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I literally just finish S2 of Castlevania and I’m SOBBING WHAT THE FUCK S3 ISN’T GONNA BE THE SAME WITHOUT THAT CRUSTY OLD MAN SOBS
Sorry, having sad Martin thoughts again.
So there's this particular scene from episode 144. I for some reason forgot this happened in my first two listens (how, idk. S4 makes me feel a lot), then caught it on my third.
This is the second time we hear Daisy coming to talk to Martin in his office while he's working for Peter.
Cold AF. Hurts like hell to hear. You can understand his distrust of her, she tried to kill Jon, threatened to pin him with the murder of Jurgen, and Jon almost died again saving her from the coffin. All that tracks.
But that's not what's happening here. Because this follows immediately after:
Daisy kept coming around the office, getting friendly. Martin knew Peter was around and, if he saw anyone constantly hindering his progress of becoming a part of the Lonely, would have sent her right to it.
But he couldn't just be nice, or didn't feel like he could. Can't give a proper warning when Peter could be anywhere, and if he's too light a touch, she might see it as a call for help and keep hanging around.
So he does the only thing he can, tells her to piss off. It works. He's more lonely than ever, severing yet another connection he was even starting to form again, but she's safe from Peter now.
Which, I have to reiterate, he could have just let Peter deal with her. He is probably harboring a lot of jealousy for Daisy right now. He can't be anywhere near Jon, but now suddenly Jon and Daisy are spending time licking their wounds and listening to the Archers. And Martin is a pretty petty person. He could have kept her talking until Peter got bored and sent her away. Job done.
But he didn't. He readily admits to not really liking anyone here, and not believing anyone likes him either, but he's still trying to keep people safe. Not just Daisy – the entire institute
He's been single handedly keeping half the Institute from being vanished into the Lonely. And he does it because of Jon.
He doesn't like Daisy, but Jon does. Jon nearly died saving her. Jon did die attempting to save everyone. So when Jon didn't wake up from his coma, even though Martin was falling into his own despair, he decided to make the best of whatever life was left in him to honor Jon's memory and keep the others safe.
And there's just something about Daisy in particular being the one to reach out to Martin, as well. She knows what it looks like when you start to give yourself to the Fears. She tried to throw out a life preserver, but if Martin took it, it could have dragged her down too. Or at least, it's how he felt (depression will do that to you. You're not worth saving, and if anyone attempts to do so, then they'll only get hurt, so why even bother asking for help?)
Yet another "I don't know how to end this ramble", but just – ugh. This man hurts me. I will never be okay about this goddamn show.
WHY DOES MY FRIEND HAVE A HUGE OBSESSION WITH DANCE DANCE REVOLUTION, HE WON'T STOP TALKING ABOUT IT, HES TRYNA MAKE ME MAKE MY FUTURE HOUSE A PARTY SIZED DANCE DANCE REVOLUTION. RELEASE ME.
i will be endlessly surprised if this hasn't been done before. BUT I WANTED TO DO IT ANYWAYS
Confettibomb art bc they make me I'll...
Giggles is owned by the lovely @ilikemicrowaves !! :3
John with bows !! :3
someone js hated on one of my comments and called me louis and it’s frying me
pandoras vault is already a greek reference it is surely easy to translate. but i think about sam and dream actually being kids together and cry
"Where have I seen this before?"
The individual frames:
Bonus: concerned brothers
This is so sad! Chat Blanc already broke me, but this...
it’s been months and I still can’t stop thinking about what Chat Blanc did with himself all those months he was alone as the world gradually flooded
MORE METAMY WALL-E AU STUFF BECAUSE I LEFT SOME OF YALL STARVING
patrick calls pete ‘buddy’ with the same amount of tenderness and sensuality as buddy by willie nelson
skybound core!!
the urge to animate that one part of the nasty dog song with my solly and medic ocs but I'm severely lacking motivation rn
and I'm melting. it's so hot for me. please. why can't I find a short haircut to get.
Oh.my,god. When did THAT happen? He is so grown up when you compare those pics!!!! :( :( :(
Someone just told me that Paul McCartney is 100 in 18 years I cannot do this today that man is immortal because I said so
Celebrating Pride 2024 with a Tumblr-exclusive (for now) animatic! Of course it's of my favorite pure-of-heart, dumb-of-ass little gay dudes! ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜
the worst part of the second round of trials the mages put Geralt through actually came after the fact.
he lost his human ears. his ear holes moved up his head and he grew actual wolf ears over them, but his old ears were cut off once he was awake and concious for it.
he grew a tail. once they were sure it was done growing, they strapped him down to a table and cut it off. he was awake for that too. the damage to his nerves was so bad, the instructors went behind the mages backs and got an exile from aretuza to reverse the removal of his tail. he doesn’t let anyone touch it.
he grew dogteeth. the mages pulled out the smaller ones so newer, larger ones would replace them. Geralt’s mouth aches for years. he can’t speak through them, he cuts his tongue trying to talk, can’t open his mouth enough to chew, can’t stop his jaw from shaking, can’t sleep for the bone deep pain at the slightest movement of his mouth.
his jaw trembles when he cries.
when he grew furry swathes over his chest, belly, and back, the mages tried strapping him down and skinning him. again, awake and given nothing for pain. Vesemir, who did not particularly care for children at the time, charged into the room before they could pull their knives from the cleansing fire and killed them.
Geralt flinches when anyone tries to touch him, even in simple affection, for over a century.
so. when Geralt is through all of his changes and emerges a witcher juvenile, the first of this new witcher-kind, he takes to standing guard outside the trial room and keeping the mages at bay. holds both his swords, annointed in Hanged Man’s Venom, between the remaining mages and the helpless boys beyond. he cannot stop them from making more witchers, but there will not be another like him.
Eskel is the one to tell him that they will begin putting more boys through secondary trials after Geralt reaches maturity and is sent on the path and cannot interfere. they even have a specific boy in mind to start.
Geralt packs up his things, sneaks into the pups’ room, and steals Lambert away into the mountains just before dinner. Eskel covers for them. not that anyone notices the disappearance of two children with Kaedwen’s army making it’s way up the Killer.
and after the pogrom, Geralt and his stolen brother return to the keep, and find Eskel and Vesemir. with no mages to uphold pretenses for, they form a family to survive. Geralt grieves their lost brothers, doesn’t say he’s glad the knowledge of the second trials was lost in the chaos on the sacking, but Vesemir doesn’t need him to.
and if Lambert favors Geralt, clings to his brother well past the age any boy would otherwise, looks to him for protection from nightmares and monsters alike, for approval of his choices on the Path, and love in spite of them at times, well, Vesemir isn’t in a position to do anything about it.
"I AM SPREADING MY TOES, THEY'RE AS SPREAD AS THEY'RE GONNA GET!" -My neighbor, while my sister paints her toes
Last night I had a dream about the grinch and his heart was swelling to three times its size because of the excessive love he felt for the whos or whatever the fuck unpruned his heart but instead of overflowing with love it was just stress cardiomyopathy from the excessive noise and he went into cardiac arrest and this seemed important enough to inform tumblr
You guys I hate writing because what comes spilling from the ink that I fought for with my BLOOD AND TEARS is either
"His breath pushes past his lips, cascading in a feather-soft free fall towards what could be, landing just short of 'I love you' and 'please stay' and 'you haven't even left yet but I already miss your laugh' but it's only ever that: just a breath. Nothing more than a sigh, or an exhale."
or it's some fuckass shit like
"Well God could suck it, fuck her backwards over a squeaky table, and impregnate her with Jesus 2.0 before she ever made a decision for herself."
AND THERE IS NO IN BETWEEN. SEND HELP.
Being an awkward romantic like:
If you don't confess your love to me in the pouring rain where the water runs down your face like tears and your hair is messed up in the sexy way and you're avoiding eye contact out of fear of rejection and my makeup is miraculously perfect after saving me from my loveless abusive relationship when you've been watching me be with that person for three years seven months and six days while pining for me all that time then what are you even doing besides wasting my time and yours
BUT
if you say anything even remotely sappy to me besides telling me that my outfit is hot or try to make me hold eye contact with you while you satisfy my soul deep need for validation I will hit you in the ballsack with a chair calculated by the force of my embarrassment and rage condensed into the state of a collapsing neutron star in the vacuum of deep space so don't even fucking try me
You guys lemme just tell you that my ex girlfriend who cheated on me like three years ago just texted me out of nowhere yesterday and said "hey we're learning about mutually assured destruction in our senior year high school class and just wanted to say that's what being in a relationship with you felt like" and I was emotionally destroyed but damn that was a good one. Will probably use it on someone else later.