He looks more comfortable than before
I kind of hate the internet so much sometimes, like I continue to try and look for other people’s experiences that resonate with me (specifically with body dysmorphic disorder right now) and literally nothing. Just nothing. Everyone who i try to see if they have a relating experience on maybe Reddit or quora all happen to be conventionally attractive and just in a bad state of mind. What about me? I’m fat, black, and ugly. People don’t find me attractive. I don’t find myself attractive. So now I’m here trying to figure out if it actually counts as body dysmorphia because what the hell is this.
I guess what I hate the most about myself is the fact that I will probably never be as competent or desirable or pretty or quite literally anything compared to everyone around me.
I feel so unstable, don't think I'll ever be able to function like the rest.
everyday is repetitive, everyone's so damn competitive, and I'm overwhelmed by stress.
I wish I was clean and pretty, small and skinny, and maybe, just maybe, I will be someday.
if I'm only a good in concept, and I'm just another reject, why can't it be in the manic pixie way?
Life's like a test, it's not easy. But it's as if everyone got the answer key, and I was left to guess.
I feel hollow, and all I do is wallow, when did my life become such a mess?