Did System - Blog Posts
Ah man getting bitched at by Lance cuz we're so harmfully selfless but feel so toxicity Selfish.
Let us explain.
It's a recurring pattern. Anyone wants something (say a movie or show) we watch that, hint we wanna watch something new or we get in the habit of seeing reels of a show/movie and our brain goes "yes watch that" but we all still win in that stupid "No, THEY want to watch [said other show]"
Happened today with music too. Think lance took control of Peter Parker to make Stark listen to HIS playlist even though we had one or teo more STAR KID musicals his son wanted to hear...
We don't know how to get out of this stupid loop. We feel selfish when we have a bad mental day/sick day/pain day or Tony has a *horrible* narcoleptic day (trippy how that effects the body honestly. Like WTF) see cuz we could be doing so much right?
Us and BM have made a sticker chart and reach enough you can get something you want... We... Want Moriah Elizabeth stuff but... It... Feels too expensive... And yeah ik BM will see this, tell us to get it, we're going to feel like always cuz why not just tell them or something... The problem is we have a hard time telling anyone what... WE want... We're not... Well... We feel like we're not... For US you know?
It's like Lance is the only one physically upset about it...
I'm not going to lie we saw our grandma is selling dolls (she makes the clothes by hand... Like... BEAUTIFUL clothes...... Like the ones below)
Silly... We physically are the only grandkid who actually cares and ADORES them... She stops giving them for Christmas at 18.. (body is 21 now) like we physically cried when we turned 18 cuz we knew it was the last doll... We don't talk to them, or our dad, or mom, or her mom (all in all we don't REALLY talk to our family, idk why we just don't) so we feel selfish for wanting one for that reason but... We love these dolls... Have them on display when we're not moving place to place... Like... Tall big glass containers!!! Really cherish them!!! And it threw out fucking vibe off... Wanted Tony's music to try and cheer up but we went "Nah. Peter is listening to the musical" for an hour...
See what I mean by harmfully selfless??? Watch what we want when people are asleep, press home when they wake up so they can watch what they want. Think we have a Barry Allen, HR (The Flash), Lucifer and someone else but we don't watch those damn shows cuz who tf would wanna watch those??? Ngl Shawn was nervous to watch his source... (Turns out Psych is uh... More loveable than I thought... Considering I'm a dumbass -🍍)
It's... Irritating...
We feel like assholes for being fucking human... Ngl we were hoping Tony Stark would be selfish enough but turns out we were dead fucking wrong...
We've kind of lost ourselves too... You know? We're used to certain foods now we don't even remember what we like (and we're adding this here because it ties in to that ↑ -Lance) I know frozen burritos and pot pies but... Those... Aren't... Favorites here lmao.
We forgot shows we like even with damn alters OF those shows. Movies? Uh... I think Pixels? Wonka? Iron Man? Right... Uh... Idk.
And yeah we know this is related to trauma and whatnot or whatever but fuck can we just... Idk... Idfk...
Anyone else get this way or are we just pathetic?
Idk. It's funny. Tails fronts everytime we make this joke. It was his first time saying something.
-Wade
Laughing our ass off with our partner in the car because Bakugou was singing his song (actually physically listening to himself song too) and went "This voice is so me, guys if we had a bakugou he'd have the Japanese voice in headspace" .... We told BM and they laughed with us...
-Kiri
Wanting to listen to my story but it's 12:25am and there are children present...
-Fell
The kids? Tenn has heard worse.
-Crow
No... Shawn
-Fell
HEY!
-🍍
Having silly people in your head yet being lonely sucks. It's literally
Pilot [our Front]: Dude I'm lonely
Co-Pilot: I'm here dude
Pilot: yeah but I know everything about you
Co-Pilot: no you didn't :D
Pilot: ...
Co-Pilot: ...
Co-Pilot: ... You're right... You know all I'll let you know... Let's go bug people/friends online
-Grouch
Being a system is fun and all until someone/thing reminds you why you're a system in the first place.
-🍍
Bros, we're watching The Smurfs movies and bros... I'm renaming our terms to fucking Smurf names. Hah Smerfs. Anyways hear me out.
(my term 'alter' my change but for now... I'm putting alter. If you didn't use "Alter" you can swap it)
And yes I changed a few of these, yes you can use them cuz bro... Fuck normal things am I right?
Grandparent Alter
Parent Alter
Nerdy Alter
Clumsy Alter
Hefty Alter
Grouchy/Grumpy Alter (A calmer word for rage/anger holders)
Handy Alter
Jokey/Prankster Alter
Greedy Alter
Chef Alter
Vanity Alter
Lazy Alter
Harmony/Music Alter
Poet/Writer Alter
Painter/Artist Alter
Scardey Alter
Sloppy Alter
Tracker Alter
Baby /Youngster Alter (probably a little honestly guys)
Snappy Alter (definitely a step down from Grumpy)
Slouchy Alter
Alchemist Alter
Timid Alter
Actor Alter
Architect Alter
Baker Alter
Dabbler Alter
Doctor Alter
Dopey Alter
Enamore Alter
Finance Alter
Flying Alter
Nanny Alter
Nosey Alter
Editor Alter
Reporter Alter
Sculptor Alter
Sickly Alter
Stinky Alter
Sweepy Alter
Tailor Alter
Wimpy Alter
Wild Alter
Weepy Alter
Tuffy Alter (acts tough)
Nurse Alter
Lucky Alter
Pretentious Alter
Pastrycook Alter
Cook Alter
Submariner Alter
Gutsy Alter
Navigator Alter (bros this is weirdly Lance for us)
Hunter Alter
Flighty Alter (can't make decisions)
Nobody Alter
Pushover Alter
Crazy Alter
Narrator Alter
Passive-Aggressive Alter
Panicky Alter
Smooth Alter
Clueless Alter
Party Planner Alter
Complimentary Alter
Drummer Alter
Schemer Alter
Dreamy Alter
Gullible Alter
Paranoid Alter
Policeman Alter
Magician Alter
Mime Alter
Karate Alter
Gamer Terms
(least to us)
Farmer Alter
Miner Alter
Miller Alter
Fisher Alter
Timber Alter
I understand some of these are mean or harsh! Oh you use this you can change it to fit your feels better!
(Also sorry this is kinda thrown. I wanted to just get my thoughts out really)
-Larry
Someone in our system wants to take us to the gym to walk on the treadmill with a book until the book is finished
-c
Alter going to the gym at 9am: Oh yeahhhh we gonna have a killer workout!
Alter who has to do a 6 hour retail shift afterwards: WHY!? WHY DO YOU HATE ME!?
Okay start this with a song I suppose, shall we-
We're The Wild West System.
Please be patient with us. We kind of discovered we're a system mid 2024 shortly before meeting our partner sys. We're mostly made up of fictives. (If you want to know sources or the difference. Ask and they may tell you!)
Collective name: Eddie
System nicknames: West/Crow
Collective Pronouns: He/They
Collective Orient: Bi
Body Age: 21
Disorders: ADHD, PTSD
Suspected Disorders: OCD...
Hobbies: reading, writing, painting
Hyperfixes: ALWAYS changing
Body/Hosts: Writer, M and Crowly, BJ, Shawn Spencer
Co-Hosts: Peter Parker, Steve Harrington, Wade Wilson, Tony Stark,
We'll post using our SP sign offs and try to tag who posted if not uh... Good luck out there with our posts!
We don't know terms really yet so all your hoodoo voodoo terms makes us
brave of you to explore system tumblr bc the amount of ppl spreading blatant misinformation would make me explode. we admire ur patience
NONNIE you would not believe how many times we've internally exploded.
like how can people be SO stupid. 🔇's favorite thing literally used to be scrolling on endo tags and bitching them out (NEVER like. Actually. To their face. It was always outloud or in our head.)
THANK YOU THOUGH NONNIE !!! I hate misinformation and I hate endos <3
THIS !! I can NOT stress this enough. OSDDID is not something fun to have, sure it has its positives (positive experiences) But it's still a trauma disorder. I'm tired of seeing radqueers on here saying "fuck you anti radqueers !! I'm gonna form a system becuase I can :3 I want dissociative amnesia ! I want horrifying flashbacks >w< and I want to have split headaches so bad they're crippling! >:3" I wish every radqueer, endo, pro endo, endo neutral a very get well. A very get educated. It hurts to see these types of people refuse to understand how NOT FUCKING FUN these DISORDERS are, which mind you are INVOLUNTARY. You cannot pick and choose having OSDDID.
DID is more than just having parts. Its also,
• amnesia
• confusion
• headaches
• nausea
• repeated childhood trauma
• anxiety
• spikes in fear. Anger. Or shame
• mood swings from parts
• body dysphoria
• depersonalization
• derealization
• self puzzlement
• loss of control
• flashbacks
• dizziness
And more.
DID is not "friends in your head" its traumatic, scary and uncomfortable. Its not fun it's a terrifying TRAUMA BASED disorder. And it should never be romanticized - Vesper
inspired by boop day, reblog this post if its ok for people to send you random asks and interact on your posts with no judgement. i want to talk to people.
Hello !!! It's vamp here with a post !!!
On today's episode of
WHAT DID WILD DO TONIGHT !!
I bring you
The endogenic tag ! One of my personal favorite pastimes is to scroll upon the endogenic tags on this wonderful website !!!
It may seem real stupid but BOY is it fun!
Today's little,,, scroll was far worse than what I could have ever thought.
Guys what the FUCK are transplurals and transables and literally everything under that umbrella. What. Why.
I saw something that had said " they were dysphoric about being a singlet. "
.... be fucking for real. BFFR.
Why would you even WANT this disorder? To seem cool and fit and hip? Yeah no uhmm how about you don't! I don't fake claim, I promise !!!! This isn't fake claiming because THE FUCK is wrong with you.
No seriously. What are you dysphoric about. HOW can you be dysphoric about a disorder.
Please get help <33 I worry for some people sometimes
That is all for tonight. May every... traumagenic system and respectful singlet who reads this have a pleasant morning, evening and goodnight.
All hate will be deleted. I do not negotiate on this.
Could you (those with systems) explain systems to me?
I come across adhd and autism posts everyday and interact freely with them, I also come across systems or system related posts and I avoid interacting with those, not because I don't like them but I fear I will say smth wrong by not understanding them and I don't that I'm avoiding it.
So if you are a system, could you please explain to me about what it is, what it's like and if there's smth you'd like me to know when I'm interacting with either you or other systems? <3
Also if I have said smth that's offending or badly worded, please tell me, I will apologise and fix it as soon as I can! <3
a sequel to this post
we are the same, i don't have any advice personally, my only guess is that we have lots of "split spikes" during traumatic situations, and that could be happening to you if you are currently in a traumatic situation? that's our personal experience though, so take it with a grain of salt, we dissociate hard when thinking about being plural which makes it really hard to think about solutions. Good luck though!!
Here's the issue:
I writing this am part of a larger system, Wanderstars.
However I (personally) experience different personality and age states as headmates. We are all together in our own group.
If I attempt to push them all together and say "they're different emotions not different people" I spend all day dissociated not knowing who I am at all.
Either way, what I know logically is "happy" and "sad" and "lonely" are different people in the mind and it's how we need to be to function. They don't like being the same person together because they're not the same on some level. Switching between them is best described as monoconscious.
Does anyone have any advice or tips on like...slowing down crazy "splits" of these new fragments? I'm guessing to bring us all together will take serious therapy, since there are dissociative barriers in place for a reason, but in the meantime is there any way to keep us at a low number?
We are traumagenic. Wondering if this is any similar to the experience of any polyfragmented disordered systems? Or just similar to any of your experience.
Any response is welcome. Didn't think we'd be questioning plurality a second time.
- Wildflower Garden
I kinda have the same sentiment, but I’ll detail that in a later post since I still haven’t really been using this account. But I also do not wish to be affiliated with AspenFrost or any of the hate she spread here, even for my own disliking of endogenic systems -V1
Okay. Lets start again from the beginning shall we?
For those of you who don't know me, I'm Red Cherry Rain, but you all can call me Cherry for short. I am the host of a traumagenic D.I.D. system that goes by the name of The Nightmare District. When I first created this tumblr it was out of retaliation to the Endo community on here. Some of the things said on this tumblr have been out of pocket and wrong of me to do and I do truly apologize to all the people I have hurt by my past posts. These posts weren't just sharing my views on the endo community but more attacking them for their beliefs. My own belief does still stand. But that being said, I will not continue to attack the endogenic community on this platform or any other platforms that I run. I am allowed to have my own rights and views on the endogenic topic but so can everyone else. Hence from here on out I will look at what endos send to me, but that being said I will share my own personal views on what is shared. For anyone who comes to me, I will share my opinion, but I will not try to force that opinion on anyone else. This is me agreeing to disagree on your views. Now what does this mean for future posts. For any post regarding Dissociative Identity Disorder I will continue to use plural tags on the platform, I will not use these tags to share hate, but to share my own life experiences with D.I.D. and how I live as a system. Hate is not a good thing to spread and can instead cause discourse among everyone on the platform, no matter which side you are on. I ask that the people doing so refrain from doing it anymore. If you do not like or agree with what I am posting you may leave your opinions, I will indeed read them. But with that, I will not change my style just to cater to one person. If you truly do just fully despise my content you may block me and move on with your life, I will not hold a grudge against you for it. Everyone's style in content creation is different, my community will find me and grow because of the people who enjoy my work. I will no longer kekw at endos, but much rather I will share my opinion and walk away. This page is not endo safe, but I will also not personally hunt you down, I will mention though that the majority of people in my discord though do share the same view on you as I do, proceed with caution. We will not attack you, but we may politely ask you to leave.
In regards to AspenFrostEN: I no longer wish to correspond with Aspen, I do wish to coexist peacefully with Aspen and the Entourage System. I personally do not agree with the route that Aspen has taken with her community and her content. I do not hate her, I am more disappointed with the way she is making systems look on every platform. For someone who promotes and stands for healing, she does not make it easy for anyone. As mentioned before, Aspen if you do happen to read this, you do have my discord and I do not mind speaking with you privately. But this does not give you any right to attack me and the rest of The Nightmare District, you have indeed indirectly done this twice on your tiktok page and we do not appreciate it. I have been asked and I will say it here, you may apologize and I will forgive you, but you have a lot to do to earn back my trust, especially with what you have done. My discord server is open to all who have dealt with Aspen and would like to share their story, open a ticket and my staff team will indeed get to you All in all I truly am sorry for everything I have done and this is my time to change, I do not expect to be forgiven, and I understand that for some that will be difficult to do, but I promise you all I am trying to change for the better. If anyone of you would indeed like to speak to me privately I do ask that you join my discord and open a ticket where I will gladly be of service to anyone who would like to speak to me privately. Thank you all for giving me a chance to explain. Below I will link my server for those who need it! Thank you.
TRUE LMFAO -Sark
As a system, being asked by a singlet “are you a girl or a boy” is one of the hardest questions to answer properly.
Bro I’m so fucking tired I should probably make like a sys account or something but damn nice to see systems with sourcemates pop up cause makes up feel less alone in the world. This post is incomprehensible gn -Sark
SOURCE CALL FOR PAIMON FROM GENSHIN IMPACT (TRAUMAGEN AND DISCORD ONLY)
Hello, I'm Lumine!! I'm the host of a system and I'm missing my closest and dearest friend from source, who I call my sister, Paimon. I'm talking to an Aether and we both wish to speak with a Paimon, at least for a bit.
My only requirement is that you're bodily 14-17 and a part of a traumagenic system. We will talk on Discord, so I'll DM you my username on here before I can.
Thank you so much!! Have a good day!!
If I split a character from Blend S, it's not my fault
Shakes I wanna do a source call but idk I'm scared