Carry - Blog Posts

This year's @inktober prompt list just came out! So to prep, here's more inktober 💪

Day 03: Collect

Hugs doing good

me: *I carry a huge pile of books and suddenly everything falls to the floor and my feet

my friendo: hey do you need help? Let me help you. Did it hurt much?

me: I.. i don't need help thanks.. i'm.., i'm just..., it's just -I really don't need help - thank you.. I.. ugh :C

my friendo: *hugs me tight

me: *warmth spreads inside me and i can smile again

my friendo: I take some of the books - I won't allow you to carry so much heavy!

we: *keep all books together again

my friendo: *some books are almost falling down again

me: *I catch the books and put them on top of my pile

Thanks for your hug. That did very good for me ;3

my friendo: Of course! luv u

empty hands

there is no space between our hands yet all I feel is emptiness promising touches holding me and whispering I am safe I am allowed to lose control I am allowed to let myself fall

while all I touch are empty hands, fading through my skin, not able to carry a single finger of mine so how can I expect from you to carry my world, while you already gave up on yours?

Being a Mercy main...

Ok, so a few games ago I had this really good Mercy/Ana game. It's usually pretty standard for me to play attack Mercy and defence Ana or Kiriko, and like normal I played Mercy on attack and picked Ana for defence. Then this little message pops into chat,

And I'm thinking oh boy, what kind of situation is this? I don't know about any of you lot, but I really hate being asked or told what character to play. Although the message didn't, you know, feel demanding it still rubbed the wrong way and I didn't switch until we were at the last point and needed Mercy.

Then he puts this in at the start of the third round. I don't really know what to say at this point, but it's really pissing me off that he's implying that I have to play Mercy 24/7. Plus he literally had half my healing at this point in the game, and if there was a lack in healing it was down to him. I think I had 16k at this point and he had 8k.

Also his excuse that he 'dies' a lot is so rubbish, because it's obviously his fault for being out of position and trying to dps and get kills so much. This sc is from a little later in the game, but as you can see the difference between our heals is just getting bigger. Also, here's an example of what I mean when he's out of position. Watch the Illari:

Completely out of position as Illair lol, then blames his lack of heals on his number of deaths. Like, hm, I wander why. I just couldn't be assed to type out 'stay in position then' in chat because they're obviously not gonna listen.

The rest of the game was pretty close so I stayed on Mercy for round 4 as well, and my guy has the audacity to say GG Mercy at the end of the game. Like bro,

I got 11k more heals than you, it's a bit more than GG.

Anyway, there isn't really a point to this post, just me complaining and being confused on how to feel because it felt like he was complementing my Mercy gameplay but also complaining at me all at once.

The like of a Mercy main :,)