Mr. Funky here or Funky demon (however you wanna call me)
I wanna say real quickly as a someone who doesn’t post much of their own content or posts. I wanna say rn as a trans male(questioning), I’m SO SO proud of you for being here right now. I’m so proud of you being the funky, rad person you are today. “But funky, I didn’t do much today or nothing much.” That’s ok! The fact you decided to be here with us is amazing and your gonna be ok. That fact you decided to keep going or seek help is wonderful. Or your recovering from SH or whatever it may be, your doing such a good job and keep going!
Trans, All fruits, autism and ADHDs, Systems and Fictives, Other abled, ethics, natives and so so much much more.
You are some the strongest people I know and Ik it’s hard being here now but I want you to know that you loved by Mr. Funky, by so many others. Please don’t stop fighting please.
Stay Funky💗🏳️⚧️
Okay first for some context: I used to sh. I did it for almost 2 years but i’ve stopped and I’m currently 4 months clean!! I have scars all over both my arms and upper thighs. I have some in other places but those are less visible.
Anyway, I’m so happy because this week I took a big step in recovery; I wore shorts and a t-shirt to school! This was my first time ever wearing a t-shirt without covering up since i started sh.
Btw my left arm looks “worse” than my right arm so when i was wearing a t-shirt I was mostly covering that side with a jacket but some times I wasn’t so i was close. But I had my right arm completely out and although it has less scars and less noticeable ones I’m still proud of myself. Right now I feel almost completely comfortable with showing my right arm maybe even without bracelets on but not my left one yet but i’ll get there soon.
And for shorts I also mostly had my scars out but since my shorts go up kinda when I sit i covered it with a jacket a bit but it’s okay. I have 1 big scar on my thigh that’s pretty low down which is probably the only reason I’m uncomfortable wearing shorts. The other ones are pretty small and less noticeable.
I think the reason I was scared to show my scars is because I thought people would judge me and say things about me or think bad things but so far no one has said anything and I also realize I can’t hear other people’s thoughts so even if they were thinking about it I wouldn’t know. Also i shouldn’t care what others think of me.
It was so random when I started being brave enough to do this. I think it’s because I have this school trip for orchestra to an amusement park coming up and we have to wear t-shirts and the past 2 years i’ve worn a long sleeve shirt under it but this year I wanted to just wear the t-shirt. So now i’m kind of like practicing wearing short sleeves until I’m comfortable enough to maybe wear it on the trip. I might even wear shorts too.
Lastly, I think another reason i feel more comfortable is because I’m starting to lose weight and rn I’m not like fat but I am a bit overweight. And the crazy thing is i’m barely even exercising and i’m still losing weight because i’m being calorie deficit. I used to think that i’d have to do these crazy daily workouts but i really don’t need to. I think I started around mid April and so far I’ve lost 9lbs!! I don’t feel that much different but I hope i start seeing the difference soon. But anyway i feel like when I lose weight i’ll be more comfortable in clothes.
Thanks for reading all the way through if you did <3. It was very relaxing and peaceful writing this. I will be updating on my progress for both weight loss and wearing shorts and short sleeves in the future.
you are not attention seeking.
needing and wanting attention is valid and part of being human. even though there are better ways of getting the attention you desire, you are not wrong for wanting your needs fulfilled. wanting to be seen is valid. there is nothing wrong with needing attention.
3 weeks clean from self harm who cheered… i think im doing great tbh like i did ALMOST fumble but then i was like “this is not cute lol what am i doing” and then stopped GOSH IM SO COOL