Ex Lds - Blog Posts

my prince of kentucky, made me feel so -lucky

from within him a dark light, first alleviated my plight. // a call from a ghost, taunted me the most.

parasites of confusion, try to take host //

yet i still want to stay, simply can’t keep away. see the smile in his eye, you’ll understand why. //

anger& stone, an empty car ride alone. with shattered pieces, can love still be known? i don’t want to accept, that our feelings are outgrown

can’t be my home, if he prefers to roam. but i keep coming back, he is my crack

in awe & terror, possible margins of error.blind me in ways, fog up my gaze. the tears that fall, pain me for days.

still i am here, and yes, it feels queer. his invitation on a whim, i lay next to him my feet, cold. they clammer, it’s dim

roses have their thorns, messages from the unborn. i eat the sweet bread, see visions of the dead. sacrament. new hope. a reason to tread

though not gone yet, please don’t let me bet. i’ll always remember, the first moments we met

broken & hollow fleeting internet follows // my red bedroom walls, these urges to wallow //

uncertainty abound, is all i’ve really found

love somehow remains

& is the direction i’ll follow