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Memes I made for my art shop ♡♡♡♡

hi dunmeshi fando *gets booed off stage*

(doodles)

When you reached out your hand in friendship I was ecstatic. I couldn’t wait to play with you and give you my all. But you didn’t want it. I don’t know why but when I reached back you shied away. “Ah don’t worry about,” you dismissed with a wave of your hand. So I backed off, figuring you just did things in your own unique way.

We never really talked after that.

When I moved schools and you declared me your best friend, the smile on my face I had the rest of the day. I shared all of my love with you, all the things that were important to me and listened to your own rambles. But then you said “you’re a little funny, you know?” I didn’t think much of it, I knew I was a little different. 

“I’m gonna hang out with someone else today,” you repeated day in and out. 

I found some other groups to play with.

Another year meant another school. I talked to so many people, hoped that I could find a place among their love. But I never stuck around too long, never felt welcomed. Hands don’t really reach out anymore. 

Then I met you guys, purely by accident really. 

And it was magical, we would talk for hours and I could be myself. You guys stood there like trees, your roots keeping strong and soaking up the flood of those feelings I felt towards you.

And then the sickness came. We all hid away in our rooms, and still talked many a times. We ignored all of the problems we were facing at home.

Then I had to leave again, and now I only speak with one of you. And for that I will love you forever.

Months seemed to pass in a blur-there seemed to be no love then-and I found myself back at another school, the sixth and fortunately the last. I met one of the most important people there, we bonded over some stickers on her computer and never looked back. You loved me with so much it almost felt like looking in a mirror, I felt like someone matched everything I gave to them. It is a calmer, quieter love, but intense none the less. You, for the first time in my life, made me feel like you cared. Made me feel like someone really wanted all of my love. That I wasn’t just a weird hurricane of emotions with no control over myself. Sure your friends still have me that look, but I didn’t care. Someone wanted my love and that is all I need. 

The other one I met during this time was truely a battle of wits and banter. But despite the aggravation at our clashing differences, a beautiful friendship blossomed from it. It is deep and honest, and it seemed to touch a part of my heart I didn’t know I had. You are a rock in my life and I don’t doubt that it will fade over time (I desperately hope it does not, for I don’t think I could handle another heartbreak)

I’m starting anew next year, this time of my own choice. But that’s just it. I’m starting all over again, with the only remnants of these important people in my life through messages and the odd phone call. While I know I will see you again I won’t be able to hug you for many months, I don’t know if I can survive that. I don’t know if I can survive having to speak to so many strangers again where everyone is so serious and will see my love as childish or with the wrong implications. The polite declines to do something together when I reach out. The distaste for any form of physical comfort. The need to focus on succeeding that I have no one to receive my love.

Sometimes I wonder why I can’t seem to make friends no matter how hard I try. I’m doing everything I was told to do, I followed the rules. I respected peoples space, I listened when the needed it. I reached out. I spoke with everyone about the things they enjoy. But I’m shouting into a void. You all still flinch when I laugh a little too loudly, you share awkward glances when I speak for a little too long. You tell me to quiet down when I get passionate about an important topic. You never want hugs, surely not everyone is that disturbed by touch, right? I see you laugh amongst yourselves. I see the hand holding and kind words exchanged. 

Why doesn’t anyone seem to want my love? Am I that malfunctioned that I can’t seem feel anything correctly? What am I doing wrong that no one wants to be around me?

Why can’t the pain of everything I’m holding within myself go away. 

Why can’t I just be normal?

Bart has DID theory

Aha this is a long one... Adding onto my post a little bit ago cause I was on the train and didn't have enough rant energy-

Bart has eidetic memory, or Hyperthymesia, or photographic memory, whatever works for you. He remembers everything he's ever read, seen, or heard, but in some of the comic strips, it's him being confused about a certain series or event that happened, like he didn't recall it almost, which is almost impossible due to his advanced memory. One of the most common symptoms of Dissociative Identity Disorder is memory gaps when in a different personality. You have no idea how excited I am about this cause I have DID and positive representation, yes please. When I find the comic strips I'm talking about I'll repost and add them in but I'm on a rampage rn. Not even sorry.

Bart is known to have mood swings throughout the entire Impulse series, where he gets grumpy or pouty, things like that, but that childish nature could actually be a personality. He could feel robbed of his childhood since he couldn't "live it" due to his situation growing up, so he creates an entire persona to live like a child in his teenage body. Everyone always brushes it off to him being "a speedster", and the fact that he is ALSO supposed to represent a character with Autism and his ADHD plus ADD, it all kinda adds up, because he switches into this person sometimes that's sarcastic and has a more bleak outlook. He still is always there for his friends, even if they underappreciate the HECK out of him, but it wouldn't make sense in the sense that he's silly only because of his Hyper-changing Autism. AUTISM ISN'T A PERSONALITY PEOPLE. Honestly? The excuse that it's because he's a speedster doesn't add up either. Being a speedster can make him bored easily and he has a hyperglycemia diet where he has to eat full meals every two hours, but it doesn't explain why he so suddenly shifts into entirely new moods. being moody is one thing, but being Bart is a whole new can of worm on strings.

I think one of the biggest things to show this is when Jerico shot his knee using the body of Deathstroke. Before the incident, he never wanted to take up Wally's mantle because he thought it was disrespectful and he didn't deserve it, but after he was shot he took no hesitation in taking up the suit. That entire comic screwed me over because: 1, no one touches my baby Bart. 2, everyone was so rude to him like 24/7?? To BART of all people. 3, that gunshot would've done a LOT more damage then what they diagnosed him. A SHOTGUN was TWO INCHES from his knee and blast him from that space and they gave him a prosthetic kneecap? Excuse me, there'd be nothing LEFT to ATTATCH IT TO, but that's a rant for another time. What I'm getting at here is he wanted to exact his revenge on Jerico, which is typical, I would too if someone capped my knee. But he read the ENTIRE SAN FRANSICO LIBRARY IN ONE SITTING!! Bart, who HATES sitting in one place reading anything that isn't a comic read an entire LIBARAY and not some normal one, this one was MASSIVE. He learned everything about the human nervous system and used it against Slade to his advantage, before it was revealed it was actually Jerico.

SO, he took on the Kid FLash mantle, something he said he wouldn't do. He read an entire library in one sitting, something he wouldn't noramlly do. He became incredibly serious about his mission, something he normally isn't. His kid Flash persona is not him. His trauma from the experience added with his stress must've forced a new one to form, since he already Had his "Impulse" persona it was easy.

Bart Allen has DID and no one can change my mind.

your annual reminder:

don’t support autism speaks this month

don’t “light it up blue”

don’t use the puzzle piece symbol

however!

do support autistic content creators

do support “red instead” and the infinity symbol

remember to listen to the voices of marginalised autistic people!

happy autism awareness/acceptance month! go tell your local autistic pal that they’re awesome! if you’re autistic, remember to practice some self-love!

Oh no, oh no, he is seducing me with his deep passion for his field of study and his genuine joy at teaching people about it

This makes so much sense

I think we need to rework the whole “needing routine as an autistic person” thing because for the majority of allistic people, “routine” looks something like:

-wake up at 6am

-shower at 6:15am

-eat breakfast at 6:30am

-do important outings at 7am

-come home at 3pm

and so on..

And that is nothing like what I and many other autistic people experience (though it is what some experience).

Routine can be more accurately described as needing to do things in order to feel comfortable.

For example, I have no set time I wake up, I have no set time I do anything. But when I do wake up, I need to do my morning tasks in a specific order or I’ll struggle to function.

I get out of bed, turn on my lamp, switch my computer on, go to the bathroom, make my bed, get dressed, and sit down at my desk. That’s what a routine looks like to me.

If I’m cooking, I need to do things in a certain order or the food will be “wrong” (this could possibly be down to ARFID, but that is also comorbid with autism.)

There are other things like this. I guess you could call them mini routines. They aren’t a typical routine you’d see in a neurotypical or even someone who’s allistic.

For the longest time, I thought this was a symptom of autism I did not have at all but I do.

Just because a symptom doesn’t present in a neurotypical way, doesn’t mean it’s not there.

This is quite helpful

Some Signs of Overstimulation

Loss of facial expressions

Flat affect (monotone voice or loss of emotional intonation)

Loss of speech

Hyperawareness to usually well tolerated sensory input

Fatigue

Headache

Skin sensitivity

Sensory sensitivity

High irritability

Increased demand avoidance

Increased stimming

Extreme sensory avoidance

May feel nauseous or flu-like symptoms

Tips to Help a Loved One

Get away from the cause of the overstimulation

Ear muffs or noise cancelling headphones

Low or no lighting

Headache medication

Cancel plans for the day if possible

Warm shower or bath for skin sensitivity (may not help everyone)

Nap or early bed time

Offer sensory pleasing foods if desired

Reinforce routine to help soothe

Remove/postpone demands

Encourage whatever communication they feel comfortable with - don't force speech

Leave alone as long as safe to do so

Hyperfixating on someone is so weird. Idk how to describe it

guess who has two thumbs and has found out he's been masking at dr's appointments :)

this dumbass right here :))

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it's becoming very apparent that i cannot live according to someone else's schedule

for someone who doesn't give a fuck, i sure do give a lot of fucks

Whenever I see myself on camera, I kind of give myself uncanny valley. Like an alien in a human suit that's trying its best to fit in, and being like 98% successful. Actually that's the autism isn't it

Hey I got this squishy stress ball, do u wanna feel it? (Autistic flirting)

I have Asperger's syndrome myself, but I feel I could still use this just in case my “write what you know” method is more underdeveloped than I thought. Anyway, this will definitely be useful.

writing an autistic character when you are not autistic - a masterpost

completely double spaced version on google docs here – this post is more blocky for the sake of people’s dashboards, but still long so people will be less likely to glaze over it. my apologies if that makes it hard to read

things to look for and avoid in an autistic character

• symptoms only manifesting as “nonverbal and rocking” • super smart / living calculator • super dumb / doesn’t understand anything • all the symptoms you can come up with for them are “awkward” and “has special interest(s)” (please do more research) • trains, technology, and/or math as special interests • acting like a child • getting treated like a baby • unreasonably cruel and uncaring about others’ reactions to them being cruel • if they’re comparable to sheldon from the big bang theory, start over • animal comparisons • a lack of feelings • please no stories about what it’s like to be autistic told by allistics

the right way to write an autistic person

• lots of symptoms, including secondary ones not included on a general diagnosis requirement list (here’s a list i rather like that was made by an autistic person – their blog is also a good resource) • having a good amount of general knowledge and actually talking about it (i cannot believe that i have to say this) • talking about things outside of special interests (again…. come on……….) (special interests are usually the default things our brains go to when theres no stimulation or we want to entertain ourselves – it isn’t literally all we think or talk about ever. if a conversation has no connections to a special interest, reconsider having your autistic character bring it up in a context that is not an introduction.) • explicitly expressed to be capable of attraction and romantic feelings – if your character is an adult, add sexual feelings to this point • capable of general functioning, just with a disability that makes it more difficult – not a walking disability (….sigh) • a wide amount of feelings and emotional turmoil (but perhaps only being able to express it in limited ways) • we’re people • just people whose brains are wired differently

things to avoid in research for an autistic character

• autism moms / autism blogs and websites not run by autistic people • any affiliation with autism $peaks means you should walk away and never look back • a scientist trying to create explanations for what autistic people do without actually asking / not mentioning asking autistic people • anything about a cure for autism • a person that “worked with autistic kids” phrased in the same way as “worked with animals” • talking about autistic people as if they are mysteries, are like animals, or are otherwise othered weirdos instead of people

things to look for in research for an autistic character

• actual autistic people talking about their experiences and symptoms • just stick to that and you’re good but it’s hard to find sometimes ngl. just look for the above red flags

things i would personally like to see in an autistic character

• less easy to swallow sadness and more destructive anger. i would love to see a canonically autistic character who was frustrated easily by small things and had trouble communicating why • not a story about being autistic, a story that happens to have a character or characters who are autistic – it isn’t pointed out or questioned, they’re right at home with the rest of the cast and not othered (a la symmetra from overwatch) • intensive sensory issues / small sounds making large reactions • clear communications about not liking x sensory thing (for example being touched) • poor motor skills / clumsiness and not being laughed at for it • walking funny (body bent downwards, walking very fast, walking slowly, big strides, shuffling, stiffness, etc)  – no one treats it as if it’s funny or something totally strange • a big personality that has a presence so they can’t be cast aside (but feel free to have quiet characters too) – if this was along with being nonverbal they would probably leap to being one of my favorite characters ever • a fear of asking for clarification on sarcasm or jokes because of past experiences and an arc about the character becoming more comfortable asking questions

>> if any fellow autistic people want to add something, feel free <<

allistics are encouraged to rb this

This is why it's an outcast. It makes so much more sense now Not only did Pluto cause autism Pluto *is* autism (insert omori reference here)

As someone with awtsm, I approve.

In which Papyrus gets a diagnosis

Another thing pissing me off this morning is fucking allistics thinking they need to teach me "manners"

So fucking what if I said hey instead of good morning. Don't fucking lecture me over it!

I was talking to my mom and I told her that I think I might have autism and she told me that I do, and she's known about it since I was 5

And she just decided to never tell anyone, including me, about it

It apparently took three decades for her to decide that I might find this information helpful

So many things about me and my life make sense now

I really wish I had known this sooner

Stupid idea

YOU HAVE JUST BECOME A TMA AVATAR

Your personal domain is based on your username

Which entity/ies do you serve?

I'm the end

the74million.org

America’s Most Popular Autism Therapy May Not Work — and May Seriously Harm Patients’ Mental Health

Applied behavior analysis has long been considered the gold standard. Now, people who have been through it are pushing back.

"Based on data gleaned from the nearly 10 million military dependents it insures, the U.S. Department of Defense has repeatedly called the evidence supporting ABA “weak,” noting there is no research to determine whether the small number of participants who show improvement — 15% — do so because of treatment or simply because a child has matured. After a year of the therapy, the department reported to Congress in 2019, 76% of 16,000 participating autistic children saw no change, and 9% worsened."

Dino squad remake/ au ideas

What dinosaur (preferably from the cretaceaus period I think it was) do you think Liam from Dino squad would be if he somehow ended up with the same DNA mishap as the others?

I think oviraptor for narrative purposes (think modern remake with accurate dinos) as oviraptors were mistaken to be egg thieves, when they were merely minding their own business, nesting and brooding

I think it'd be cool if In an episode , the group occasionally made jokes about the egg eating, and Liam got irritated over time because the jokes were inaccurate, and they weren't listening to him about this. In the episode, he could have some character growth where he learns to communicate better because the others are willing to work with him, and he establishes boundaries. I think it'd be nice.

the mutated animal(s) of the episode (in my remake au thingy, the animals revert back to their cretateous evolutionary ancestor) would be escaped from a zoo, and they'd use liams knowledge on certain animals to help them (in my mind, he has a hyperfixation on insects in general, but a special interest in weevils. Weevils need love too.)

liam and buzz begin to get along better due to their shared interest in insects

In my mind, my version of Liam has a phobia of being alone and/ or useless to his friends. He feels like he needs to be useful, or he panics and stresses internally. He also helps bees and his back garden is a haeven for insects (unless they're invasive or otherwise harmful)

For some reason, I'm irrationally irritated at the letter p being in orange when surrounded by parentheses ()

that legendary divorce is such a bore

"lumber"

hey lumber like the lumber wood scene in aberdeen which fell apart just after kurt cobains birth causing his father nd mother to be tight around money and havbe fights nd styuff referring to "that legendary divorce"

AUTISTIC ZEDEX SUPREMACY!!!!

Specifically:

1. Ex with evil autism /hj aka, resting bitch face bc he doesn't know how to do expressions properly, no empathy/ability to put oneself in another person's shoes, has rlyyy frequent meltdowns which basically look like anger outbursts, doesn't understand hierarchy or social norms (bc he only knows evil >:D)

And thus Ex can come of as rly mean and disrespectful

2. Zed with crazy scientist autism /hj aka, masks a LOT so he started observing ppls behaviors from a rlyyy young age + has autism made him feel alienated from other ppl and a bit nonhuman/different + really intense spin in psychology = he sees all human beings as his test subjects :3333 (season 8 zed my beloved <2222)

Zed's really high masking, but despite his efforts he doesn't understand social norms fully, so he still shows the wrong reactions to things sometimes. For example, he rants a lot about his spins n doesn't realize when ppl get bored of it, he misunderstands sarcadm, he has overly exaggerated expressions, etc.

And thus Zed like a rly excited and passionate, but also incredibly weird and lowkey menacing/off putting scientist.

The big differences between them is that Zed rly loves socializing (even tho he rly struggles with it) and ex hates it. Zed is constantly ranting about his spins (mainly psychology or engineering) meanwhile ex just stares at people menacingly bc he doesn't wanna talk to them.

They also have p diff coping mechanisms:

Zed is, as mentioned, high masking and uses his spins to cope. (cause psychology lets him understand ppl better and thus mask better)

Meanwhile Ex has been alienated and misunderstood his whole life and never rly managed to mask properly. Instead he internalized the abelism he faced and leaned into the whole 'evil' persona

[context: i have autism and im projecting onto zed and ex]

Also: join the evil x discord

I just got diagnosed with (evil) autism yall

I have the egocentric type apparently

Help whys my grandpa trying to convert me to Christianity bc apparently it'ill "make my adhd go away"

I'm just trying to eat breakfast in peace 😭

Average autistic experience 😭

No bc fr the amount of times i find out ppl hate me for no reason is- wayyy too high. Like. What??? Ive barely spoken to u. Why do u despise me sm???

Dungeon Meshi is about a quirked up white boy on a quest to save his sister and perhaps indulge his special interest along the way. He's a man of pure heart who has done nothing but help anyone he's met. Then part way through the story you start seeing other pov characters and it turns out every single person who has met him outside his party has read his awkward social skills and love for grilling as a sign of something deeply evil and has vowed to kill him on sight.

Ty for the tag <2

1) my creativity!!! I love creating art so so much and it's so much fun. I love helping others come up with ideas, i love getting inspired by others or inspiring them! I love how i always have new ideas and i never run out of things to make! I love love love creating things so much and i hope i can do it for the rest of my life!

2) My love for learning new things!! I love it so so much. I'm like a sponge soaking up knowledge and although others seem a bit put off by me dropping fun facts no matter what the topic is of conversation is or ranting for hours about the most random and obscure things, i absolutely my love for learning! I love my ability to connect my knowledge and connect different topics. I love discussing them with others. I love that even though i have pretty severe memory issues, my interests seem to be the one thing i do remember! I also love how broad my interests are. (credit to my adhd/autism for making me hyperfixate on the most random shit LMFAO)

3) my hair! Idk whether this counts, since it's dyed, but i absolutely love the blue color!! And my haircut :D its so pretty! Also shoutout to my natural hair for surviving all the bleach <2 i unironically love how it's still alive bc i always forget to use conditioner wifhskej

@amethystfairy1 @livinggold @cursedtime @clowneval @queryforthesoul @appleblocks @justsofiaaaa @wimblton475 @sailorque and anyone else who wants to reblogg :D

AIGHT CHAT WE'RE GONNA GO IN A CIRCLE AND SAY 3 THINGS WE LOVE ABOUT OURSELVES MEOW

I'll go first :3

1) My hair. It's a dark brown most of the time but there are little flecks of red that shine in the sun :3

2) My eyes. Most of the time they're a brown-black color, but in the sun they turn a very nice and pretty amber ^w^

3) My thighs. I know most people hate having large thighs but I honestly love them. I can stim on them, I can use them to warm up my hands, and they make it easier to trap my partners in snuggles >:3

Have a nice day and stay safe out there <3