb to have a super gay 2023

Once again, we haven't posted in a while, lol.

Honestly, just posting this so that people know that we are still alive, lol.

- Shay 🐾

We haven't posted in a while, lol.

Pretty sure there's also some posts in our drafts that may or may not get posted at any point.

This is just the whole post, lol.

- Shay 🐾

Same here!!

If people are respectful and shit, they are more than welcome on our account/blog!

- Shay 🐾

putting this out there preemptively, my account is for sure a safe place for any alterhumans coming over from tiktok.

We haven't posted in a while, lol.

Pretty sure there's also some posts in our drafts that may or may not get posted at any point.

This is just the whole post, lol.

- Shay 🐾

LOL

So far, we don't have a specific little alter, but I do age regress sometimes.

Although we don't have a job yet, we will be looking for one in January, though.

- Shay 🐾

If the little fronts on the clock can you sue for child labor

Well, in this current body/life, we don't have an SD [service dog] yet (we need to work on getting one).

But from some of our past lifes, we loved having our service dogs help with grabbing things that we had issues getting.

- Shay 🐾

What is your in-depth opinion of fire?

Depends on who is being asked.

There's Den and Moonfire who love fire, lol!

Most of the rest of us mostly just like looking at fire but not being too close, lol.

Not sure what else to say here.

- Shay 🐾

Guess we are answering from main account/blog now.

Our hyperfixations tend to be more related to our sources and other games, movies, and shows, lol.

Also, animal related things, especially service dogs.

[Some of these could also be special interests, we aren't entirely sure of the difference for us]

- Shay 🐾

What is your in-depth opinion of fire?

Depends on who is being asked.

There's Den and Moonfire who love fire, lol!

Most of the rest of us mostly just like looking at fire but not being too close, lol.

Not sure what else to say here.

- Shay 🐾

We decided to make some flags just for our plurality. While these flags are technically free to use, credit is actually required for these, as these flags are specifically made for us really.

We used browns and green-blues as those are colors that a lot of us have connections and stuff to.

- Shay 🐾

Made some nonhuman related flag(s).

We don't have a name for them as a term or anything. If anyone can think of a good name for it, then feel free to reblog with said name/term.

We do have a definition for what we want the flag(s) to mean.

The definition is: Beings that are nonhuman/not human fully, even when the body they are in is human. (This can be described in different ways).

We tried to kind of make it based a bit off of nature (greens and browns mainly).

- Shay (They/it) 🐾

Edit: These are free to use! Credit is appreciated but not required! Also, feel free to make alternative versions of these flags!

Tw: sexual assault mentioned, and trauma/ptsd. All from past lifes and not explicit.

Talking about this once again, mainly cause I want to mention that it's from both of my "kin" lifes [Zuki and Cyan]. And it was likely more than once in both.

It sucks having to deal with the trauma even when in this body/life I/we have never experienced anything like that.

Anyway, just wanted to slightly vent again.

- Shay 🐾

Tw: sexual assault mentioned, trauma/ptsd, I think that's it? All of this is pretty much just past life, and it's not explicit, just mentioned by name.

Anyone else who experienced trauma in a past life that they haven't experienced in your current life, how do you deal with it?

I haven't ever been SAed in this life but I am pretty sure that I was at least once in a past life [maybe multiple past lifes, Zuki is the one that I am meaning rn]. And I have no real idea of how to go about dealing with this.

I feel shitty cause, like I've said, I have never been through that in this life, but it still affects me about as much as if I had. And I don't really know how to talk about this shit with people cause idk how they would react, even those that support and love me as I am [alterhuman/nonhuman stuff included] but having trauma from my past life that I haven't experienced here is kinda different.

Idk, I just want to know if anyone has any advice or anything for this situation.

Sorry for this type of post, I try not to bring too much stuff like this into my account, but I feel like I need to. I'll try and keep my posts more light-hearted or, at least of course, give trigger warnings or content warnings when they're not light-hearted.

- Zuki Shay Lupo (They/hx/it)

This is actually very important!

Also, for our account/blog, we are fine with minors interacting with most of our posts [only posts we wouldn't want them interacting with are more nsfw posts, which is just kinda common sense and shit] but we aren't wanting to talk to minors in dms, this is just a specific thing that we have that we are allow to say.

If you are a minor interacting with our posts, that's 100% fine, and if you want to chat in replies or asks or reblogs, that's also 100% fine with us. Just no dms with minors. That's one of our only "rules" for our account/blog when it comes to minors interacting and shit.

- Shay 🐾

Saw a tiktok of a guy saying he doesn’t feel comfortable talking to minors because he’s 19. And it’s just. I’m so fucking tired of this.

And like to be clear, I’m speaking as a victim of pedophilia when I say: We need to get over this collective fear of endangering children. Because holy shit, this stuff is getting out of hand.

The average person is not a threat to a child.

And also!!! It is actually really really good for kids to have friendships with adults that aren’t their family.

Having friendships with adults when you’re younger prepares you for adult life in a better way then only interacting with adults that are family members or teacher as well.

And also if there’s any sort of weird behavior happening with adults or teachers, it’s very helpful to have unrelated adults, you can go to, and also have a model for what normal adults are supposed to look like.

And also! You’re just making it way easier for pedophiles to prey on children when you completely avoid interacting with them as an adult. Because kids are naturally inquisitive and curious. They are going to want to interact with adults and they are going to want to ask questions. And if the only adult adults that are willing to interact and speak with them or adults who have ulterior motivations. Guess what’s gonna happen.

Also on a more general note. Having a model for what a normal healthy adult is supposed to look like makes it way easier for kids to be able to recognize and identify when adults in their personal life are being weird.

Absolutely feel this!!!

Although we ourselves aren't "physically" nonhuman. Sadly, this body is human, no matter how much we wish it weren't. Though we are fully nonhuman.

Many people probably wouldn't get the difference between the two, but for us, there is a difference no matter how small it might be. Honesty, the main difference is that we feel we aren't allowed to call ourselves one because of the fact that this body is human.

Physical nonhumans are very safe here, and they don't have to call themselves delusional or anything like that. If you are physically nonhuman, you are safe to fully be yourself on our blog. We would love to see more physical nonhumans around!!

It's sad that this is something we actually have to mention because, honestly, it should just be known and shit. It's sad that the distrust and fear of people who hurt others makes this required to be said so that people can know that they are safe here.

We aren't hurting anyone, so why can't we be ourselves?

Hopefully, one day, we can be free to be yourselves.

- Shay 🐾

The Struggle of Misanthropy

I find myself often struggling with feelings of Misanthropy, they are to me not feelings I particularly like. I know where they come from and why they exist, and even though I do not like them, I understand where they come from and that it is not unreasonable for me to have them. (Continued below the break - Length: 2078 words)

I find that often the community has this push against misanthropy and for particular positivity of humans and humanity, even to the point of shaming those of us who have those feelings including from trauma and hurt. I have a couple friends on here who have expressed either in general or to me that feeling that they have to hide those feelings or worry I will react badly to it. I feel it myself worrying about expressing particular anger for things done to me.

I do think there are multiple types and levels of misanthropy, and it seems likely we are using the same word for different experiences, and perhaps I am using this word wrong. I had discussed this topic after some back and forth with Rani on the subject and determined that we were more or less talking about different aspects of the same word but maybe there is another word that better describes my own relationship with humanity.

There is that misanthropy that seems to take the form of ecofascism, of humans being a virus or particularly evil or destructive. There is misanthropy that takes the form mainly of a belief in superiority in themselves over the humans for various justifications. There is the misanthropy that stems largely from hurt from the actions of humans to the individual themselves that seems to come as fear and distrust and discontentment towards them. I am certain there is a lot of other varieties and there can be crossover between them.

I do not think humans are inherently evil or even uniquely destructive beyond their numbers and intelligence. Heck the penis worm may have ended the Ediacaran. Nor do I think the bad things humans have done to myself, and others, is something inherent to them. Humans are a very communal species who only survived off their collaboration between each other and other animals, but now live in a very stressful environment that encourages individuality and often rewards cruelty. Painted Dogs similarly are very communal and cooperative animals in their packs but confined to captivity can kill each other. A similar story exists for orca as well especially during the earlier days of captivity. Nor do I believe myself superior to the humans. I do find these first two types of misanthropy rather frustrating, but still like my own experience, it seems mostly to come from hurt people, people who have been abused by humans with power over them, people who have been isolated from their communities. I do not think most people come to hating humans just from the blue. My companion for instance does often echo the humans are a cancer idea from their own pain. It is at times frustrating, but I understand at least where it comes from, all the pain within them.

For myself I experience the third type. I do not hate the humans, but I do not particularly like them. I fear them. I distrust them. For me, the humans are in charge, and I have to obey them. They control the food; they control where I live; they control what happens to me and how much I hurt. If I obey them then things will be better for me. I am allowed to live outside of a hospital because I have been good and obedient. I am allowed to have my own life because I have been good and obedient. The humans have hurt me, and they continue to hurt me.

One of the common retorts to this is that it isn't fair to humans to judge them all for the actions of a few. The problem is it is not just a few, and it is not something in the past, it is something ongoing still. I still have to take pills I do not want that keep my body in this human form to be able to live outside a hospital, and if I did not take them I would be put away again and forced still to take the pills, and every step I refused to comply would only result in greater restriction until I complied or could no longer resist. It is true though only a few humans hurt me directly, only a few humans twisted my body into this shape and only a few humans did everything that was done to me in hospitals. But how many humans work in those hospitals supporting those doctors? How many humans enforce the will of those doctors and hospitals? How many people support what was done to myself and others, think that it is right and best for us, or sometimes even a gift? How many people think that what was done to me was necessary? How many think it is just how things are, maybe it isn't great but it cannot be changed? Not all of these people are equally culpable certainly, but the number of people who support this system which hurts us is really very high and I see it constantly all the time, even in just the small jokes people make. While only a few humans hold immediate power over me, in every human, or creature that fills the role of a human, for me is fear, is a need that I must obey, for they have an incredible power over me to hurt me if I do not give them what they want, and that if they do hurt me, even if they broke the rules of their society, no human would ever help me. For me, complete submission to the demands of the humans (at least externally) is the only way for my continued existence and my presence to be tolerated, and the pain I am given to be minimised.

Do not think therians are excused or immune from this; many therians do the same to us as well. I do find many therians extremely human. I find often their concerns, their desires, and their biases are often very human just with a little bit more. I know a number of people have described therianthropy as essentially human+. Therianthropy is a pretty wide spectrum of experience, and it is not inherently wrong to be on the more human side of that experience, I am simply unable to relate to it, but because of the biases many of them carry, they often hurt those like me, and you reading this may perpetuate things that do hurt those like me.

I have never really felt welcome in the therian community despite being here for near a decade now. It was not until around two or three years ago I felt comfortable to call myself a therian. I have schizophrenia and clinical zoanthropy (often shortened to CLCZ here), or those are at least the humans’ explanations of what I experience/d. The community has for a long time not been good to zoanthropes. I have been unwelcome in a lot of communities and it was often made clear to me over and over my experience was not the same as theirs. In order to be tolerated generally it had to be a fairly accepting community, normally of older therians, but with the caveat that if I ever described my experience I would have to play down my experience. I would have to always reassure everyone that I knew I was experiencing a delusion, and that none of it was real, not like their experiences were. I have been continuously isolated from what is ostensibly my own community, and in a community of outsiders, still an outsider, at best merely tolerated at the edge, but still an interloper in -their- space. In an almost mirror of a phrase I see often from therians of “too human to be with animals, to animal to be among human,” I am too human to be among my kind, but still too animal for many therians.

Things have gotten a bit better in the past decade, and particularly so on tumblr of people becoming more open with things like physical non-humanity. I am happy to have joined here, for one the relative anonymity means I can sometimes talk back, sometimes try to fight just a little bit and be heard, but also for the connections I have made, particularly with Dune, Sonar, Xem and Ike. I am very happy to have met other CLCZs. I do not feel so alone, there are others like me out there, and there are others like me on here, others I can connect with finally.

Still despite this, discussions of us not being welcome come up often. Anytime physical non-humanity comes up it does often come to demonising CLCZs as insane, dangerous, or needing serious help. Similarly, too many therians seem very eager to throw CLCZs under the bus when it comes to justifying their existence, particularly to the broader public and anti-kin. For the most part I can avoid it, but still, it keeps popping up. Even among those who do defend us and accept us, there is still a price for us to be tolerated. Many times, the justification why CLCZs are acceptable (particularly in the context of discussions of P-shifters) is that we acknowledge our experiences as delusion and that it is important that we tag our posts with unreality and delusion. Some people will say that those tags do not mean that the experiences are not real they just do not occur in -Reality-. For me at least I read it that the price of being tolerated is still to say my experiences are not real, my past and the things done to me and others is not real. I am tired of having to deny my own experiences as genuine for the comfort of others, I am tired of having to double bookkeep in every aspect of my life, including the places that are supposed to be safe and an outlet for me. I know what the humans think of my condition, and for that matter many therians, but I think I will stop tagging my experience with unreality and delusion, because they are not. I often think to drop the label for myself for feeling unwelcome and instead just use zoanthrope, even if that does not accurately capture myself either as it is still a word given to us by the humans for a delusion, but at least it is my community where I am welcome.

The truth is though, I do not hate the humans. I desire very much reconciliation. Still, as I am being actively hurt by the humans how -can- there be any reconciliation? I am very fortunate to have a few therians and even a couple of humans in my life I can be pretty open with about my experience. I know reconciliation is possible, but even with these close humans and therians (who for me fill the role of a human), I feel that I must obey them to be tolerated, not for their own actions, but for the scars on me from the actions of many humans.

Someday I will return to the water – I cannot survive in the wild – and likely I will go into a tank. I hope, when I do, I will be with my other cetacean friends. The humans did do me a number of kindnesses and made me clever enough that I can more or less fix my body and return to the water. I think only once there can reconciliation begin, with the main point of obedience removed and the cruellest damage the humans did to me, that of being forced to be human. I know that life as a captive cetacean would not be perfect and would carry with it many struggles and pain, and I have no doubt the humans will still hurt me some, I do not expect that others will never hurt me again – I will still often have to obey the humans, but now more as a cetacean than a human. But at least back in the water I could be myself, from the water I could look up at the humans on the edge of the tank and know that I survived and I persisted and I am free. Perhaps I may even bond with some kind trainers. In time those deep scars across me will start to fade – and with it that anger, that fear, that distrust. Though those scars will never fully heal, they will begin to look like the scars on many other captive cetaceans and we -can- reconcile at last.

Zwem ver, zwem vrij, kleine walvis, zwem voor altijd

~Kala

Yeah, for some, it's harder to accept their identity and shit, but for some alterhumans and nonhumans (including therians) it is voluntary and/or easier to accept their identity.

Let's not exclude them (not saying you were but mostly talking about in general, this post is just the best time and place to really say it).

Voluntary identities for alterhumans and nonhumans are just as valid as involuntary identities just as a reminder for everyone.

- Shay 🐾

I find the "all therians chose" antis funny.

I used to be one of you.

Trust me I wished everything but to be that way lmao.

It wasn't a process of waking up and going "therians aren't weird anymore, I pick fox!"

It was a process of heavy denial and slowly accepting my identity despite what I used to believe in.

We have an alter who is a dragon and used to just go by Dragon at first, lol.

It wanted a name that seemed dragon-like, and we looked up names that meant fire (you can put like any meaning you want or even look up something like "names relating to dragons"). Dragon is now going by Den because of two of the names we found that they liked but couldn't decide between, they both ended with "den" so that's how Den got its name.

Other than just giving the advice to look up names and shit, we don't have anything else to say.

Hope this helps at least a little bit.

- Shay (They/it) 🐾

- Den (It/they) 🐲 | Only talked about, Den doesn't really post

how do i name myself in a way that gives me dragon euphoria help

i don't resonate as much with the name luca now. i kind of like the names jasper and malachite but that might just be steven universe propaganda lmaoo. there's some others i like too that im less sure of

doing name tryouts and stuff

non dragons can answer this too. HOW do you name yourself in a way that gives you creature euphoria ??

maybe i'll decide i actually do want to be called luca. maybe i'll decide idc

Yep!

- Shay 🐾

Hello please reblog this if you’re okay with people sending you random asks to get to know you better

:3c

- Shay 🐾

Am I getting a good grade in tumblr mutual?

We are now just blocking any donation asks.

We are not gonna change our stance on this.

Sorry, but this is our blog.

- Shay 🐾

We have said it before, but guess we have to say it again.

NO DONATION ASKS

We just end up deleting them so safe the time for everyone involved.

If the same people end up sending multiple, then they will get blocked.

- Shay (They/it) 🐾

We had to get our actual proper medical insurance back recently, ofc it probably won't really be into effect until January, so we still have to wait to actually have it.

We wanna talk to our doctor about seeing if we have some other disorders/disabilities (such as OCD and POTS) before properly trying to contact a service dog training place. We have a place in mind already, hopefully we will be able to go through them.

When we end up contacting the place and they tell us the price and stuff for the training (and getting the prospect/puppy) then we will likely make a go fund me and will make a post about it. But until we know more, we can't really make a go fund me cause we don't know how much we will likely need.

Anyways, we just wanted to make this post to basically share a bit about what's happening in our life rn, so yeah.

- Shay (They/it) 🐾

Sorry that it was exactly clear what we meant.

We meant for posts that are specifically nsfw/sexual/etc, not really the post we rebloged.

Really sorry it wasn't very clear. We have a hard time explaining what we mean and tone and shit due to so of our disabilities.

Also, we can across the post from another reblog, so we didn't even see your tags, so it definitely wasn't supposed to be "calling you out" or anything. It was just supposed to be a reminder and shit of how important tags are.

- Shay 🐾

Exploring your therian side through kink is valid.

I am so absolutely sick of seeing extremely sex negative discourse within the therian community.

Just gonna say this all outloud for my own sanity:

It's okay to be a therian who is into primal play.

It's okay to be a therian who is in to pet play.

Packers and dildos based on non-human genitalia is affirming gear.

Anal plug tails are affirming gear.

Pup hoods are affirming gear.

Collars, leashes, harnesses, and other restraints are affirming gear.

I don't care how sex adverse an individual is. Your preferences do not get to supercede the completely harmless things that others can do.

Totally agree

But also tagging is very important.

Please, please, please tag your posts if they are nsfw/sexual/etc (and for other things, but this is specifically for this).

Tagging/tags are very important, so please add the appropriate tags to your posts.

- Shay 🐾

Exploring your therian side through kink is valid.

I am so absolutely sick of seeing extremely sex negative discourse within the therian community.

Just gonna say this all outloud for my own sanity:

It's okay to be a therian who is into primal play.

It's okay to be a therian who is in to pet play.

Packers and dildos based on non-human genitalia is affirming gear.

Anal plug tails are affirming gear.

Pup hoods are affirming gear.

Collars, leashes, harnesses, and other restraints are affirming gear.

I don't care how sex adverse an individual is. Your preferences do not get to supercede the completely harmless things that others can do.

Don't think so???

We haven't experimented much with our plurality, mostly due to other circumstances in our life.

-Shay 🐾

What’s it like when an alter has planned something in the back? Do you just get a fully formed plan popping into your head, or do they talk you through it? Do you just switch?

Hello!!!

Considering I am, as far as we can tell so far, always fronting in some way (sometimes I am just technically "lower" fronting but still fronting). The switch part isn't really true.

It's probably a mixture of the other 2 things, though. Also, sometimes they join front or take over the "main"/primary fronting, and I go into "lower" fronting, but that's not as common.

Usually, when the others join me in front, it's as a secondary (tertiary, etc) fronter rather than the primary fronter.

Hope this answered your question!

- Shay 🐾

What is meant by "lower" fronting is not the main/primary fronter. Basically, more of a "backseat driver" type of fronting in a way. We just didn't know what to really call it at first.

No real clue on the planning things in the back often.

Maybe? We aren't entirely sure how exactly memory and stuff works with our plurality.

- Shay 🐾

What’s it like when an alter has planned something in the back? Do you just get a fully formed plan popping into your head, or do they talk you through it? Do you just switch?

Hello!!!

Considering I am, as far as we can tell so far, always fronting in some way (sometimes I am just technically "lower" fronting but still fronting). The switch part isn't really true.

It's probably a mixture of the other 2 things, though. Also, sometimes they join front or take over the "main"/primary fronting, and I go into "lower" fronting, but that's not as common.

Usually, when the others join me in front, it's as a secondary (tertiary, etc) fronter rather than the primary fronter.

Hope this answered your question!

- Shay 🐾

What’s it like when an alter has planned something in the back? Do you just get a fully formed plan popping into your head, or do they talk you through it? Do you just switch?

Hello!!!

Considering I am, as far as we can tell so far, always fronting in some way (sometimes I am just technically "lower" fronting but still fronting). The switch part isn't really true.

It's probably a mixture of the other 2 things, though. Also, sometimes they join front or take over the "main"/primary fronting, and I go into "lower" fronting, but that's not as common.

Usually, when the others join me in front, it's as a secondary (tertiary, etc) fronter rather than the primary fronter.

Hope this answered your question!

- Shay 🐾

Hihi!! Love the blogs new look, and congrats on the plural awakening ^^ for a question- what do you like/dislike about canon? Also, what were some major differences between canon and your universe?

I'm guessing this is to do with MHA/BNHA.

Also, thanks!

So, about the question. One major difference is that UA was a college, not a high school. Another major difference would be that there was no actual war.

About the liking/disliking for canon. I guess the main thing I dislike is how many of the people I care about got extremely hurt or even died in canon and just the fact that it's so different from my universe. As for liking, well I do quite like to see some of the friendships with Class 1A (although I wish there was more).

Also, I haven't watched the anime or read the manga fully, so there could be things missing from any of the parts of the question(s).

- Zuki 🪶 | MHA/BNHA kin of Shay 🐾

helloooo

could yall share a bit about your misceverse identity? does it influence insystem stuff?

also also for basic questions if its okay - what are yalls favorite sodas? :>

Hello!!!

First, for the basic question. We don't like sodas. But we do like lemonades, Hi-C drinks, and some other types of fountain drinks.

About my misce identity.

I am tridynamic with Alpha, Beta, and Omega with Beta as the highest dynamic. You can also see a bit more about my misce identity by using the tag "tri beta noises sfw" (or if we had any, you could also use the tag "tri beta noises nsfw" but we don't have any under that tag currently).

It kinda depends on what you mean by the insystem question.

- Cyan 🩵 | RWBY kin of Shay 🐾

🤚i wanna know about your misce identity! how is it like to be tridynamic? do you have scents? what are some instincts you have? how do you personally view each dynamic? (specially interested on betas because its the one dynamic people have very different "headcannons" for) :3< /nf

Hello!!!!

It's interesting to be tridynamic, lol. I have some instincts and stuff from all three of my dynamics but mostly Beta.

I do have scent(s), my scent(s) are woods/forest, fur (don't know how exactly to explain this part except for that, lol), and kind of chocolatey.

Some instincts (hopefully these all count as instincts, lol) are nesting/dening (is that how it's spelled?), the urge to take care of others, the urge to be cared for, and others. My behaviors and stuff are mainly based on canines, some felines, and crow-like behaviors, lol.

Each dynamic is very different for each person really. But for me specifically, I will explain a bit of how it affects me. I'm not gonna go into any nsfw topics, so ruts and heats are not gonna be mentioned except for this.

The Omega part of me is very much more towards being cared for and very "typical"/"traditional" Omega things (cooking, cleaning, taking care of pups/kids, etc).

The Alpha part of me is very much more towards taking care of others and very "typical"/"traditional" Alpha things (protective, little bit more aggressive, etc).

The Beta part of me is kinda a mixture between Alpha and Omega, but also, it's kinda hard to explain exactly. Very much a mixture of the urge to care for others and the urge to be cared for.

If anyone wants to share their own misce identity, feel free to comment or reblog to share it!!

- Cyan 🩵 | RWBY kin of Shay 🐾

Can people send us asks?

Anything but donation asks and hate asks are "allowed."

Ask us about our plurality, our nonhumanity/alterhumanity, our misceverse identity, lgbtq+ identities, anything really (except for the previously mentioned stuff).

Please, we wanna talk about stuff with people so badly, but we need the motivation and others to want to hear/read about it. (Hope this makes sense).

- Shay (They/it) 🐾

It's been a while since a poem was posted. Just made this poem, so it's likely bad, lol.

- Shay (They/it) 🐾

Tw/cw: animal abuse (not mentioned by name), biting, scratching, growling, and hissing. [Not sure if all of these need warnings, but they are there, so yeah].

Caged and Chained Animal

We are caged like

Dangerous wild animals.

We are chained up like

Aggressive tamed animals.

Not wild and not tamed.

We bite at the cage

And the chains

Hoping it would help

Us get free from them.

Not wild and not tamed.

We growl as people get close

To our cage and our chains.

We hiss as they get closer

To our cage and our chains.

Not wild and not tamed.

We are caged and chained up

To protect others from us.

However, it doesn't protect

Us from ourselves.

Not wild and not tamed.

We aren't safe from ourselves.

We bite and scratch ourselves.

To feel something other than

The fear and anger that comes from being

Not wild and not tamed.

Made some nonhuman related flag(s).

We don't have a name for them as a term or anything. If anyone can think of a good name for it, then feel free to reblog with said name/term.

We do have a definition for what we want the flag(s) to mean.

The definition is: Beings that are nonhuman/not human fully, even when the body they are in is human. (This can be described in different ways).

We tried to kind of make it based a bit off of nature (greens and browns mainly).

- Shay (They/it) 🐾

Edit: These are free to use! Credit is appreciated but not required! Also, feel free to make alternative versions of these flags!

Likely gonna try and use some of these.

As long as they are free to use, if they aren't tell us and we won't use them.

- Shay (They/it) 🐾

Hi flag makers

Hi-res flag templates for 3-12 stripes

enjoy!

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