This was me when I was little. My priest grew frustrated with me when I asked if Mary truly had any choice in having Jesus. Worst of all, if I was a good girl would this happen to me? Sooo... I did everything not to be his type, following my previous priest's list of offenses women can commits. Which is somehow longer than it is for men for some reason, of course π
My list of offenses
Tattoos/Piercings
Bisexual
Dark Clothes
Spoke my mind in Church
Believe in Evolution/Science
Being single
Doesn't want kids
Refuses to respect racist/stupid elders in my family, their tits/balls sagging β wisdom, and cutting them out of my life after I moved out of the family home
In that same vein, calling my "sainted father" a fucking asshole for verbally abusing my mom, sister and me all our lives
and the list will continue to grow as I get older and give less of a fuck. The magic sky man, really a human man with a power kink, can get bent before they think they can control me.
MERRY CHRISTMAS, SUCKERS! JESUS LOVES ALL OF YOU!
βQueen Esther
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In the spirit of holy week β±, I've decided to drop this, if this post doesn't resonate with you, feel free to skip....
touch-starvation needs to be written with emphasis on the starving part. you are hungry to be touched. so hungry that even the very taste of it makes you nauseous. it has been long since anything has ever touched you, ever fed you - that your body has grown more used to that gnawing emptiness more than anything else. it's better for you to be held, to eat but it makes you sick to try. you know
happy birthday to dearest Lily Evans. I wish we could all be loved as fiercely as I write you to be loved across every universe, lol.
The Conquerer [5 of swords tarot] this evil knightess is for https://www.kickstarter.com/projects/novaandmali/star-crossed-a-queer-tarot project! go get yours <3
hi everyone! today I wanna talk about how we create false gods in our lives, how that harms us, and the importance of directing our focus! this is a topic that has been on my mind recently as I think it is foundational to everyone who wants to work on their mindset, mental diet, and manifest better life outcomes.
table of contents
1. ways we create false gods in our lives
2. the harm of false idolisation and victimisation
3. the power of focus and attention
p.s: I do believe in god but I believe this post is still helpful from an loa/spiritual persective. so, with that being said, let's discuss!
βΏ part 1: ways we create false gods in our lives
I'd say there two main ways we do that: making ourselves smaller and making others bigger.
when we make ourselves small, we victimise ourselves becoming paranoid about the world and thinking that others have this special advantage over you. I see this a lot in the loa community where some believe that others have some kinda special knowledge and power that they don't posses, when in reality it is just them being more disciplined, more consistent, and more trusting of loa.
it could also be about feeling insignificant in the face of your circumstances. like thinking that the 3d (physical reality) is what is ruling your life and not ur mind. also believing in conspiracies and secret society theories or ideas that are designed to instill fear within you, making u think that someone is out there to get you.
as for making others bigger in your mind, this happens a lot in celebrity and fan culture when you start seeing them as more than human. also when you idolise other people's attention (for example: analysing others behavours around you and ruminating over negative meanings of it). and also you pay wayyyy too much attention to other peopleβs lives like your peers and worrying too much about competition, not realising that there's no competition when you are your own life's creator.
essentially, when you start worrying/thinking too much about something or someone outside yourself, you have formed a false god in your mind.
βΏ part 2: the harm of false idolisation and victimisation
so what's the harm in that? well first, it is such a waste of time and energy on something that won't serve you. also it will only create unnecessary worry and anxiety within your mind. you start to see yourself as powerless and your life as out of ur control. you might also engage in behaviours that cause you to lose yourself in the process, such as people pleasing.
your life will become vapid and shallow since your focus is shit that really doesn't matter. you will also start to associate this great amount of omnipotence and power with something other than god (if u believe in one), bankrupting you spiritually. like you are some insignificant string being pulled along by someone more powerful than you or god, or by circumstances that you believe you cannot change.
small tip: whenever you start to worry too much remind yourself that you are starting to create a false god in your mind. this works wonders for me to quickly disengage from unhelpful thoughts and remind myself of my power.
βΏ part 3: the power of focus and attention
obviously, if you practice lao, you know that what you focus on is what you create. if you dwell in other people's lives or opinions, you're then not dwelling enough in the life you wanna create. focus is like a currency to what you wanna see play out in your life: what you pay attention to is what you prioritise and is what you will get more of.
in my case, when I started focusing on the life I wanna live, that's when opportunities, successes, etc. started flooding my life.
and that also applies to what you consume cos your mental diet is hugely shaped by your media diet. basically, what you consume (see, hear) and create (say, think) creates patterns of belief in your mind, materialising in reality.
ofc, you can always engage something outside of you that entertains you but donβt lose sight of your own liveβs vision. really consider whether what your're watching is adding to your life somehow. make sure youβre using it, not it using you.
a big example of that is social media: you can either curate the perfect fyp to see posts that make you happy, remind you that your dream life is possible, serve as loa tips/reminders or you could consume content that is designed to suck you in and make you angry, anxious, or hopeless.
you decide.
another related term to focus that I wanna talk about is presence and how it is essentially the key to living a happy life.
when you focus on what truly matters, you find excitement and passion again, creating a life you're proud of. being present and focusing on yourself also allows you to practice intentional and mindful living. so you take your time to do the things you care about, you connect back to your spirituality, you realise that youβre more than a physical vessel, and you find yourself again beneath all of society's chatter.
this ultimately builds confidence and trust within you: you become an inspired creator instead of a powerless victim around the people who you look up to and also with 3d circumstances, which you now understand are just past relfections of old beliefs and are easily changeable.
and I think holding such mindset is beautiful :)
anddd, that's all! hope this was a helpful mindset shifting technique for y'all.
talk to you again soon <3
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just FYI
You're more powerful than anything else in this Universe. You're the God of your reality. You can have, be & do anything you want. Nothing is impossible for you. You're limitless.
okay but what if i just eat that whole bar of chocolate
Gravity is a ploy by the rich to keep us down, weak, and so called "grounded".
First, lets take a look at gravity. Gravity generally means something along the lines of a force towards another mass, but in practice this generally means towards the planet we reside on. Now planet, and infact, much of the universe, is created in a closed source environment, as we have not managed to create an environment that takes external input or output. What does this mean? It means the owner of this system, God, is keeping us from connecting and collaborating with other environments, under the guise of them being "TO MUCH FOR YOUR MORTAL UNDERSTANDING", which I could maybe excuse if not for the fact that, according to the terms and conditions, God owns everything in the universe. He owns the raw material, the factories, your new Jordans, everything. This puts him in a class of his own, with him being able to make a lavish paradise in the sky, and weve only begun to scratch the surface. Ok, now to loop back to the Original point, gravity. Gravity is a tool used to keep those indentured into working on Gods blue Earth from, rioting and reclaiming the right to have cool cloud houses and flying. Gravity also keeps you from reaching your full potential by putting insurmountable obstacles, such as 5 pound weights. Without gravity, I could life the moon. They say it's to keep us grounded, but really it's to chain us.
this movie has a damn chokehold on me please lemme goβ¦you donβt know how painful it was to walk out of the theatres on Thursday and see jack shit for the tags on AO3
Dedf1sh is Missing
GOD FUCKING damnit DEDF1SH where the FUCK are we!?
This is an oc for an AU, that I made for my girlfriend @sneakthedawnn . Sheβs for the dragon ball z universe where she is a reincarnationοΏΌ of the monkey god who helped make the Saiyan race. Sheβs the adopted daughter of Whis who found her in an old Mikey god shrine on a planet Lord Beerus was destroying. Sensing her overwhelming god power Whis saved her and raised her as his own. Since she is Whisβ daughter he made her an outfit out of his old robes that would be more fitting towards her. This new monkey god was given the name β Chataβ, for rum Chata. Sheβs a character that visits earth with her father and cat brother. She can have a bit of a temper but if you play nice with her sheβs more layed back like her adopted father.
Trying to go about everyday life while looking through the filter of your own thoughts, hurt, and problems is a major fault. Not one that's easily admitted or spotted by the one performing the act. The second you realize that you're doing more harm than good to the ones you care about most and yourself in the process by doing this is when you NEED to put it to an end. If you cannot correct the wrongs of your ways with urgency there's no telling how much you, you will have left in the end.
im SOBBING i love childhood bkdk. i love them so much. im sobbing so hard god I LOVE THEM!!! ππ
βGod, let me think clearly and brightly; let me live, love, and say it well in good sentences, let me someday see who I am.β
The Journals of Sylvia Plath, Sylvia Plath
DΕugo nic nie pisaΕam, wiΔc wracam i dzielΔ siΔ wraΕΌeniami z ostatnich dniβ€οΈ
Dzisiaj bΔdzie maΕo o ed, poniewaΕΌ dostaΕam okresu i binguje praktycznie caΕy czas, ale wierzΔ, ΕΌe bΔdzie lepiej!!!
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ChciaΕabym siΔ z wami podzieliΔ moimi odczuciami odnoΕnie adoracji, na ktΓ³rej byΕam w sobotΔ, poniewaΕΌ spΔdziΕam tam cudowny czas i ktΓ³ryΕ juΕΌ raz doswiadczylam uczucia, ΕΌe Jezus jest obecny, ΕΌe nie jestem sama.
Adoracja byΕa wieczorem, koΕciΓ³Ε byΕ ciemny, jedynym ΕΊrΓ³dΕem ΕwiatΕa byΕy fioletowobΕΔkitne lampy, ktΓ³re nadawaΕy temu wszystkiemu klimatu. Na adoracji gΕΓ³wnie ΕpiewaliΕmy, kaΕΌdy dostaΕ kartkΔ z tekstami pieΕni, a osoby odpowiedzialne za muzykΔ byΕy bardzo utalentowane i profesjonalne (zamiast organΓ³w byΕa gitara i chyba pianino jeΕli siΔ nie mylΔ, ΕpiewaΕ caΕy koΕciΓ³Ε + chΕopak grajΔ cy na pianinie ΕpiewaΕ do mikrofonu, muszΔ przyznaΔ, ΕΌe miaΕ cudowny gΕos)CaΕΔ godzinΔ klΔczaΕam, ale uwaΕΌam, ΕΌe pΓ³ΕΊniejszy bΓ³l kolan byΕ tego warty. ΕpiewaΕam kaΕΌdΔ piosenkΔ, mimo ΕΌe zazwyczaj siΔ wstydzΔ, bo nie potrafiΔ ΕpiewaΔ.
Przez caΕe wydarzenie i jeszcze po nim czuΕam motylki w brzuchu, nieznanΔ emocje, ktΓ³ra ciΔΕΌko opisaΔ sΕowami. PoczuΕam obecnoΕΔ Jezusa i zapragnΔΕam jΔ jeszcze bardziej pogΕΔbiΔ, w tym momencie nie myΕlaΕam o niczym innym, byΕam szczΔΕliwa, czuΕam siΔ bΕogo i beztrosko. PoczuΕam, ΕΌe BΓ³g jest ze mnΔ , ΕΌe nie muszΔ siΔ niczego lΔkaΔ, ΕΌe nie jestem sama, ΕΌe ktoΕ zawsze bΔdzie mnie kochaΕ. Jestem pewna, ΕΌe nigdy nie zapomnΔ tej szczegΓ³lnej adoracjiβ€οΈβ€οΈβ€οΈ GorΔ co zachΔcam do brania udziaΕu w takich wydarzeniach koΕcielnych i mam nadziejΔ, ΕΌe rΓ³wnieΕΌ doΕwiadczycie tej BoΕΌej miΕoΕciπ€BΔdΔ siΔ o was wszystkich modliΔ, z Bogiem!!! (Przepraszam za bΕΔdy, nie mam siΕy juΕΌ sprawdzaΔ i poprawiaΔ tego wpisu!ππ)
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