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We wanna talk about something real quick.

Tw/cw? (Not really warnings[?], but we don't know what to call them): Meat, "diets" [in terms of like what you eat], and vegan and vegetarian.

We aren't morally wrong or bad for not being able to go vegan or vegetarian (no one specifically said this kind of thing but a lot of vegans/vegetarian posts tend to have this vibe to it for us).

We aren't able to be vegan or vegetarian for multiple reasons. Firstly, overall, we are just carnivorous/omnivorous. Secondly, we also have sensory issues to do with food due to some of our disabilities (AuDHD). Thirdly, we just can't give up meat at all, like we just can't.

We are not evil or bad for this. We love animals so much, but because of reasons going vegan or vegetarian is not an option. If anyone doesn't like this, go ahead and block us. If anyone sends any hate to us over this, we will block them.

- Shay (They/it) 🐾

New account/blog link: https://www.tumblr.com/shay-pluralcreatures?source=share

- Shay (They/it)

Gonna be making a new account/blog.

Gonna put a link on here to it and gonna put a link on it to here.

We will still be using this account sometimes, we just wanna have another one as well.

- Shay (They/it)

Gonna be making a new account/blog.

Gonna put a link on here to it and gonna put a link on it to here.

We will still be using this account sometimes, we just wanna have another one as well.

- Shay (They/it)

New intro post, you can see our old intro posts by looking for "intro post" as a tag on our blog.

Hello, this is our blog for alterhuman/nonhuman and plural things mainly. This was originally made for my fictionkin/ockin; Zuki Shay Hara-Lupo. Who is a noncanon MHA/BNHA being/creature.

Here's a bit more info on my canon for Zuki Shay Hara-Lupo. It was divergent from the manga and anime. If you want to know more about my canon, send in an ask, or you can see some things on my original intro posts. The only thing I will mention here is that UA was a college instead of a high school, so my class and I were all 18 at the start of the first year at UA.

In this life, the body is currently 19, so keep that in mind. We don't mind minors interacting. Just know we (the host subpack) are more hesitant to interact with minors ourselves.

We try and make sure our posts are all tagged well, especially for tw or cw, if you see a post of ours that doesn't have a tw or cw that needs to be tagged tagged, then let us know and we'll fix it.

We will not answer/post any donation asks if you want to know why you should be able to find the posts we made about it by using the tag "no donation asks."

We will block for any reason. Especially when it comes to hate.

This is an endo safe space. We will not judge systems/plural beings for their origins. If you don't like this, leave.

We are also disabled, both in this life and in my (the host) life as Zuki, so that will also be on our blog. [In this life for all the ones after this]. We are autistic and ADHD for sure. We have a learning disability and depression as well diagnosed. We believe we might have OCD and PTSD but are not sure yet. We know we have some form of anxiety, but it's not diagnosed. We all (packmates) experience these disabilities so yeah.

Because of our disabilities, we need a service dog in this life. [I also had one as Zuki]. We will likely post more about the service dog when we finally get our stuff together and do more about it.

- Shay (They/it/xe/ze/hx/he) | Host of The Wildlife Pack, typically just referred to as the Wild Pack

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Edit Dec 1st 2024: Added some new tag things and moved some around.

Edit Dec 3 2024: Changed some tag things around.

Edit Dec 22 2024: Changed alter to packmate.

Edit Jan 25 2025: Added new kin

Edit Mar 23 2025: Changed some things

Edit Mar 30 2025: Added new tag

Edit Apr 4 2025: Changed some tags (we aren't going back through old posts to change them, so we'll put what the tags used to be)

Edit Apr 5 2025: Changed a few things around, probably gonna make the changes bold. Changed Shay, Zuki, & Akay tags for "fronting"/posting (not gonna change old posts so we will put the old versions)

Edit Apr 2025: Changed some fronting/posting tags, will have the old versions

Tags that are for specific things;

# howling barking and meowing - talking about stuff tag

# disabled pup - disability things

# the wildpack posting - plural [pack/packmate is used for our plurality] things (this replaced the "multi noises" tag)

# tri beta noises sfw - sfw misceverse stuff

# tri beta noises nsfw - nsfw misceverse stuff

# howling and barking at the moon - poems/poetry

# howling into the past - past life/kin memories good

# barking into the past - past life/kin memories bad

# meowing in confusion - this is just for when we are confused about something

# confused howling - questioning system/plural stuff, including origin and alters

# little pup - sfw age regression things when pup is used to refer to me/us

# little kitten - sfw age regression things when kitten/kit is used to refer to me/us

# woof woof reblog - rebloging alterhuman/nonhuman stuff or adding alterhuman/nonhuman stuff in our reblog

# the wildpack reblog - system/plural reblogs (this used to be "multi reblog")

# other reblog - rebloging without alterhuman/nonhuman stuff or plural stuff

# bark bark ask - answering asks to do with alterhuman/nonhuman stuff

# the wildpack ask - answering asks to do with plural stuff (this used to be "multi ask")

# tri beta ask sfw - answering asks to do with sfw misceverse

# tri beta ask nsfw - answering asks to do with nsfw misceverse

# meow ask - answering asks without alterhuman/nonhuman stuff or plural stuff

# 🐾🪶🩵🖌 - Shay | host (used to be "💚🩵🐾🪶")

# 🪶🐾🦴🪽 - Zuki Shay Lupo | MHA/BNHA kin (used to be "🐾🪶🦴🪽")

# 🩵🦴🐾🪽 - Cyan Lupo | RWBY kin

#🖌🐾🪶🖊 - Akay Lupo | DDLC kin (used to be "🖌💌🪶🖊")

# 🌊🔷️🌟🎨 - Lakey | packmate

# 😺🤎🍓🥓 - Declan (The cat face changes based on mood of post) | packmate

# 🐈🐈‍⬛🍗🥛 - Lynix | packmate

# 🦮💚🐕‍🦺🟢 - Shirley | packmate (used to be "🗣💚🦮🥦")

# 🐲🐉🔥💛 - Den | packmate | was originally known as Dragon

# ❓️⁉️❔️🤔 - Mystery | packmate

# 🐺🦾🦿🤖 - Oynx Afton (the middle two are supposed to just represent animatronic shit) | packmate

# 🟤🐺🐾🌕 - Phalen Lupe (supposed to represent werecanine/werewolf) | packmate

# 🐺🌠😇😈 - Vesper Lucian (supposed to represent fallen angel) | packmate

# 🌙🔥🐲📛 - Moonfire | packmate

This is kinda a mood.

Except we aren't human at all. Well, this body is, but still, we aren't.

- Shay (They/it)

It's really strange being a therian raised in a religion that claimed that humans are higher beings than animals. "Humans have souls and intellectual minds and animals run only on instincts" like okay but what about me. I'm like. Both. It was one of the first things I really questioned about that religion.

We found a different origin term that fits from the same site.

So this and unknown will be the ones we will likely use the most.

- Shay (They/it)

https://multiplicity.fandom.com/wiki/Category:System_origins

Looked at this to learn about plural origins.

These feel like the best terms for our origin right now.

So we will be using these terms, probably mostly unknown.

- Shay (They/it) | Host & someone else no idea who rn (they/it)

NICE!!!! HELLO CYPHER!!!

It's nice to meet you!!!

- Shay (They/it/xe/ze)

- Shirley (They/ix)

- Lakey (They/it/blu)

Today is my birthday!!! I've existed for a full year now!! I'm going to try to hold onto front for the whole day. I also finally made myself a separate blog! @lunar-drake

-Cypher

Don't know what to add, lol. :3c

- Shay (They/it)

To all the alterhumans / nonhumans who dont know what to do: now is the time for you to start putting your money where your mouth is.

If youre an animal, it's time for you to be a goddamn animal. Be feral, Be aggressive, fight for your life.

If you're a dragon, then be a terror to Kings, and start burning down the halls of power like the dragons of yore.

If you're a mythical creature, have no concern for the social constructs of man. Stand proudly outside what people even believe is possible.

If you're plural, know you're never alone. Fight against individualism that seeks to divide each body into deterministic boxes.

If you're a fictional character who saved the world, believe that you can save any world. Don't back down now.

Now is the time to really believe that you are what you say you are. People in power are going to try to take that away from you. Don't fall for it.

It's time shed any preconceptions you have about what you're capable of. If you're an animal it's time to fight like one. A dragon that uses gasoline and matches is still a dragon.

All bets are off. If they want to treat us like dogs in a cage then im gonna start ripping fascists' throats out like one. And I'd better see y'all there with me, on G-d.

Next poem to post. Kinda rushed through. Have we being used.

Tw/cw: Chained up animal, caged animal, growling mention, biting mention, clawing mention, hissing mention.

- Shay (They/it)

Not Wild and Not Tamed

Chained up and caged.

Not human is what we are.

Not wild and not tamed.

We growl and bite.

We hiss and claw.

Not wild and not tamed.

We aren't a pet.

We aren't free.

Not wild and not tamed.

Chained up to a fence.

Caged in like a threat.

Not wild and not tamed.

Queer in multiple ways!!

- Shay (They/it)

I'm trying to prove to my friend that being LGBTQ+ isn't smth rare and there's a lot of us but some of us are still closeted

INTERACT IF UR LGBTQ+

LET'S SHOW OTHERS THAT THEY AREN'T ALONE

Allies interact too!

Gonna just explain more.

Our back is more sensitive, especially to pain, and I (the host) almost always have my phantom wings. Sometimes, it's more prominent than others.

- Shay (They/it) | The host

a poll for the wing-havers

for me, my back has always felt much more sensitive than the rest of my body, to the point of feeling uncomfortable being touched there. sometimes when people touch my back i jump as a reflex, but not if they touch the rest of my body. i wanted to know if this is a common experience in wingedkin, so please answer the poll to satiate my neverending hunger for knowledge :}

The college Maker Space place opened up again [it was closed cause the guy running it got married or something]. We made 2 new buttons/pins!!!!

Love these new pins/buttons!!! If you can't tell what they say, we put alt text on them.

- Shay (They/it) :3c

https://multiplicity.fandom.com/wiki/Category:System_origins

Looked at this to learn about plural origins.

These feel like the best terms for our origin right now.

So we will be using these terms, probably mostly unknown.

- Shay (They/it) | Host & someone else no idea who rn (they/it)

Changed profile picture to what used to be the banner thing.

Changed banner thing to the novigender flag mixed with the genderqueer flag (cause both are what I use for my gender [I/my used to refer to Shay, the host]).

- Shay (They/it)

Absolutely!!!

We actually growl a lot, not always on purpose, it's just instinct!

- Shay (They/it)

Wish growling/hissing was a more socially acceptable form of communication. Like, it's so effective: you hear a growl, you back off cuz you know you'll get bit otherwise.

Tw/cw: dissociating, suicide mention, distressing stuff(?), election and politics.

Ok, for a bit, we are gonna have to just fully avoid any posts to do with the election and politics, so any of my mutuals, please tag any posts you make about these with the tags for them, please. So we can properly avoid them.

Need to take a break from it cause it is causing too much distress and shit.

I (the host) can feel myself dissociating [not necessarily to do with system/plural shit] and just we need to stop looking at it for now.

Also, please, any of my mutuals, tag if you mention suicide or killing yourself (either kms or kys versions), please. Cause we can't always deal with that, so we need to be able to avoid those posts when needed.

Basically, just please tag your posts properly, especially for trigger or content warnings, please.

The best thing would probably to be getting off of the internet/social media fully for a bit, but we can't really do that fully. Won't explain anymore than that.

Shay (They/it) & Declan? (They/them + ve/vem/ver/vers/vemself and thi/thim/thims/thims/thimself)

Mood.

We already had them filtered, so we could avoid the posts if needed and we are still having some issues.

Hope this reblog is ok since it's not actually talking about it?

Stay safe as well. <3 (heart is platonic)

- Shay (They/it) | :3c

i've done my best to reblog helpful things, to use this blog to help with the fear and pain and grief. It has helped, a bit. but from now on i'm blocking election and politics tags. please don't bring it up with me, or tag me in it, or whatever. i need this to be an escape for me. stay safe, all of you, especially if you're a minority. i love you.

New userbox I (the host) made.

The picture was a picture I found of a crow that is brown (it's me!!!).

- Shay (They/it) | the host, we don't have a "name" or anything for our system overall yet.

Edit: Forgot to mention that any userbox that is posted as being made from us is free to use, and no credit is required, but it is appreciated.

Absolutely, it's a good feeling to know that you have everything you need close by!!

- Shay (They/it)

My family always gets annoyed I keep a bad with me (either in the car or on my person) but I need it

It has my money, my id/my learners permit, noise cancelling headphones, blue tooth headphones and ear buds, period pads, small snacks in case I didn't eat and/or I feel fainty, A book for in case I need something to focus on/fill time, a couple bracelets and a plushie to fidget with and help if I have a melt down, as well as my tablet for my music for car rides and to distract from the other over stimulating noises and my house keys, and a small notebook and a pen/pencil in case I need to write something down so I remember it or doodle

All in just a medium sized backpack

I don't always bring it in with me depending on the circumstances, but I like knowing everything I need I have at least somewhat close

All of this is a mood, including the tags, lol.

Our "many" disabilities disable us? Who would have guessed? Lol (this is mostly a dig at ourselves).

- Shay (They/it)

I often have to stop myself whenever I catch myself going “it’s just that easy” or “why can’t I be like this all the time?” after doing the most mundane shit without second thought.

It’s not that easy, I’m just having a really good day so far.

I can’t be like that all the time, I have a disability.

And that’s ok.

Just went to a store and found this little enderman plush!!

How does our enderman mutual feel about this plush? @talon-dragonbeast (hope you don't mind the tag).

- Shay (They/it) & someone else don't know who the fuck (it/it/its/its/itself + ix/ix/ixs/ixs/ixself)

As a plural [questioning origin] who is new to the plural and system community in general, I wanna point out that from what we've seen being a system/plural is not really the whole thing with DID and other dissociative disorder like that, it's the trauma and being a system is more of an "add-on" (sorry for phrasing it like that).

So people saying they are PLURAL or a SYSTEM or whatever other word they prefer to use without trauma is not misdiagnosing themselves cause they aren't claiming to have DID or OSDD or other trauma based dissociative disorders without trauma. They are just saying that they have a similar thing to people with those disorders (I hope we are explaining this correctly).

So why are anti endos so obsessed with trying to call them fake or saying that they are doing that? If you just listen to them, you would learn more, and isn't that better? Don't traumagenic systems/plurals want to be listened to instead of being thought of badly from misinformation and bad representation and shit? So why aren't they doing that for endos?

I wouldn't usually jump into "discourse" or anything, but we felt like this needed to be said and understood. If you don't like this post, leave my account, go ahead, and block me. It will save everyone a ton of time.

- Lakey (They/it + blu/blue/blues/blues/blueself) & Shay (They/it) | almost always here as the host, lol

I think a big part of the reason that I went from anti-endo to endo-safe was absolutely due to how starkly different the communities felt.

Anti-endo communities were hard to engage with. Sure, some of them would focus on their support for each other more than their hatred of endogenic systems. And that's great! However, when you are brought together by your dislike of a certain group, you can't help but feel the hate permiate into so much of it. It always happened eventually. Anti-endo communities had such a focus on systems who were "fake" that I couldn't help but worry I was one of them, no matter how much they told me it was "just endos" they were concerned about.

The endo community (at least the parts I've engaged with and were easy to find) were so kind and respected me as a system, no matter how I felt or my plurality presented. Simply knowing we could find joy in our plurality allowed us to strive for so much more than we had thought possible before.

As a traumagenic system, we've improved so much with our symptoms and communication as a result of the positivity and acceptance we recieved. When we joined communities where we could be authenticallly ourselves (no matter what), we came together and faced so much less conflict between each other. And the conficts we did have, we realized that we could solve them together rather than alone.

When you are constantly doubting if you are "actually a system", you start to push the others away, and that made our dissociation and amnesia so much worse. I understand being careful of self-misdiangnosis, it can put you on the wrong path for how you learn to manage your symptoms. At the same time, the sentiment I often heard from endogenic systems when I was struggling with doubt and denial was very simple: "So what if you're not a system?" In short, it was okay to be wrong.

And that was huge for me. I realized that, no matter if I was a system or not, the techniques I used to improve ourselves and communicate with one another beneficial to me. At the end of the day, even if I wasn't a system after all, the skills I had found we invaluble to my health and well-being. So when I fall into denial spirals, no matter what I think about myself, I now know that I don't need to deprive myself of what has helped me, even if it is a "system thing." I don't feel scared to use these skills anymore (even in denial spirals), beacuse the line between what systems and non-systems or singlets can/can't do suddenly wasn't a big deal or a battle of "who can do what."

Our plurality is no longer a burden or a scar to us. It is simply who we are. We've learned so much about each other and ourselves since we've been accepted in full, and since we've learned to accept others. Endogenic communities have helped us (a traumagenic system) probably more than they'll ever know, and we're forever grateful for that.

So thank you, endogenic systems.

Not tagged, but we wanted to do this.

There are quite a few songs stuck in our head rn, lol.

This is the main one, though, lol. Watched some of the Agatha All Along episodes a few days ago, and this song has been stuck in our head since.

- Lakey (They/it + blu/blue/blues/blues/blueself) | I think this is the first post with Lakey, lol.

[Wanna mention that I (Shay/Zuki) am almost always 'fronting' and shit, so I'm still here as well as Lakey.] | {"typical" pronouns for me (Shay/Zuki) which are they/it}

ATTENTION

If you see this you are OBLIGATED to reblog w/ the song currently stuck in your head :)

Poem number whatever, lol.

Older poem, wrote this a while ago.

Tw: Death, and none others that I can think of.

The Three Phrases

Life is unfair

Time flies

You love and you lose

That's the three phrases

You need to learn

To understand

Life isn't fair

Good people have bad things happen

Bad people have good things happen

Time flies

It feels slow at times

But it flies really fast

You love and you lose

You never know when someone

You love will die

Life is unfair

Time flies

You love and you lose

I decided to try and make some userboxes myself for us.

Don't know how well they actually turned out, but we love them!!!

If you want to use these userboxes, feel free to use them! Credit is not needed but is very much appreciated!

- Lynix (They/them + feline/cat/felines/cats/felineself) & Phalen (They/it + wolf/dog/wolfs/dogs/wolfdogself) | idk if both are alters or if one is a kin currently

I'm gonna start calling ourself a system/plural, I don't know the exact origin yet, cause I don't know if I had "enough" trauma at the "right" time for it to be DID or OSDD or any other dissociative disorder. But it feels like we are a system/plural.

We will only really be doing this here, I am unsure if I am gonna tell anyone I know in real life for now. I might wait till I figure out our origin, and even then, it would only be a few people that I would tell.

This feels like the right words and terms for what we feel. I will just be using system and plural for us as terms until I figure out more, of course.

- Shirley (They/them + ix/ix/ixs/ixs/ixself) | feels like the right name rn

[Using both I/me and we/our]

For my next tattoo, I want to get wings on my back, lol.

My only tattoo I have currently is a paw print semicolon on my shoulder. If you know what the semicolon means, then you get it.

I would also love to get more nonhuman related tattoos as well, lol!

- Shay (They/it)

We don't talk about nearly enough about the possibilities on tattoos for alterhuman folks. I'm not just talking about someone tattooing the theta delta in your arm.

I'm talking about tattoos of paw beans in your hands, or an animals facial features in your face, whiskers in your cheeks. Like, even bits of fur outlines on your body and chest would. What would I'd like to have is two cuts printed in my back as if a pair of wings should emerge from it (probably couldn't, or shouldn't because I have like three giant scars that cross over my shoulders). Or, or, even the image of wings in your back, giant black wings.

Nonhumans with horns could tattoo themselves antlers in their forehead, mermaid or marine otherkins could have tattoos of gills in their neck. It would be so nice actually

Time for more bad memories from my life as Zuki. I have debated about posting this a few times but I think I need to, to get it off my chest or whatever you wanna say.

Tw/cw: (failed) suicide attempt, suicidal thoughts, self harm, death of a family member, grief, and abuse. Let me know if I missed any tw/cw.

There were times right after I turned 14 years old as Zuki (my aunt, who I looked up to so much, died on my 14th birthday so yeah) that I ended up going to the top of my middle school building [I couldn't fly at the time] and was debating jumping from it, I never did.

But a few days after my 14th birthday, all the grief and anger and shit I felt from my aunt's death (she was a hero, and she died fighting some villains) had gotten to be too much for me to deal with and I went to a part of the middle school that pretty much no one went to and pretty much everyone wouldn't have cared about me anyways.

Anyway, I went to the secluded place of the school and I had a knife in my backpack, I always carried it with me, not only because of self-harm tendencies but also because it was a gift from my aunt who died. I thought I was alone, cause who in their right mind would be in this part of that school? (Neither of us there were in our right mind, so I guess that answers that, lol).

Anyway, I took the knife and cut pretty deep on my arms and legs. I had put down something, I think it was my jacket, to try and make less of a mess with the blood cause I didn't wanna cause too much more trouble, lol. But someone who I didn't really know well (I kinda wish it stayed that way, but whatever) came and helped me to the nurse's room. If that nurse could have let me just die, she would've, but she didn't wanna get in trouble with my older sibling, lol.

Anyways, that nurse just did the bare minium, so I wouldn't die. I talked a bit with the girl who saved me. She seemed nice (seemed is the key word there). After the school day ended, it was like only an hour or so cause I did this during my free period, which was my last 'class' of the day. After the bell rang, I walked to a little medical building that [mainly] was for those with no quirks, hated quirks, etc. So because of this, it didn't have a mandatory reporting thing, which was good for me, cause I didn't want anyone else to know that I tried to kill myself and failed. But yeah, the lady who helped me then was very nice and I would continue to go there when I needed medical stuff.

The girl who saved me, about a week or so later, came up to me and said she liked me romantically. While I am (was?) cupioromantic, I didn't know that at the time, so I thought I liked her romantically as well, so I told her that and we started dating.

It was great at first, but after about 2 weeks or so of dating, she started to hurt me, while I did technically know this wasn't good, I had believed it had to be different here and that she was still good and everything (she wasn't, the abusive asshole).

Eventually, when I was like 15 and ½ years old or something like that, I realized I didn't feel romantic attraction at all and told my 'girlfriend' and broke up with her. It didn't go well.

She ended up stabbing me a few times, shit happened. Afterwards, I went to that same medical building I mentioned before and they helped me not die.

Eventually, I realized that my ex was probably only with me cause she wanted someone easy to hurt and shit. Idk just probably wasn't love from her end.

- Zuki Shay Lupo (They/it) | I could go more into detail about probably all of this but I'm not gonna right now

Trick-or-treat ^v^

Hello!!!! Happy Halloween!!!!

Once again, using the alterhuman trick or treat thing here!

- Shay (They/it)

Meat (specifically steak) under the read more thing

Trick or treat!!!

Hello!!! Happy Halloween!!!

I don't know if this is supposed to be a normal trick or treating ask or an alterhuman trick or treating ask, so I'm just gonna go with the alterhuman one, lol.

Have a picture of some cat treats because of me being a cat!!

- Shay (They/it) :3c