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AKUSAIMONTH // 2017 Day 2: First or Last

“Heh. I knew you’d like the idea! Just like back then, when you kissed me the first time!”

“Lea, stop. This is getting embarrassing.”

“Awwww, don’t be embarrassed for being a sweetheart~”

“Right. You set up all the candles in your house out on the street to look like stars in the night sky, remember? I’m still not sure if that was sweet or plain stupid.”

“You were so down after we couldn’t see the meteor shower, so I thought I’d cheer you up. Worked better than I had expected, hehe. Also, I’m pretty sure you liked it, judging by your reaction.”

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AKUSAIMONTH // 2017 Day 1: Red & Blue

“Hey. Remember when we used to argue who the sky belongs to?”

“Because everything that’s blue was mine and everything in red yours? Yes, I do. You used to claim you’d overpower me in the evening.”

“Well… Can’t say I was wrong about that?”

“… Idiot.”

“Hehe. Anyway … What I was actually going to say: How about we call it a truce?”

“A truce.”

“Yeah, we never got to a conclusion. So let’s just say, we both own the sky.”

“That’s … This is stupid.”

“Heh. I knew you’d like the idea!”

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Two (older) sketches I felt like sharing. 

The left one (Coronation) is from June ‘16 and is part of an AU I work on from time to time. The right one (Betrayal) is pretty much a redraw, but in a different context. I drew that one in March this year.

Though they look very similar, they have a slightly different subject: Coronation is about outward-directed anger, about something that has happened / is still happening and could not be prevented. Betrayal on the other hand is about self-hatred. About an inward-directed anger that comes from allowing a person to get close enough to hurt one.

I like to see them both lined up next to each other, because it emphasizes the differences. Also, I think they complete each other.

“Do you know what happens to those who lose their true purpose? Inevitably, they destroy themselves.”

Dedicated to @herzblutrose that wanted to see this ♥ (Also I apologize for disappearing like that x.x)

AKUSAIMONTH: DAYTIME MOON Day 7: [Free Day]

Today is a special day. Not only is it AkuSai day, it’s also my 5th anniversary as a fan of AkuSai! To celebrate this event, I decided to redraw the very first AkuSai drawing I ever did! ... ... ... I ... well. I guess my drawing style changed a bit, hahaha.

(I can’t believe I got into this ship because I wanted Axel to be happy. I mean. AkuSai. Happy. Wow. I guess, I had some serious misconceptions about Saix back then, and not only about his hair, haha.)

Well, I hope you all enjoyed AkuSaiMonth as much as I did! <3 Also, thank you for sticking around with me and for shipping this wonderful, painful, beautiful, terrible ship!

Small bonus again, this time it’s a bad quality mobile photo of what the last drawing looked like before I drew the hands. I had to sketch the faces anyway, so why not.

AKUSAIMONTH: DAYTIME MOON Day 6: You’re going to be fine, I promise.

Time will heal all wounds and I’ll accept your scars

AKUSAIMONTH: DAYTIME MOON Day 5: Mm, you’re warm.

“You too ...“

AKUSAIMONTH: DAYTIME MOON Day 4: Just listen to my voice.

I think I’ll just leave this one here. Have fun trying to make sense of it, haha.

AKUSAIMONTH: DAYTIME MOON Day 3: Let me clean your wounds.

(can be seen as a continuation to this)

Everything was spinning, at least that's what it felt like when he woke up. Lea just lay there, waiting for his world to calm down again. He made it, didn't he? He had seen Isa's heart … Isa.

Ignoring his dizziness, he opened his eyes and looked up. Isa lay barely an arm's length away from him. Still … … unconscious. At least, that's what he hoped it was.

In a sudden panic, he got to his knees and grabbed his shoulders. "Isa!", he called out his name, shaking him at the same time.

It felt like an eternity before Isa opened his eyes. There was no trace of yellow left in them. Only the greenish blue he remembered from so long ago. Lea felt himself breaking into a smile. All the tension and anxiousness that had kept him on edge this whole time simply fell away from him. He really made it.

His relief didn't last long once Isa reached out to him and … shoved him away. His voice sounded hoarse and weak and he didn't look him in the eye. "Don't touch me," he said. Lea felt his heart clench.

"Come on, Isa," he tried again, reaching for him one more time, only to get hold up by an arm, that certainly shouldn't be doing that. Everything went numb for him.

He had imagined this moment a hundred times. Heck, a thousand times. He didn't really expect Isa to fall around his neck or something, but this … this was nothing like what he thought. He saved Isa, didn't he? Why was he still acting like this? … Like … Saïx.

He just looked at him for a moment, trying to regain his composure. There were traces of the fight they had before all over him. It hadn't exactly been easy to enter Isa's heart.

Isa hadn't even gotten up. Apparently he was even worse off than Lea himself. "You're hurt," Lea stated in a firm voice, "Let me help you." He took hold of Isa's arm that was still trying to keep him away from him and pushed it down with mild power.

Isa still refused to look at him.  "No. Just … leave me be." But this time Lea heard his voice crack. He sounded … sad.

For some reason, it irritated him.

"Leave you be to do what? Die?" He grasped both his shoulders. Isa tensed up and tried to push him away again, but Lea didn't let him. "Do you really think I went through all that trouble, learning how to use a keyblade, waltzing right into a war, fighting you, just to let you die now?? No, Isa, I will bring you home and if I have to drag you all the way there."

Just then Isa suddenly stopped struggling and looked up to him. For a moment his face was full of disbelief, then he made a sound that was a mixture between an exhale and a laugh, and even though it sounded so sad, Lea felt happy about it. Because it was a reaction to him. And because there was the hint of a smile on Isa's face. It had been too long since he had a chance to see that.

"You're still … as stubborn as ever." His voice was quiet, but it wasn't cold. Not anymore. For the second time within a few minutes Lea felt relief wash over him. This wasn't lost, not yet. They could still go back to the way there were, it just'd take a bit longer than he thought.

"See, that's more like what I wanted to hear," he chirped extra cheerfully. He smiled at Isa, then he tightened his grip on his shoulders. "It's good to have you back. Isa."