I Don’t Want To Be Here - Blog Posts
even the worst things have things to love in them
you can’t save everyone. you can’t fix them.
I don't like living I want to sleep I want to be put into a coma until my body eventually rots and decays I don't want to live yet I'm too scared to die so let just me sleep forever more until my soul fades out of existence sleeping is nice I like sleeping when I'm asleep I don't need to think when I'm asleep I don't need to dictate my future that's coming far too soon when I'm asleep I don't need to feel I don't like feeling I don't understand feeling feeling feels weird I don't like it I want to sleep I want to rest let me sleep
i am so fucking tired. and i don’t want to go to sleep. fuck this i’m done
laying in bed at night knowing she doesn't miss me as much as i miss her
she doesn't cry every night, begging for it to end
she doesn't lash out at everyone around her because she's so upset and angry with the world
she isn't in therapy because we're not friends anymore
She doesn't want me back and she never will
I have to do two projects that are due in the same day in the last week of school get me out of this place
