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Hi I luv you so much - when I see you on my blog it makes me happy. I love reading the tags on your reblogs it makes me feel validated and you're super duper cool thank u!!!

I LUV YA TOO DAWG!!!! I'm so glad peeps likes my tags!!! But I'm even more glad dat peeps post rad art ta tag!!! Includin ya!!! And ya're totes gnarly too!!! I lomve complimentin peeps!!! And I mean my compliments too!!! Sometimes I gots a full head and can't make out what ta say so I do stuff like hhnnnngggg and hhshshshsh, it's not keyboard smashin, it's sounds!!! Have a radtastical day bruh!!! Bb

I love undertale

Honestly tough its a delight to see you around

Here have a pic of my cat ^^ for being a rad dude

AWWW THAMKS BRUH!!! I ABSBROLUTELY LUB EM I LUB DA BOWTIE DEY'RE SO FANCY SHMANCEY AND LOOK SO SMORT LIKE A REALLY GOOD COLLEGE PROFESSOR!!!!! I AM READY TA LEARN!!!!! ALSO THAMKS FOR CALLIN ME A RAD DUDE, RAD DUDE!!!!

Me Reading anything you write in the tags:

I like your funny words magic man!

And I like ya rad art!!!! It's so s'mores if ya used da fancy chocolate instead!!!! (compliment) And somethin funny is a lotta my frenns startin pickin up on da rad lingo too!!! Like b4 dey ain't talk like dat but after I showed up in my bruh phase dey started sayin bruh, den rad, den peeps, den sick, den a lotta radical lingo!!! I infected em with my speech patterns HAHA!!!!

OKOKOK SO.. I GOT INSPIRED BY A BIKBOK (by @/mrclownery on tiktok [bikbok]) AND MADE A DRAWIN OF MY GAY TRANSMASC MURDERIN OC I KNOW IT’S BAD AND WHATNOT BUT I AINT A GOOD ARTIST YET BUT I JUST GOT INSPIRED

IT’S BAGS BUT WITHOUT DA BAG HE IS MY SKRIMBLT SKROINGLY SKRUNKLY BLORBO DAT I’VE HAD EVER SINCE I CREATED HIM, I KNOW HE AINT UNIQUE BUT I TREASURE HIM AND I GOT NO IDEA WHY HE’S CRYIN!!!!

PS I ALSO MADE HIM B4 I GOT INTA REANIMATOR

I did it BD

Well, da sketch at least, but I wanted ta let ya see da rough draft on valentine's day at least @owlheartt

It ain't good but it was fun, we switched hats!

Hello friend you're radtastic and cool and fun to hang out with and glowtale is kickbutt and you're so supportive and great and I feel so happy when I see you in my notifications and I love you <3

Huh??!?!?! Ya gave me da unexpected compliment?!?!?! Thamks bruh!!!! I lomve ya too!!!

what do u like abt forestssssststststs

Dey're prebby, dey're mainly peaceful, I would be able ta spar in dem, dere's always cool stuff in dere too

What's dis?

A NEW PAGE OF GLOWTALE??!?!?!?

Surprise B)

Da text will be on da comments again B)

Something to chill to

Message and image by me

Glitch art

Something new from me

Clark Kent

Yes please….consume me….

Our 10 Commandments

just another day in the certified clowns ™ discord group

@gofleckyourself @synthwavegoodbye @jokerrang @honking4joker @heroesaredumb @theawkwardarchaeopteryx @artyfleck

Taking breaks is also being productive

Studying constantly only leads to burnout. Go take a walk. Feed some ducks. Admire a pretty building. Try to cook something new.

You might feel guilty at first, but nothing in excess is ever good, not even studying.

Dont forget to live life

You are smarter than you feel and you know more than you think.

Always while studying or right before an exam i feel like i don't know anything, my thoughts are all jumbled and I can't find a straight answer for a question i ask myself for funsies.

That's ok.

I've come to know that, despite feeling like i don't know anything, i hold all the necessary information. When it counts, when you have a specific problem right in front of you, you will know the answer.

You sometimes just have to trust yourself.

All work and no fun makes for a very cranky law student

Take a break

Go play cards, smell some flowers, read tarot, do a funny sketch of an animal, learn origami, dance for no reason, draw a mustache on yourself

Don't let life pass you by

We're all just humans

And to be human means to make mistakes.

And that's perfectly ok.

Learning to embrace making mistakes means learning to love yourself a little bit more (and at the end of the day, that's what really matters)

2/6 exams to go

Taking breaks is essential to a productive study session

Take a break. You'll waste more time trying to process information with a tired brain than you'd "waste" taking a brain to clear you mind and help the information settle.

After an exam, I've always found it hard to get right back into studying, even if it's for another course (maybe even worse when doing a big switch between unrelated courses).

I have a golden rule of not studying during exam days - not before the exam (it only makes me more anxious and less focused) and not after the exam (brain is mush at that point).

3/6 exams to go

I highly recommend it.

To conquer the world you still have to go step by step about it

This past year i found that no matter how great the challenge, it helps me immensely to stay calm (ignore my panic) and just start working towards my goals systematically.

Starting is the hardest part.

4/6 exams to go

Study for what you love and it will never feel like studying.

I tried all semester long to stay afloat with the courses as to not be overwhelmed during exam season

Now the exams started and I'm able to enjoy learning about things that I'm passionate about

5/6 exams to go (i absolutely nailed the first one)

Exam season is all about balance.

Study too much, you burn out

Study too little, you won't enjoy the results

So, here's my recent attempt at balance.

6/6 exams to go

8/29

Had a super productive day yesterday, so today things are moving a tad slower

Decided to do this in a break to take my mind off the courses

1/100 days of productivity

A random drunk girl trying to pick Dazai up at a bar: I've never even kissed a guy.

Dazai, staring intently at Chuuya across the room, chin propped up on his hand: Me neither~

finished a 4 hour html homework now i gotta study math and programming im gonna kms i swear

Ideal adonis set for the future?

hello reisakumaproducer

UM um oh gosh there are so many

animal ear card! ive made a whole tierlist on all of the people in enstars who've gotten animal ear cards and adonis is one of the very few people whos never gotten one! rei even refers to adonis as a bear constantly in canon. (im not counting horns / demon ears in this) an undead animal ear gacha perhaps, since rei's assigned all of them animals…

a winter card! we've gotten a ton of adonis summer-themed cards but none of them in the wintertime! id love to see a starfes-like card, or even just see him playing in the snow a la mitsuru's snowman card, since adonis has talked about his love for christmas / the holiday season before

REAL undead goth set i need to see BLACK LIPSTICK and EYELINER and PLATFORMS

something with plants and flowers would be so lovely, like pj sekais sunflower set…

a card where undead goes to adonis' home country okay HEAR ME OUT (rambling under cut)

in the scene where adonis talks about how his dream is to perform in his home country, he mentions that he has "no intention of dragging everyone from undead along with [him]" because it's "[his] dream alone," which i always saw as a little lonely… id love for there to be a story where undead decides to take their performances overseas for maybe part of the year, in the same way that characters like izumi and shu have! koga has spoken before about how he wants to show off his rock 'n roll to people all over the world and not just in japan, and i think rei leaving his responsibilities behind and going off to sing overseas with undead would be a lovely parallel to his travels overseas in the war era — rather than traveling overseas all alone because he feels obligated to help others, he's traveling for the sake of his selfish desire to stay with undead. and they could FINALLY escape from rhylink

trans allegory in mystic fragrance and forbidden rain

aka: the essay no one asked for

Content warnings for: Discussions of homophobia and transphobia, and brief mentions of suicide.

If you guys have any other comments on this topic (especially KnightsPs, I'm an UNDEADP so I'm less familiar with their lore) please comment or rb or drop an ask or anything! I love talking. It's also been a hot minute (3 or 4 years) since I last took an English class so my analysis is a little rusty.

Part 1: UNDEAD's "Monster" and Queerness

Every UNDEAD song (with one exception) has the same premise — the singers are the impure, immoral monsters who are singing to a pure, human audience. There are two genres of UNDEAD song:

“I’m a monster seducing you into the darkness, give into your desires because I know that secretly you want it too” — Immoral World, Savage Love Affair, etc.

“I’m a monster and I’m so badass” — Darkness 4, Nightless World, etc.

Darkness 4 lyrics, translation by Shirayukin on Fandom wiki.

The “monster” in UNDEAD’s music is shorthand for anyone that exists outside of a pure society. By joining the monsters, you become tainted and can't return to society, but that’s the only way you can possibly live as your authentic self. In this way, the "darkness" is a safe space that these monsters have created for themselves.

This is, of course, a reference to Rei and how he feels ostracized from society -- the whole reason why Koga began UNDEAD was as a message to Rei that if Rei felt like a monster, he shouldn't roll over and die, but live with them as an undead. However, the concept of the queer monster is incredibly applicable imo. Historically, lots of villains in horror media were queer-coded as a way of eliciting disgust or a fear response, as a way of making its villain seem strange and, well, queer. (Oh, no! Look at all these horrible people ruining life for the law-abiding families!) The link between queerness and horror has been analyzed to death.

But queer people also love the misunderstood monster who's shunned by "proper" society. The gothic novels that originated the horror genre in the 1800s, like Dracula or the Picture of Dorian Grey, were written by queer authors and/or contained scores of queer themes. Do I need to go into why werewolves, shapeshifters who had to go deep into the woods to hide their wolf form, can be read as queer? Do I need to go into why Frankenstein, someone abandoned by his own creator and shunned by society by the nature of his existence alone (something out of his control), can be read as queer? Do I really need to go into why the modern-day vampire is queer? Vampires? Of course queer people will love these monsters, because they see themselves in the monsters, more so than the victims. (Also, nothing more in line with the queer experience than seeing a monster and going “ngl they're kinda hot actually.”)

In summary: It's very easy to read UNDEAD songs and UNDEAD's conceptualization of the "monster" through a queer lens. The monster is queer, and the monster welcomes you into the darkness and invites you to also give into your desire to live freely.

Immoral World lyrics, translation by Mandy on Fandom wiki.

Also, shout out the love you tried to hide, huh? Show me your truth? Show me your pride?

Dude.

Dude.

Sidenote: The one exception to this “monster” theme is of course the elephant in the room, Sustain Memories. I think it plays well into UNDEAD’s image — at least in !-era, Rei, Adonis, and Koga have always been the monsters, while Kaoru is the human that joined them (see: their Halloween costumes in !-era). So Kaoru doesn’t sing of monsters, he sings of a human love. There's also something to be said about Kaoru being the one member of UNDEAD who tried so desperately to appear cishet and experience a "normal" love in !-era. But also, it's a wedding song because the anime boys look cute when they sing about weddings.

Part 2: What about Forbidden Rain?

Here's the thing about UNDEAD's other monster songs -- they're always proud of being monsters. They're not ashamed, and they want the audience to join them in their freedom.

Forbidden Rain lyrics, translation by @/snaketaper on Twitter.

On the other hand, the singer in Forbidden Rain sees themselves as a "beast" who can never be forgiven, someone who's slowly poisoning their pure lover. They love them so much that they apparently have to let go of them, for their own sake. It's the first song that actually contains references to genuine love (usually UNDEAD is just horny).

The song remains sort of ambiguous about the nature of the relationship between the singer and the audience. It's clear that the audience does actually care for the singer, since they do reach out a "gentle hand" that the singer can't take. But the singer says, "Let's end this thing that never even began" -- are they even together in the first place? Maybe it never began because they were scared of the "beast." Or maybe it never truly began because the relationship was built on a lie. They sing about a beast inside them that they have to hide, and says that their current self -- the one they show to the audience -- is a fake. And this is something that cannot be forgiven.

It's not hard to read this in the context of queerness. Maybe it's about a gay singer who doesn't want to reveal their feelings and tarnish a platonic relationship. Or maybe it's a trans singer who's wracked with guilt at keeping their identity under wraps and hasn't come out to their heterosexual lover, so they want to break off things before they come out and taint their previous relationship.

In Love & Beast, the "source material" behind Forbidden Rain, Inogari (Adonis' character) is soft-spoken, protective, and kind. He saves the main police character in the very first scene. He's an ambassador and a respected enough member of society that he's part of the Sakurayama (Rei's character) social club. He uses "watashi," which is even more polite than Adonis' "ore." He literally faints at the sight of blood. He's the picture of innocence and goodness and all that society approves of. But in a Jekyll and Hyde-like twist, he ends up secretly being the killer Beast. In the end, the Beast is finally caught when Inogari realizes the truth and chains himself to a wall so he can be caught by the police in an act of sacrifice.

Inogari is the picture of propriety, but he keeps the Beast repressed, and eventually this Beast destroys him. Even if you try your best to act as part of proper society, you'll never really fit in.

Silent Oath lyrics, translation by royalquintet on Fandom wiki.

Another note: Forbidden Rain has a lot of the same themes of self-sacrifice, repression, and pure, romantic love that Knights songs do. Knights, in game, is a much more traditional idol unit than UNDEAD is. Forbidden Rain thus attempts to align itself more closely with the socially acceptable Knights, but it's still an UNDEAD song at its core. The monster is inescapable.

Part 3: Mystic Fragrance and Trans Allegory

This thread by @/pretty5P on twitter (https://x.com/pretty5p/status/1625958198623539200?s=46&t=lm_x5Uw5f8pKXHUoLzYksw) is a really cool analysis on the perfume symbolism in the song and how it relates to Arashi's gender identity (go read it!!), but if you don’t want to give Elon Musk ad revenue, the gist of it is this: Odette is her "masculine" initial impression, the impression others have of her, and the impression that fades most quickly. Odile is her lasting "feminine" self and the true self that remains when the top notes fade away.

Over the course of the song, the singer (Odette/Odile) grows more and more tainted, going from a pure white dress to a multicolored rainbow dress to a pitch black dress. The final perfume note is desire, the desire to live as themselves, the desire to be with the person they love.

Mystic Fragrance lyrics, translation by KYM2020 on Fandom wiki.

While the song does focus on a pure romantic love, just like Knight's songs, the symbolism of wanting to be Odile is far more similar to UNDEAD's monster. The idea of a "hidden desire" lying in wait beneath pure feelings is explored in almost every song, as is the symbolism of a dress that gets tainted by desire:

Savage Love Affair lyrics, translation by Nina on Fandom wiki.

And just like UNDEAD songs, the "tainting" of the pure is never presented as a bad thing. Note the references to the moon in both -- it's only in the dead of night, in a midnight ballroom, that one can "spread their wings" and reveal their true self. The darkness, the space of monsters, is a safe space, and in the light of the truth-seeking moon the singer of Mystic Fragrance says that their audience is beautiful.

In the original Swan Lake ballet, Odette is a beautiful woman who falls in love with Prince Siegfried. She's cursed to transform into a swan in the daytime, a curse that can only be broken if someone who has never sworn their love to anyone swears their love to her (in other words, someone untainted). Unfortunately, the evil sorcerer who cursed her turns his daughter into Odile, the black swan who looks identical to Odette, and Siegfried mistakenly confesses his love to her. Knowing that the curse can never be broken, Odette throws herself into the lake rather than live the rest of her life as a swan, and Siegfried joins her.

Mystic Fragrance isn't tragic, however.

Part 4: Living your truth

The endings of Forbidden Rain and Mystic Fragrance are where they differ. Both of their source endings are tragic — Inogari is unable to control the Beast and shackles himself to a wall, waiting to be arrested. Odette and Siegfried leap into a lake and drown themselves, because the only way they can be together is in death. Forbidden Rain ends with the singer holding their loved one close to them one last time in the rain before they leave.

But Arashi rejects her source material because she chooses to embrace the monster. She becomes Odile. She decides to live her truth, and as the top notes and heart notes fade away, all that lingers is her true self. That's why Mystic Fragrance has a happy ending.

There's a lot of symbolism in the Mystic Fragrance music video with respect to the person who loved Arashi during the war era and who killed themselves. She spreads her arms like the wings of an angel and sings in front of a setpiece that looks like the cenotaph. Her outfit contains anemones, symbols of a lost love and grief (and, coincidentally, the flower that Adonis in greek myth turned into when he died). Her greatest regret was that that person couldn't love themselves the way Arashi now tries to love herself. In this way, Mystic Fragrance is like a message to that person -- live your truth.

fun fact #1: the name of adonis' character in the Love & Beast drama, inogari, was written as 猪狩 -- with the same 狩 character ("to hunt") as his last name otogari (乙狩), but with the kanji 猪, meaning boar. fun fact #2: in greek myth, adonis was killed by a boar while he was out hunting. these are definitely two totally unrelated facts and you shouldn't read into it at all (you should)

enstars text posts but it’s just adonis and undead (pt. 1)