Speakin - Blog Posts
If anyone who follows me wears skirts and likes it, can you tell me what that's like? What does it feel like to want to wear skirts and dresses?
IT’S 2 AM!!!!!!!!
Yall seen the auction for Freddie Mercury's stuff? Not sure how to feel about it
I completely understand the sentiment that artists should get paid what they deserve, but I also understand we're all kinda struggling at the moment. Right now, making commissions with lower pricing is better than making none because they're unaffordable.
So for those interested, what's the highest amount you'd reasonably be able to pay for a full body, rendered piece from me? (Please look at my current info sheet if you're not sure what that looks like) Thank you!
I have really big plans I don't think I'll ever talk about on here, because I plan for my stage persona to be completely disconnected from who I am right now. But I hope that everything I do and build in the future will allow me to support the research of HIV/AIDS in the way I want to. To campaign for a cure and for resources and for relief how I want to. I'll never know what it was like to live through the heat of the Crisis, but it's just one of those things that brings me to tears, as someone who doesn't cry often, every time I read anecdotes from those who did. My idol in life is Freddie Mercury, and I hope to do him and every other lost queer soul justice.
You guys ever get like, for lack of a better term, imposture syndrome about your own sexuality and attraction type? I'm talking about going without exposure to others who are like you for a while and sinking into the "maybe I'm just making it up, maybe I'm just cis/straight/not ace" hole.
That keeps happening to me, especially with being aspec, because I identify as pansexual and I get asked so often how that could be if I lack the ability to feel attraction like others do that it makes me question if I'm making it all up. Then I see posts from others sharing my experience and putting it in much better words than I ever could, and it literally brings me to tears every time. I get such an overwhelming sense of relief, both in the realization that I'm not alone in how I feel and that I was right the whole time.
I GOT INTO SCHOOL I GOT ACCEPTED INTO SCHOOL
God I love dca fandom artists. I literally haven't seen a single design or itteration of sun and moon that I havent absolutely loved
Before the virus, Moon used to carry around a blanket.
Before the virus, Moon would drape it over cold children. Anxious children. Scared children.
It was a simple, blue thing. A cozy shade that looked just as sleepy as the kids who used it.
Before the virus, Moon was happy to lend it. He took good care of the blanket, so any kid that needed one would have one that felt loved and familiar. It was meant to help them feel safe. And it worked.
After the virus, locked away in his own mind, Moon still carries the blanket. He won't share it. He won't let it go. And he doesn't remember or understand why it's so worn and pilled. He just knows he needs it. And he knows he feels safe.
The one stick-on star that still shines through the paint my landlord covered it with is a poem
Okay okay-
George only sings it on command and you can teach him other songs-
Don’t kill me please :,)
Other songs you say
Little do yall know that I'm using you to discover more reaction images >:)
buzzing in bed, sick and withering, full of love for my moots
Aright alright alright I need help
I'm sloooowly getting over being sick and I really wanna get back into drawing once it's over, but I'm lacking in inspiration right now. I'd love to hear some suggestions or requests (preferably sun and moon stuff cause I still gotta practice them) if yall have any
It sure is something to finally start writing again only to get so so sick
Going back to the gym a couple days ago for the first time in 2 months could explain all my muscle soreness
Hacking up a pill I didn't swallow correctly yesterday could explain my sore and itchy throat
Drinking only pepsi and eating one meal today could explain my headache
Also me: did I finally catch it
Hhhhnnnngggg i need to write the next chapter of SR but i just wanna draw
What if Sun and Moon transitioned by swiping their body like a sequence pillow
I cackle with glee and malicious intent as I watch those reblogging my sun and y/n art thinking it's wholesome...... hmmmmm
It really is hard to fight the feeling of being left behind. For whatever reason, really. Poverty, lack of family, trauma, mental illness and lack of medication, or just plain not being ready yet. And it's so easy to feel like a bad person when you're bitter about it.
I'm texting my friend who still lives with his dad and has never had a job. He just told me he filled in for his brother as a film tech for one day and got offered a job in LA making triple what I make working both my jobs combined.
I'm texting my friend currently on the other side of the world because they were able to afford college, and the school they go to offered to pay for a trip to a country they always wanted to visit.
I'm texting my friend who's about to move to Japan just for the hell of it so he can learn the language and culture. His grandparents are paying for it.
I'm watching two of my friends take off in the music production industry with equipment in their bedrooms.
And it's hard to cheer for them, watching them do things I still dream of doing one day, once my bills stop taking such a huge chunk of my income and I've healed enough from things I've been through. But I do. I want them to succeed. I'm proud to know my friends, who definitely deserve all these good things, are doing well and are being offered the opportunity to be happy and well off.
Please remember that despite this, it's normal to feel bitter. It's normal to feel jealous, sad, and angry even. It doesn't make you a bad person. It doesn't make you a bad friend. What matters is that you keep trying anyway, keep encouraging your peers, and you remember that you're only ever going to get where you want to be at your own pace.
I can only hope that when - when - I do achieve my goals, that the time I took will provide me with ideas and experience that will be completely unique to me, and make my craft better for it.
I know it'll happen for you, too.